In the darkness under the dead streetlight, a lone figure stares, just watching.

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It should have been easy. It almost was. Then everything went wrong. But Dean made Sam a promise, and he intends to keep it.

there's only one thing worse than remembering.

Six year old Dean and a nice therapist named Hannah have a talk. 

NOT AU.

“Would you like to make up a story with me, Dean?”

“OK,” Dean said. Hannah sat at the desk and picked a few figures from the bag. A small dark haired boy, a tiny porcelain baby, a blonde woman, a dark haired woman, and two men, one light haired, one dark. “Would you like to name them, Dean?”

“OK,” Dean said again, and sized them up. The baby was Sammy, he said almost immediately. The dark haired woman was Hannah. He was naming them after real people, Hannah realized. The small brown haired boy became Dean. The blonde woman was Mommy, he said, clinging to it. The dark haired man was Dad. The light haired man wasn’t in the story, Dean finished. He’s nobody. 

“Would you like to start the story?” Hannah asked, but she didn’t have to. He nodded, still gripping ‘Mommy’ doll tight. Mommy was putting Dean doll to bed. Sammy doll was already in bed, he said, putting the porcelain bundle in the cradle. Mommy was putting Dean doll to bed, and she said night prayers with him and tucked him in and read a story on a chair by his bed. Dean doll fell asleep. The doll’s eyes wouldn’t close, of course, so Dean lifted the thin scrap of fabric that was the blanket higher.

“What happens next?” Hannah asked, but Dean said nothing. He fixed the blanket on the doll again, and the position of Mommy doll in the chair. Then he spoke.

“Nothing happens next. That’s the end.”

Normally, this would have been enough for Hannah, but she had a sudden abrupt feeling when Dean fell silent again. Something inside her said it didn’t end there. Dean was lying. 

Season Four recap through twelve songs of Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog, re-written for Sam, Dean, Ruby, Castiel, Anna and Uriel to sing. Or you- just go to Youtube for the original songs and then you can sing my version. 

12 songs in 9 chapters.

Cas's song is UP!

about fiery mouths

and iron teeth       

about breath of

pain and guilt and death

if youre not crazy, prove it.

Best-selling short story author Dean West had a seemingly normal life until a story came out that changed it forever. His father, John, was accused of the murder of his mother, Mary Campbell-Winchester, in a terrible fire that until then had been considered an accident. Suddenly Dean’s life became complicated and mysterious as he was forced to doubt everything he knew and dredge up old, forgotten memories to tell the world the truth about what really happened on the night Mary Winchester was killed.

“You can’t believe the crap you hear in newspapers,” Dean explained when asked why he wrote this tell-all story down and published it. “‘A source close to whoever- I mean where do they get this stuff? The only people who know anything are me and Sam and my dad. You want answers, you ask us, not some hokey ‘witness’. I just want people to know the truth and not some half-assed version with half the details screwed up.”

So Dean ditched his usual short stories in favor of writing a novel-length book of what he calls ‘The only version that isn’t a load of bull.’  “You can’t fit this in a short story,” he said. “Short stories have to be cut down, most of the story taken out besides the major details. This story really happened and I’m not gonna start cutting stuff.”

The confessional he penned is titled 'Implicated' and will be available in stores this March.

“We were just starting

to be brothers again.”

But we weren’t

Because we’ve never been brothers

We’ve always been

Father and son

Brother and keeper

Bodyguard and me

That’s not brothers

That’s not normal

And that’s not

healthy.

And that’s not

What I want.

You heard every single

word that he said

How I'm gonna go bad

echoing in your head

a Sam Winchester POV poem.  Minor spoilers for S5 episodes 1-3.

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“Matter of fact, I save people all the time.”

He should’ve stopped, but he couldn’t. Stupid Ted was a hero from one baby and his dad hugged him and cried and it wasn’t even the dad’s baby.

And that just wasn’t okay.

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One fire, one baby, one Take Your Son To Work Day and Ted Griggs is an eighth-grade hero. From teachers to parents to classmates, the town- the TV- the world sings his praises.

A hero, they call him. Superman. Everyone worships him.

Except Dean.

Dean learns something about his dad and John learns not to jump to conclusions.  

John’s POV, so some language and mentions of violence.    

Featuring WeeDean and Baby Sam.

Those who are dead are not dead, they're just living in my head.

Oneshot.