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Penname: Smudge93 [Contact]
Real name: Mary
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Well I was born in the same year as the star of the show, that's the Impala of course, but classic isn't a word I'd use to describe me. I've a small son and now work part-time so that has finally given me the time to try my hand at story telling, and this wonderful website has giving me the opportunity to share. I live in Scotland, in a little village on the outskirts of Glasgow, one of the main towns. I love my country, my home and my Supernatural although not necessarily in that order.

 Since starting to write these stories I've realised that the hardest part is that you don't have actors with the abitlities of Jensen and Jared to help convey the emotion that you want to put across. What Jensen can do with just a look or a change of expression can take forever to put down on the page and you still can't do it as well as he can. Oh well at least I can have fun trying!

 

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Lucifer by Rae666 Rated: T starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 506]
Summary:

After millennia of evil deeds, a fallen angel is given a second chance and is reborn as a mortal. 28 years later and he’s gotten himself into a spot of bother. Spoilers throughout Season 1 & 2 and this is ending up as an AU.

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Categories: General, AU, Action, Misc Characters: None
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Series: Shadows of a Morning Star
Chapters: 38 Completed: Yes Word count: 61077
[Report This] Published: 24/05/07 Updated: 24/06/08


Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstar
Date: 11/06/08 Title: Chapter 35: Hello Again

I so want to call you bad names for leaving us hanging like that, very naughty! I mean first Mr K and now you!

I love this story, it's so twisted in a me sort of way. Update soon please!

 



Author's Response:

>:) I will accept all bad names you wish to call me because it was just mean.

Thank you so much! I'm glad you like it. I'm definately twisted myself so... he he

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarhalf-star
Date: 18/06/08 Title: Chapter 36: Dance with the Devil

Rae I love this story, I sooo wish I could write like this!

There's a wee touch of lucifer about you yourself you know with all these evil cliffies!

Roll on the next one!

 



Author's Response:

Thank you so much!

And you're kidding right, I love your tag to NRFTW! :D

As for Lucifer... I'm just mildly sadistic! >:) Just mildly...

Again, thank you! 

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstar
Date: 22/06/08 Title: Chapter 37: It's the end of the world as we know it

Ahh, what are you trying to do to us!

No need to worry by the way, this story is great and however it ends the ride has been fantastic.

So hit that button girl and put us all out of the suspense!

What did you do with Dean??



Author's Response:

Thank you so much!

I'm gonna get this last chapter out of my head and hopefully up before the day is out because I can't concentrate on any other stories.. lol, it's become impossible. :D 

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstar
Date: 25/06/08 Title: Chapter 38: The Last Song

Wonderful! In fact the highest accolade is due 'awesome dude!'

Its been one helluva ride.

Thanks for sharing, Rae, one of my favourite stories on the site.

Mary x



Author's Response:

Thank you so much! It really means a lot, seriously! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

It was so much fun writing! :D

Again, thanks! 

 
Summary:

TM7 tag. Envy was taunting Sam.  I know things.  Sam looked up and saw fear in Dean’s eyes.  Not from the danger of facing the seven deadly sins personified.  No.., Dean feared something else, something more.  Sam shook at the realization.  Dean feared the truth. 

 

He felt like he was betraying Dean by allowing this monster to defile his good name and all the great accomplishments of his life, and a part of him wanted to bust the demon’s jaw himself for daring to speak Dean’s name.  But a part of him needed to know and Dean wasn’t talking.  It was sordid and unsavory and so very wrong on so many levels… but God help him, he needed to know. 

 

   


Categories: Wee!chester, Missing Scenes Characters: Bobby Singer, Dean W., Sam W.
Challenges:
Series: Life, Love, Loss and other Wonders of the Universe
Chapters: 7 Completed: No Word count: 49079
[Report This] Published: 20/10/07 Updated: 12/06/08


Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarhalf-star
Date: 18/06/08 Title: Chapter 7: Chapter 7 - You Can Run But You Can't Hide

I have just sat and read this through for the first time tonight and I have to say its beautifully written and totally engrossing, even in its darker moments. It now 2am UK time but I couldn't go until I'd read it all.

So much of it is very true to the Dean we know and love and your imagination fills the gaps, blending (TV) truth and your fiction seemlessly.

Poor Dean, was there ever a more troubled soul.

Excellent story, thanks for sharing this.



Author's Response:

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me.  I really appreciate it.  This is a dark story, but I hope it will be an important story in revealing some of the truths of Dean.

Sam will learn who is brother is and again know why there is so much to admire about Dean.

Thanks again, B.J.

 
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Categories: Orphan Characters: None
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Series: supernatural, The Others, The Others, Creature Feature, love or hate?, what will dean do ?, love or hate?, Strange Angels, Strange Angels, Winchester Single Shots, Winchester Single Shots
Chapters: 0 Completed: No Word count: 0
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[Report This] Published: 31/12/69 Updated: 31/12/69


Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 29/07/08 Title: Chapter 39: Chapter 39

What an evil cliffie!! More please!

This is great story but I think my heart'll give out before the end! Too many emotions happening all at the one time! Go get him Dean!!

Love this,  Mary x

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 22/08/08 Title: Chapter 40: Chapter 40

Well worth the wait, clapped my hands with glee when I saw the update!!

I love the Impala giving Dean strength but what an ending. You just want to scream at him, his name's Dean dirtbag!!

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed
Date: 09/09/08 Title: Chapter 41: Chapter 41

Wow, intense, very intense.

 

 
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Date: 12/09/08 Title: Chapter 42: Chapter 42

Yeh, doesn't matter who killed him just as long as he's dead, bad, evil man! At least Dean got to play with him for a while.

Glad Shannon did the deed if not Dean, very fitting.

Can't wait to see what happens with Sam and John.

Maryx

 

 
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Date: 17/09/08 Title: Chapter 43: Chapter 43

It all sounded good to me Bambers!

This is a great story, lots of tension in this chapter. Can't wait to see where you are taking this story next.

I know what you mean about the internet, I was researching methods of torture for my story, must raise eyebrows somewhere!!

Cheers, Mary x

 
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Date: 24/09/08 Title: Chapter 45: MISSING PRESUMED DEAD

Poor Dean, he beats Dominic only to be brought down by himself. Has he really pushed that self-destruct button that we all know that he has? And what is happening to Sammy?

Can't wait for more, no need to worry this arc had got my attention as much as the other one did.

Cheers mary xx

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed
Date: 27/09/08 Title: Chapter 48: Chapter 48

So not lokking good at the moment.

I have a strange thought though about Marianna not being what she appears to be??

Interesting.... Mary xx

 
Summary:

Sam goes missing, again, and Dean has to find him. Too bad for Dean something's after him too, and it's not necessarily supernatural either.

Huge thanks to bulletbabe for another awesome banner, she is totally awesome!!

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Categories: General, Action, Misc Characters: None
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Chapters: 27 Completed: Yes Word count: 103980
[Report This] Published: 28/12/07 Updated: 14/09/08


Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 12/09/08 Title: Chapter 26: Chapter 26

This is great, Helen!

Poor Dean's had a heck of a ride in this one.

Loved Bobby's comment about selling the car and that whole little bit with him and Dean, Bobby almost doing a 'Dean' there and hiding his concern behind the humour.

Need more please!

Some people have to watch reruns of NRFTW until Jan 09 I hope you know (or watch S4 by other nefarious means!) hehe.

Cheers Mary x

 

 
No Vacancy by StrigoiVii Rated: K starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 208]
Summary:

It was just another crappy motel in another crappy little town, right? Wrong.

Thank you Vanessa for the beautiful banner, god he is a sexy beast, isn't he?

No Vacancy


Categories: General Characters: None
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Series: None
Chapters: 14 Completed: No Word count: 49189
[Report This] Published: 04/03/08 Updated: 03/03/09


Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed
Date: 31/07/08 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12

Hi

Glad you've updated I really like this story, Dean is such a bad patient isn't he?

Wonder how they'll smooth their way out of this one?

Mary x



Author's Response:

Hi right back!

You are so right about Dean and patient, they are like fire and water, arent' they?  Have no fear, Sam could talk his way out of a mime convention, I think. (Randomly weird, I know)

Let me just say too that I really did love your 'Play Me' story... it's one that I'll most definitely read again.  Kudos!

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 20/08/08 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13

Hi, ok so what does Dean know that the rest of us don't??

Your updates are always worth the wait, you should know that. Can't wait though to see what happens next.

Keep up the good work. Mary xx

ps. Have I told you just how much I love the banner on this story! Brings a smile ever time I see it!!



Author's Response:

What Dean knows that the rest of us don't can be a very scary concept sometimes, can't it?  Ahh, just kidding.

Thank you so much for saying that it's worth the wait... but I still feel terrible it takes so long sometimes. Thanks so much!!

Oh... the banner, totally the word of the very talented Vanessa!  I considered it a gift and can't thank her enough.

 
White Room by bjxmas Rated: T starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 107]
Summary:

Dean survived Hell and was on the road to recovery, but for every surge forward he’d fall back a step or two. His frustration at not being whole was growing. He wasn’t the man he used to be. Would he ever be that man again?

 

No Rest for the Wicked tag.

 

 


Categories: AU, Missing Scenes Characters: None
Challenges:
Series: Life, Love, Loss and other Wonders of the Universe
Chapters: 20 Completed: Yes Word count: 68570
[Report This] Published: 15/05/08 Updated: 05/11/08


Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 25/07/08 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12 - Send in the Clowns

BJ I love your stories.

This story is great as poor Dean swaps his white room in hell for another in a different kind of hell.

I love the way you write, so descriptive but without taking away the reader's chance to use their own imagination.

Looking forward to the next update!

Mary x

 



Author's Response: Mary, thank you, what a lovely review.  Dean will be stuck in one hell or another until Sammy comes, but he will soon.  I really appreciate you taking the time to review.  Take care, B.J.

 
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Date: 08/08/08 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13 - To Dream the Impossible Dream

Hi BJ

What a wonderful story, I mean really wow! I absolutely love this, I can't really express in words how it makes me feel.

Feels as though you are in Dean, you describe how he is feeling that well. You want to get to the end to know everything will be alright but you also want to savour every bit of what is a really intricate story too!

I really, really love this story. Major favourite!  Mary x



Author's Response:

Thanks, Mary, much appreciated. I've been told I do well getting inside Dean's head, not really sure what that says about me considering where he is now, but I still take it as a compliment.

The chapters are getting longer so still a ways to go, but I'm thinking only four or five more chapters.  Have to get the guys to where they can comfort each other a little before we leave them.  Take care, B.J.

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 22/08/08 Title: Chapter 14: Chapter 14 - Failure is Not an Option

Hi, Your updates are always worth the wait so don't ever worry, I get a twinge of anticipation when I see this on the 'just added'.

Glad that Bobby is there for him, Bobby is for Dean what Dean himself is for Sam, his rock.

Poor Sam, so desperate to help but yet not able to in the way he would like.. for now.

This is such a beautiful story.

Look forward to more. Mary x



Author's Response:

Thanks, Mary, I really appreciate it.  I normally like to update quicker but lately the chapters are getting harder to write.  Glad the story is still working for you.

So true that Bobby is there for Dean like Dean is for Sammy.  Sam wants to be there for Dean and he will, eventually, it is just going to take some time.

Thanks again, B.J.

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 04/09/08 Title: Chapter 15: Chapter 15 - Angels Are Watching Over You

Oh wow!

Love this story, the bit with Dean and his mum was beautiful and Bobby pulling little pieces of Dean back with each belonging brought tears to my eyes.

But Poor Sam, still waiting for his time to come, as I know it will.

Such a great story BJ can't wait for more,

Mary xx



Author's Response:

Thanks, Mary,

This story is one I'm really enjoying writing.  I love incorporating flashbacks of the Wee!chesters and with Dean's mind so fractured it is a great opportunity.

I love Bobby and Dean scenes, and imagining the actors and how much they both bring to those scenes makes them even more special.

Poor Sam is right!  His time will come and the hugs are waiting.  Thanks again for all the support, much appreciated.  B.J.

 

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 20/09/08 Title: Chapter 16: Chapter 16 - The Only Way Left is Up

That was great, the boy is back and all the boys are together again. Peachy!!

You know much as I quite liked the way S4 started I would have absolutely loved to have seen it come back like this. I actually like your version better!!

So there Mr Kripke. He might have the wonderful Jensen *sigh*(yep I'm a Dean girl!), Jared and Jim but he ain't got you BJ.

Looking forward to the rest but not it ending 'cos this story is just wonderful. Stuck in work at the moment and this had brought some light to a dark day. Cheers 'til next time, Mary x



Author's Response:

Hey, Mary, your review brought a huge smile to my face.

Kripke has a million balls in his court and has to move the show along at a brisk pace to pack everything in.  But he is so very fortunate to have this cast and his stable of writers creating their magic.

That's what I love about fanfics, we can focus on that emotional hug and make it last however long we want!

I'm rather liking this story too, not that I think I have that much to do with it, the story kinda writes itself, but I am also loving the direction of the show and can't wait to see what lies ahead for all our Winchesters.

Later, B.J.

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 28/09/08 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter 17- One is the Loneliest Number

HI BJ

Don't change a thing, if the rest of this story is as good as what already up then I can't wait to read it.

Loved this chapter, the little Dean on Dean moment, broken Dean with Sammy (the 'can you see me?' and the 'Am I real?' comments made me want to reach into the screen and hug him too!) and then a little glimmer of the man we all know and love.

Wonderful chapter in a wonderful story.

Said it before but I'll say it again, I love your version of S4, have done from the very start.

Thanks for this, cheers Mary xx

 



Author's Response:

Thanks, Mary, you really are too kind.  I love Kripke's S4 too, but I do love being able to examine Dean's issues on a deeper level.

You pointed out all the things I loved about writing this chapter.  I totally love little Dean talking to Dean, and the dream/nightmare was a gift since my psychologist friend actually had that dream of Jensen/Dean after reading my story before going to sleep. 

And after all he goes thru, I knew I had to start giving him back pieces of himself because Dean Winchester is never down for long.  He has this amazing ability to persevere and conquer. 

Love your reviews.  Thanks again, B.J. 

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 18/10/08 Title: Chapter 18: Chapter 18 - I Once Knew an Angry Man

HI BJ

Another great chapter, I love how you write Bobby and Dean together. And I think I've finally learned how you get inside Dean's head so well....those little chapter notes.

I'll tell you what I'd tell him.. no doubts, no fears only belief and the knowledge that you are good at what you do..I love your stories, they take you in and involve you.

I know from experience that sometimes it is hard to get in the grove and I also feel that finishing a story and being happy with the ending is a huge deal and one that I don't always manage myself...but I live with the knowledge that I tried my best and at the end of the day...that's all that matters.

Can't wait for the update, this story is fabulous..kick those doubts into touch lady!! Now!

Cheers Mary xx



Author's Response:

Hi, Mary!

I do love Bobby and Dean together, how close they are.  Always good to hear others think I get inside Dean's head.  I always feel more confident writing him, I think because Jensen makes him come alive for me.

Thanks for all the support, over all the chapters and stories.  I try to not be needy as far as reviews go and stay true to my own beliefs, but sometimes the doubts creep in.  I'd rather have worries that I'm not good enough, than ever get arrogant... Don't think I ever have to worry about that one, tho. LOL

I always feel the most pressure to have a good ending.  My last chapter is always written before I get there, I have to know where I'm going and how I'm going to close out a story.

Yep, at the end of the day all we can do is our best, and then try to do better the next time.

Take care, B.J.

 
Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 25/10/08 Title: Chapter 19: Chapter 19 - By the Grace of God, or Whatever

Hi BJ

Wow, I don't read many fanfics with tears in my eyes the whole way through but this chapter was amazing. Raw, powerful and sensual.

I had a whole sea of shifting emotions reading it.

Dean so alone and lost in the first part and then connecting and opening up to his brother....absolutely wonderful...I loved it.

Just ...wow

Mary x



Author's Response: Hey, Mary, thanks again!  What a truly lovely review.  Dean is going thru the entire range of emotions and it was nice to have Sammy there for him.  I'm gonna be sad to leave this story, but one more chapter and I think it is complete.  Later, B.J.

 
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Date: 05/11/08 Title: Chapter 20: Chapter 20 - I Fight Therefore I am

Hi BJ I feel very sad at the moment because this wonderful chapter means that my favourite story on the site is complete, but it’s a happy, sad ‘cos now I can go back and read it whenever I want. I loved this last chapter, the change from the almost lazy pace of Dean’s thoughts to the panic of the storm coming, and you can feel Dean’s panic there like it is a living, breathing thing and then change of pace again as the rainbow appears, a promise that he has weathered the storm and things will get better.  I love John telling Dean to just keep driving and not ever look back…something that we all should do sometimes. And then Sam is there, as always, willing to talk, willing to listen, willing to just be there. To catch Dean in the moments when he falters. You show that both brother’s love each other without conditions; wholeheartedly and embracing, each one the other’s rock.  Dean willing to go on not despite of his fears but because of them, because this is who he is. A fighter; beaten, bloody but never truly broken.  I love how the whole way through this story you make me feel that I am in Dean’s head, you take the man apart better than a whole host of demons could and then you piece him back together beautifully, leaving just a few of his flaws showing – as how it should be. I can see every piece of this story play out in my head as I read it, you write it so well.  I think that you’ve taken the essence of the man that Jensen has breathed life into on the screen and done the same on the page and I love it. I love stories that rip open Dean’s chest and pull out his heart and you did that beautifully, both literally and figuratively. Raw and painful in places, uplifting and comforting in others but always beautiful and totally enthralling. A great take on Dean’s trip to and recovery from hell. Thanks honey, take care ‘til the next one, Mary x  

Author's Response:

Mary, what can I possibly say to respond to such a wonderful, insightful review?  Thank you!

I love that you got everything I was trying to put into this story and I love that you think my words captured Dean and his journey.

I find so much to admire with the Winchesters and particularly Dean.  We all should be as brave and fearless when facing our own personal trials.

This story was rough at times.  You can't possibly consider Dean spending that much time in Hell and not touch on the horror of that.  But ultimately it is a story of survival and hope.

I always love examining the man that Dean is, including all his fears and regrets and his dashed hopes.  The fact that he does keep fighting makes him the ultimate hero.  It is never easy, but he keeps doing what is right.

Jensen has made Dean such an amazing character and he makes him come to life on screen.  To think I could possibly come anywhere close to breathing life into him on the page is the ultimate compliment.

Thank you again, from the bottom of my heart, for all your support on this story.  Until next time, take care, B.J.

 
Summary:

Soul Cages

Amazingly beautiful banner by the amazingly awesome Rae666

Tag to No Rest for the Wicked. As the deal comes due, Sam has a plan to save Dean from his fate. Spoilers for the finale. NOT DEATH FIC

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Categories: General, One Shots Characters: None
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Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 3491
[Report This] Published: 20/05/08 Updated: 20/05/08


Reviewer: Smudge93 Signed
Date: 21/05/08 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I love this, the story takes you on a ride through the all emotions, and I love the ending! As the man himself would say "Awesome, dude".



Author's Response: Oh thank you so much! *blushing* an awesome dude is high praise indeed! I'm a little overwhelmed at how much people liked this story! Thank you again so much!