And... then what happens? Meaning... I want more. :) The demon guy with the paralytic agent is suitably creepy...

Keep going! And what is it about Dean tied to a chair that is so darn sexy??

Author's Response: I don't know, but I was thinking the same thing as I was writing it!! ;0)

Oh, so creepy! I love the letters carved into the victims! I mean, love in that it makes the story intriguing... not loved 'cause I'm a sick puppy. *winks*

And I'm anxious about where John is, what Dean's gonna find, and what Sam's about to walk into (if the cop doesn't bust him mid-car-boost)...

Sam hearing Dean's voice talking him through stealing the car was a sweet touch...

GS

I need more!! Post, woman, post!

That whole conversation with the demon and Dean just tore at me... how he played with his head, using different forms, especially Mary's (guh)...

And your take on the demon's family and the demon Dad wanting Sam... so good.

I happen to actually agree with the demon about Sam's selfishness... while I see Dean continually willing to sacrifice himself, Sam seems to have to be pushed into it, or have a mirror thrust in front of him. I only hope that since he's there now, his struggle to defeat the demon will live up to that wonderfully undying faith Dean has in him...

I can't wait to see what you do next!!

*sob*... Dean doesn't do alone... and that line when he looked at Sam "this is what broken looked like"... gah.

Poor Dean!

YAY! Bobby!! Oh, I'm so excited to read the next chapter, but I have to tell you that there were so many parts I loved in this -- Sam fighting the demon inside of him...thinking about what Dean would do (be a smartass...of course!) -- John's visit to Dean's bed and Dean figuring out that it wasn't REALLY John, but it was enough for the moment -- the little habit of John twisting his wedding ring (so perfect, that)...

I think I remember you saying that you wrote this last season? If so, amazing how close it is tying in with the current state of the show...

GS

Oh my gosh. Okay, gimme a minute to regroup... Dean's reaction to John's death just tore at me. My husband lost his father very suddenly two years ago, and we had to do that -- ID him in the morgue and all of that. That section of this chapter was dead-on perfect to how I could see Dean react, and it also brought back a lot of the feelings of watching my husband just try to remember to breathe... I seriously think he'd forget sometimes during those days.

When Dean touched Sam's shoulder I actually gasped--I just *knew* that Dean would get pulled into wherever Sam is. I want him to go back there -- I really liked how you had them react together. And now with the symbols on his wrists... Holy crap.

I eagerly await the next part.

GS

Oh. Oh my. I am... I am speachless. This was fabulous. I laughed. Tears welled. I was angry. It was practically the entire range of human emotion in one chapter. Loved so many parts:

The reference to Momento was spot on hilarious. The memory with Sam at four and at eighteen was so touching with the gummy bear subtraction (and consequently gave me a jones for that damn candy). Loved how Dean pulled Sam away from a fight with his Dad -- and the bitchin' catharsis will have me chuckling for days.

I ADORE how you wrote Bobby and Joshua. We've only really seen Bobby in the show, but your Joshua was amazing. I loved him. And then you bring in Elkins and the Colt! I was blown away. I had no idea where you were going to go with this. I still don't. I'm hanging on with a iron grip for the ride, though.

The thing that got to me the most, and this was by design, I know, so you did good, girl, was Sam finally pulling himself back together and finding Dean bleeding, weak, and listening to Zep. Not just Zep, but Evermore. Perfect. Just perfect.

I loved the memory of riding in the truck with the night wind surrounding them listening to the music to calm down after the hunt, Sam seeing Dean toy with the knife, mouthing the words, occasionally hearing his voice... so amazing. I could feel it all. Nighttime in the car with the windows down and the radio up used to be a common escape for me. And yes, Zeppelin was often the music of choice.

I am so moved by your writing. You do a fabulous job of creating real-life images midst something that simply cannot be real. You call me Storyteller, but you have captivated me...

I can't wait to see where we're going with this -- it all started with an aborted trip to Stanford, creepy-ass carvings into the bodies, the fight at the barn, the loss of John, the dream plane, *clever*, and now the other hunters and the colt are involved just as Dean fades while Sam revives. Gah. I don't know if I can stand the wait for the next chapter!!

*claps*

I feel like I can finally breathe after weeks of holding my breath!! I'm so happy that you posted today.

This was fantastic -- each chapter just builds upon itself and increases my admiration for the way you write and the elements of the story that you bring together. Threads from throughout your story have started to weave together and I'm starting to see the beginnings of the chord that will bind this journey you've taken us on together (but not too soon).

I love Joshua. His fight with Silas and Jack was vivid -- I know you were shadow boxing the whole time you wrote that scene. And Bobby with Karen and the "father, son, and holy spirit"... I actually cheered out loud. I found myself talking to the characters much as I do while watching the episode.

"Bobby -- it's SAM... the YED is in SAM!! Not Karen!! GO GO GO!"

"Dean, hello... you have a needle in your arm... use THAT to pick the cuffs! Oh, good. You heard me."

And what is it with possessed Sam being so damn hot while also incredibly creepy. When DemonSam made that clerk shoot himself, I actually jumped I *heard* it, it was that vivid. And of course DemonSam smokes, because smoking in TV is now indicative of all things bad and evil. ;)

I hope Bobby didn't honestly think that a pair of cuffs would keep Dean Winchester from attempting to save his brother... and that boys sacrifice is tearing me up. You have taken him to the edge now with that belly wound after being bloody and weak and having to fight (and SHOOT!) DemonSam...

BUT! Contrary to the title of this chapter, there is hope! They have connected once more on the dream plane and I am so excited to see where chapter 15 takes us!! There are so many possibilities for solutions, for emotions, for healing, for dying, for sacrifice - you have me on the edge of my seat.

Whew. Man. I need me a Zeppelin fix after that...

OH! It's here it's here it's here it's here!! *collects self... prepares to review*

This was fanfriggintastic, girl. I am floored by the way you brought us full circle, how you reminded us of the murders at the beginning, the whole reason this hunt started, how you had the demon remind Sam how he reacted then and, guh, the pain those words caused Dean to hear them, no matter how vehemently Sam denied the meaning... I love how you layered the meaning of Dean being crucified and the horrible unfairness of John's sacrifice and death. And I LOVE LOVE LOVE that you had the "other side" pitch in to this battle. The demons are so strong sometimes and they cheat and lie and manipulate and I LOVE that you had the angels thwart YED even before Sam was BORN. That was fantastic. I love the final battle -- I have to remind myself that this story takes place pre-season because you've layered it so well with the events and characters in the show -- with the Colt being key, with the demon wearing John's face, with the boys plastered against the wall, with Dean's pain and betrayal and the bleeding... you gave me chills, you pulled tears from my eyes, and you made me literally cheer out loud (although, softly because of sleeping baby).

Honorable mention must go to your Joshua and Bobby. I love that you gave us a bit of Joshua's past through "Karen" -- the these two have the best lines. I would have to copy/paste practically their whole sections if I said which ones, but for example, I loved when Bobby sent Joshua off after the boys, but Joshua returned with rocksalt-filled guns blazing to save Bobby's ass. Fantastic!

The similarities between the way this story has played out and the first part of the season finale are eerie -- but you have been leading up to it all along with the demon's kid taunting Dean in the barn and the demon itself taunting Sam on the dream plane. The whole time, we knew you were building up to a reveal much like in Devil's Trap and you did NOT disappoint.

I love the final battle, as I've said, but my favorite part is the end, when Sam harnesses his power, believes in his power and defeats that old YED, saving his brother -- sorta. The moment they are back in the real world, Sam, the powerful Chosen one, turns back into a little brother and he just breaks my heart. This:

>>Sam wiped at the tears with the back of his hand. “I’m gonna take care of you, Dean. Just hold on, okay?”

Oh, man. Football in throat. And I love that in his weary, wounded state, Sam's head returns to his memory that you told us about earlier of the three of them together, in the truck, on a warm summer night, with Dean singing Zepp... And I won't go into the weirdness of the fact that Evermore was playing on my iPod as I ended this chapter.

I'm so looking forward to your epilogue and how you wrap it up, healing our boys. Because when they heal, I think we heal a little. Don't you?

OH my god. I was just reading through because I dig missing scenes and then you put that 2nd to last line in there and I forgot to breathe for a moment. That line was perfect.

Thanks for writing.

What a happy accident, stumbling onto your story! I needed a fix -- and I've been looking for a good BUABS tag/missing scene -- and here you are!

I hope you post the next part soon; very interested in seeing where you take this.

Loved the little details at the beginning -- the way you had Dean open the door and push it open with his knee -- so could see that. His snark was classic Dean. And then there was the sound of the flask...and the fact that Dean's been drinking a lot more lately in the recent epis -- loved that you included that.

But of course, the favorite is the fact that he's now a heap on the bathroom floor, shoulder in not-so-good shape and I can't wait to see what happens when he's brother, who is busy drowning in his guilt, finds him there....

GS