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Penname: RoweenaC [Contact]
Real name: Ilka
Status: Member
Member Since: 15/03/08
Website: http://roweenac.livejournal.com/
Beta-reader: No

 

 

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Old bio kinda didn't fit the cool banners... sucked a little, too.

I am an educator and work with children aged between 5 and 12 in a small town near Cologne in Germany.
I used to study English Literature, Archaeology and History but dropped out before the exam. Now, I'm enjoying my life and love my job.

I have done some writing in German, though I prefer English when I read and therefore write in that language, now. Furthermore, the show is way better in the OV than the synchronized version. Their German voices suck big time and they sound like high school boys... eeewww.

Having stumbled on the FanFics only weeks ago, I'm already addicted. You guys rock. I enjoy reading your stories so much. And I love reviewing almost as much as receiving them. Favorite topics in the stories as well as on TV are Dean in pain or emotional turmoil, taking on Demons etc. Yeah, I just like DEAN anyhow, he's just so...... ah, well you know. O oh, uhm. Wait I have to get my drool bucket. I am a little famous for it. If Dean is really hurt bad or if he strips I'll be drooling across my keyboard. Um. Sounds kinda disgusting. I AM A NICE PERSON! HONESTLY!!! My own stories tend to be Dean-centered covering angsty, hurt, tortured, snarky and protective Dean. Don't do humour. Just can't get the hang of it and those colloquialisms are really tough to do.

I am a huge fan of the British Isles and try to go there at least every second year.... This year I will be there three times. God. Can't believe it.

I'm an Aquarius and suffer from a great deal of this sign's flaws. Short spans of concentration, volatility. But I love being an Aquarius still. Being able to think ahead, to come up with unusual views about the world. You know what I mean... being a revolutionizer, a rebel not to go with the flow but to find different approaches and invent new things... Ehem. Sorry... wandered off...

some adjectives to describe me: clumsy, moody, morose, happy, witty, pert, funny, quick-witted, cynical, cheeky, sarcastic, caring, helpful, loyal, rash, impatient, enthusiastic, less persistent, friendly, polite, quickly bored, phlegmatic, lazy, depressive, angry, pugnacious, fierce, quirky, messy and laughing a lot.

Um, and a bit more info 'bout myself now:

age: mid thirties (dreading my fortieth birthday a little, still got some time till then though *wipes sweat from forehead*)

music: not only classic rock, there's Depeche Mode (and any other wave/electro stuff) - nope, not a goth though

movies: l love vampires and horror movies. Batman (with Christian Bale, my other fav male actor, apart from Jensen), LoTR

TV shows: long list here; Supernatural (no, not kidding!! haha.) CSI (all 3 of 'em), Medium, Criminal Minds, House, Heroes, X-files and many more. Addicted to them... Haven't watched any of them lately. Only SN for that matter. Caught up in writing and reading your AWESOME stories.

books: hm, difficult, am an avid reader, especially when it comes to Horror, Sci-Fi and Fantasy. Have had a Stephen King phase, right now it's Neil Gaiman and Christopher Paolini. Also love Tolkien, Tad Williams ....

pets: 4 (!) guinea pigs - don't pay any rent them dirty squeaky fluffy cuddly piggies.

kids: no, not yet, though 125 at the day care... If that counts...

higher ed: well, been there, tried that (majors in English Lit and History), dropped out

fav quotes: "Dude, I full on swayzed that motherfucker" and "What am I supposed to do?"

fav epi: all of them...

fav scene: AHBL2, Dean's moment of grief... awh. Makes me wanna hug him and snog him all (yes all!) over. 

well, then that seems to be all so far.

THANK YOU birdie for your trust and encouragement, I'll be forever in your debt....

And a shout to all ye GaLs. You know who you are. Loves ya all.

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AWESOME banners by bulletbabe! You so rock Louy....

I'll advertise my favourite self-made banner of the month here from now on... as no-one seems to read my journal *hint, hint*  

calUK and I have created our own LiveJournal community! Strictly for promoting purposes (for UnGen and dd.com!) and to have a safe haven on LJ WITHOUT wincest and all that other disgusting stuff! It is called winchester_hell and takes hurt!Dean and limp!Sam aswell as angsty stories. As long as one of the boys is suffering, we will post it!

We also post artwork, so if you're looking for a place to put your pretties, come and see if you like it!

We want to get people to read the stories over here, too. We will post promo-post from time to time to get people interested!

edited 09/09/25

Also, I'd like to mention my own LiveJournal here. I am very irregular and unpredictable when it comes to posting to it. However, I have started a thread there, where I discuss concepts and the development of the show's current plotline. It's called "Things to be remembered" and originated some time near the mid-season break in season 4. I have since posted quite a few of these rambling attempts to analyse the show. The following banner marks every TTBR entry I come up with. And, judging by the first 3 episodes of season 5, I'm gonna be doing that pretty often. I would like to invite you to drop by and read and maybe even comment! I'd love to discuss my ideas with you! See you on the otherside!

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UnGen Awards 2009 (edited 12/30/09)

 ~bounces and gazes at the awards with disbelief and joy~

 

Thanks, OMG... Thank you so much. This means a lot. Guess I'll have to finish End of Days after all... ~sharpens pen... um... fingertips... ouch!~


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Reviews by RoweenaC
 
Summary: Dean is haunted by the flashback from a hunt that took place while Sam was at Stanford. He can't remember the details but what he can't recall can hurt him.
Categories: General Characters: None
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Chapters: 11 Completed: Yes Word count: 26504
[Report This] Published: 29/12/06 Updated: 11/02/07


Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 25/03/08 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4 A Few Wrong Words

zero gravity??? lol, just love your end notes terry!!

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 25/03/08 Title: Chapter 11: Chapter 11 Hunt Part 2: Perception of Reality

uuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhh. nice twist, though. saw it coming....

 

keep it up, good night. Ilka

 
Summary: Preseries. What happened in the days before Sam left for Stanford. It's affect on everyone as the situation spirals out of control. Complete!

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Chapters: 12 Completed: Yes Word count: 22141
[Report This] Published: 29/12/06 Updated: 29/12/06


Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 20/03/08 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12 And the Rain Came Down

What a ... well great doesn't really cover it... -have to borrow Deans words- an AWESOME story. Far the best one I've read so far. FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT. Keep on writing. I'll be damned. I'm totally shook up, goosebumps all over... Thanks, you just made my day.

Greets from Germany, Ilka

 
Summary:

Following John's coordinates, the boys prepare to battle a witch. When they discover a greater evil is at work, can Sam save Dean's life or will his brother's pain become his own?


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Chapters: 8 Completed: Yes Word count: 53269
[Report This] Published: 30/12/06 Updated: 31/12/06


Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 30/04/08 Title: Chapter 1: Coordinates

Hey Gaelic,

missed me? Well, I missed you and your writing. Couldn't concentrate at work. Have been thinking about RAMBLE ON the whole day. Kept mulling it over. Relieved that I havea few days off till Monday, now...

Now, that Brenna is supposed to know more than she lets on. I don't think she is a threat. As I know you've put her in another one of your stories. Guess I'll have to wait and see... I like her, she doesn't fall for Dean's seductive methods as easily. Bit of a challenge for him. GOOD!

You know me. I have some quotes again. It's just the easiest way to comment. So here goes:

...“I figured. You are the hunter, he is the scholar. It may as well be tattooed on your foreheads.”  Whatever damage Declan’s earlier words had done to Dean’s ability to trust these two, Brenna’s words instantly healed....  She is a genius. Liked her already on first sight, but at that moment she was brilliant.(un)consciously healing Dean with her words...

...He wondered if it had ever been said to Dean. He remembered Dean saying it to him when they were kids. When he was scared or lonely or just needed reassurance....    Yeah, that's Dean. I think you know what I think of him by now and his inability for speaking about his emotions and especially the "L" word. He's been taught by the master himself, John.

....In every teasing remark, in every blow that he took instead of Sam, in every step that he took putting himself in danger instead of his brother, Dean said ‘I love you’....   see my comment above....

...She tried to ignore the fact that his grey T-shirt outlined the curve of the chest she still remembered clearly from last night, and accented his well-muscled arms perfectly. She also tried to ignore the fact that his hazel-green eyes lit up when he was pissed. Like he was now.....      The girl knows him already. And he is sexy, ain't he? uuuhhh

 On a more personal matter: Bev (birdie) just told me you've been to hospital a few weeks back. Sorry to hear that. Hope you're better now...

Hugs, Ilka

 



Author's Response:

I did miss you! So glad you decided to read more. This was the first fanfic I wrote -- first story I ever finished, so I hope you enjoy it. I love that you post quotes -- it really gives me a thrill to see what resonates with you.

Birdie is a gem, isn't she? I adore her. I was in the hospital about a week ago with appendicitus. Had to have emergency surgery, but I'm doing MUCH better now. Thanks for asking and for your well wishes!

Best,

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 30/04/08 Title: Chapter 2: Banshee

Gaelic,

what an awesome chapter. Humor, snark, tears, action and kisses (almost more!) in it. Loved it big time.

And I totally love DRUIDS. So cool. Really like the celtic lore in this bit. YAY!!

John already pisses me off again. Although, I'm not sure if it really is him on the phone. Seems a bit too convenient he calls when Dean is contemplating Brenna's innocence. Maybe it's the Banshee? Odd feeling in my stomach there.

Eyes, freckles as intriguing as Dean, I love Brenna, wonderful character. And when she sees through him, sees inside him. Breath-taking. He is such a lonely, lonely man, wanted to hug him. But I'm afraid he's gonna shoot me if I try.... hehe.

You are so good at describing all these layers of the man Dean is. His inner battle against his feelings for Brenna and the order John gave. Feel all torn apart for him...

And then the kissing scenes. I just wanted to be her for those moments. Can't let my boyfriend hear that, hehe. However, Dean's dilemma is similar to Sam's in HEART. Both of them in love with a potential evil they (might) have to kill in the end... owh, so sad.

Dean's greatest fear of letting Sam and John down. Well, gaelic you are a psychic. That is exactly what Dean confesses he did in AHBL2.... Awesome.

And then the end of the chapter. Nasty, evil and cruel. To have him being ripped apart in the one moment he truely follows his own path, when he finally puts himself before somebody else. DAMN! Hope to god he somehow gets through it...

...“A need to get a room feeling, or a grab the crucifix feeling?”...  Sam actually snarky, haha. Hilarious....

....“Like…” and then it dawned on Sam. “Like you… like her.”....   actually a psychic-boy there!

.....Sam paled. “Do you have to talk about it?”  Dean quirked his lips downward. “Sorry I brought it up.” Sam moaned. “Bad choice of words, Dude.” ....       hysterical laughter here. He ain't gonna die again? Sorry, feel the near death scene of Ramble On still resonating in my soul. Kinda laughing despite of my panic. 

....“Yeah, you are. You don’t know what to do if your Dad is wrong.”....    That girl is so cool, she's got him figured out!!!!

“Why, Dean? It’s all I see when I look at you. I look at your eyes and you don’t reflect back at me – it’s just your Dad and Sam.” He pulled his eyebrows together. “What the hell does that even mean?”  “Where are you, Dean?”  ...     Way to go, Brenna. However, Dean's not gonna open up easily. He has no practise doin it, doesn't know how...

Brenna blinked. It was as if suddenly she saw three of him. She saw the confident, cocky, badass, seducer of women who relieved men of their money at games of pool and women of their phone numbers soon after. She saw that image he'd fabricated super-imposed on top of a warrior -- a fierce protector who would not hesitate to give his life for those he loved… and he loved them completely. Then she saw the boy. A lonely, sad, frightened boy who never once had anyone ever tell him that it was okay to need...         Overkill, in the second chapter already.        TEARS....

Oh, and his mouth is amazing, as are his lashes, freckles, chest, arms and EYES. Love the whole package...

Cheers, on with the next one

Ilka

 



Author's Response:

Oh, your reviews are wonderful -- I'm clapping each time I recieve them. I'm glad that you're getting some rest this time, though. Wouldn't want you to turn into a zombie! :)

I'm so glad you liked this story so far -- as I said, it was the first I wrote, so I always get a little... anxious. :) But I had such fun writing it. Imagining it. Seeing it in my mind.

Dean truly is my consumate hero, as he is yours I can tell. Which, I suppose is why we always beat the hell out of him -- to watch him walk out on the other side. :)

Best to you,

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 30/04/08 Title: Chapter 3: Holding On

Gaelic. One more review before I turn in.

This chapter is packed with brilliant pictures and moments.

First of all the ingenius idea about the box. Dean is really smart. Struggling with all the pain he still manages to do his job, protect Sam. And owh, how he struggles in this chapter judging by the times he looses control over the lid of the box and the effect it has on Sam.  AGONY ! I totally like the idea of their brotherly bond becoming more defined by the Banshee. Awesome.

Ha, and the way Metallica suddenly calms both of them...?! Who'd have thought?

now on to my usual quotes: 

....“I look at Dean and I see...you. I see John. I see…fire, if that makes sense. But I don’t see Dean. It’s like…to Dean…he doesn’t exist without you.”...     yeah, full on right and sad.

..."He’s blocking it.” Sam pulled back, shocked. “What? How?” Brenna lifted a shoulder. “He’s protecting you.”...    Still doin his job. Dean is such a devoted brother...

...Dean Winchester did not do alone well...   same as in AHBL2. He can't do it on his own. Can't bear the thought of being alone, without the most important person in his life and makes thefreakin' deal. Oh, Dean. I keep refering to this epi, because there we see Dean as he really is, as he feels deep inside...

...“We’re saved. Brenna has a bag of dust.”...    You got Sam say some hilarious lines in this story. Like the sarcasm in it almost Dean-like. Way to go Sam, keep up the snark.

...For a moment, hazel-green eyes had reflected in what were normally chocolate brown. Dean’s essence had flashed through his brother....    beautifully written and so touching. So the bond works in both ways. Maybe they might use it to kill that sunovabitch Banshee in the end... 

....Black eating up black....    excellent image here, Gaelic, eerie and threatening. COOL.

...He was still his superhero brother...     Damn right and he will be until he dies, which might do rather sooner than later. Oh, I can already feel tears welling up....

That's it for 2nite, Gaelic. I need to get some sleep. Can't do another massive R&R-session. Still feel tired from last night. But be sure to check the coming days. I'll be back with some more R&Ring...

Sweet dreams... Ilka

 

 



Author's Response:

Thank you again! I hope you continue to enjoy the story. I will keep watching for you!

Slainte,

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 01/05/08 Title: Chapter 4: Letting Go

Hello again,

actually I didn't plan on reviewing tonite. I wanted to do some due work. But my own computer overheated (been working for like 20hours today). So, I took my boyfriend's (he's asleep) and read the next chapter while my PC cools down a bit.

The best part in this chapter is the one about Sam putting his brother's hand to his heart, like Dean used to do when they where kids. Owh, so sweet, so soft, so wonderfully caring. These guys are unbelievable. Great idea...

I must also say, as I am a Dean-girl, I dig the references to his lashes a lot. Made me tingly each time and there are a lot of lashes in here, hehe. Thanks.

And in the end, Dean is so battered and his defenses are that low he can't stifle a pained yell. Oh, he had to have been through a lot to get there. Unusual but owh so good. He can't always be in control. HE HAS TO LET GO sometimes (hehe...).

Yeah. I figure that there’s a balance to everything, you know? And if we’re out killing all these evil sons of bitches somewhere, somehow, there has to be good out there, too. Angels to match the demons.”      What a philosophical insight. I work with children and they are such philosophers only hardly anyone ever notices. Thanks for putting these great lines into his mouth. Made me smile through tears (yeah, tears again, gotta buy new tissues in the morning.)

"Creideamh,” he said into her ear. Faith. Belief      I was praying and believing through the whole ceremony. Even though I knew/hoped he would come back, but I felt compelled to support Brenna.

“Ch-chics dig sc-scars,”       I DO, I DO. My boyfriend usually calls me a perv for it... Well, he doesn't have any, so I can't prove to him, how much I dig them and what he might gain from my affection.

I know this one does at least, Brenna thought, looking down at him     Just a guess here, gaelic. Could it be Brenna is a lot like you? She is too well written that there isn't a real-life person behind her.

Well then, as my computer still doesn't boot, I'm gonna go on with the next chappie.

I guess you're watching the next epi, huh? They are not that far over here in Germany with the show. However, I know where to get it from soon...

Cheers, Ilka



Author's Response:

Oh! I hope the PC makes a comeback for you... technology is wonderful... until it lets us down. And yeah, my husband has several scars from various things he's survived. Some rather large, in fact, and though he hates them, I tell him that each one means I got to have him for a little bit longer. So I love them.

I'm flattered you think Brenna is like me -- but in reality we couldn't be more opposite. She's strong where I am shy. Outspoken where I observe. Bold where I pull back. And, well, then, there's that whole druid thing.

I will say that I have a bit of a banshee in me that I've passed to my daughter. A temper that when riled is a force to contend with -- but then, I'm a women. Can't we all say the same thing?

I'm pleased you seem to be responding to Brenna as I've brought her back, but I can assure you, I've based her on an amalgamation of people real and fictional, pulling together traits I admire and wish to emulate.

A "mary sue" of my ilke wouldn't make it with the Winchesters. ;)

Altough... my husband says I've a bit of a mama tiger in me, so if someone went after my girl, that could be a different story. :)

Hope you continue to enjoy -- and remember, I've learned a lot since writing this one... at least. I hope I have.

Gaelic

Oh, PS. I missed tonight's episode due to a tornado warning (darn Kansas weather) so I'll have to catch it tomorrow. Sigh.

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 01/05/08 Title: Chapter 5: Truth?

Hey gaelic. Had to give my Sam (boyfriend! honest to god his name is Sam) a lift to work. So it took me longer to finish this chapter.

Lovin it big time (yeah I kinda repeat myself, but you're to blame not me, you are the author...).

First part of it: I like the mullin'-things-over-Sam. He is quite the thinker. In my story, he's got a chap of his own only thinking, worrying and thinking again. Was fun to write. Anyways, yours is way better... I suck... STOP the whining Ilka!! Suck it up!!

Then the nightmare. I gotta say, that was definitely worse than "seeing" Dean die or hurt. Such a lonely self-loathing guy. Won't he ever see how valueable and wonderful he is? Guess not... outa character if he was... maybe if he was possessed...

Nice idea to have Brenna singing Zeppelin. And then especially that song. It clearly underlines the message. Dean could love Brenna but he has his damned job to do and to look out for Sammy. I love Zeppelin too, though I prefer Kashmir. Listen to it while writing a lot especially when Dean is hurt. Helps me to focus.

Hilarious: natural/supernatural Brenna.  

...the medallion resting in the hollow of his throat...    yummy. I like the image in my head... hmmm. I'm really intrigued by the necklace. Wonder what Kripke is doing with it. I liked the idea on the VS a lot. Although I have my own thoughts about it (see my story, oh, I sound like an advertisement, sorry).

... She took him because he lost his Mom and his Dad in the same night...   ...the worst thing for a child to happen. And it is so true. Poor Kid-Dean and Adult-Dean, too. That's a wound that'll never heal. No real scar tissue, still bleeding...

...Dean had the heart of a rogue, Sam the heart of a romantic...    how do you always find the right words for my thoughts. I am so amazed. It's so true and short. Well done (me jealous, too.)

...He was darker than they gave him credit for. And that was like John. That was exactly like John...  We have seen this dark Sam on the show already many times in BUaBS, AHBL2 shooting Jake in cold blood and of course in Mystery Spot...  I must admit I like Sam better when he is darker. He sometimes seems too normal especially for a Winchester.

...He didn’t like being alone because he didn’t know who he was with when he was alone...  ...The only person that scared him was himself, and he never left – he was always there...     Yep. Instantly, the scene from DaLDoM popped into my head, where Demon-Dean confronts Dean. Great thinkin' and again I ask myself if you really aren't a little psychic...

...He’s all I have. He’s everything I am… he’s the only good in me.     owh, heart-breaking.. TEARS... Worst part of the nightmare.

..Like I slept with a hamster in my mouth...   Great fun. Howling with laughter after the awful experience of the dream.

“You ever hear that saying that insanity is genetic – you get it from your children?”     see my comment above. Hahaha.

....He’d taken his shirt off more on this job than any other....     Well, I'm not complaining, he could leave it off if I were to decide.... oooh, come on. Strip for me... Nonono, now I'm naughty. Sorry...

As you can see, I'm still enjoying your story. It is as usual packed with good stuff: bit of sexy images, action, tears and humor.

Cheers, Ilka

 



Author's Response:

Kashmir is a great song. I had a friend in high school that told me it was the ultimate make-out song. *smirk* Wonder what he was after... But seriously, I love Zeppelin. As does my little girl. Black Dog makes her clap. And Over the Hills and Far away soothes her. Although, so does Metallica's Nothing Else Matters, so you never know with that girl.

I'm so glad you enjoyed this chapter. I have to admit I was nervous that you were reading so closely being my first fanfic. I like to think I've improved since this. BUT! If this entertains you, then that's all that matters. :)

Thanks so much for the detailed reveiws. I am soaking them up.

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 07/05/08 Title: Chapter 6: The Fight

Gaelic.

It took me 6 times to start this chapter and finish it. Every time I chose to read it, something came up. Either my rotten computer crashed (three times) or the phone rang (twice) or it rang at the bloody door. It felt like cursed. I salted and burned every bone in my flat, splashed a gallon of holy water around and drew a devil's trap on my desk. IT WORKED. I finished it finally...

Dean on a tractor, that was just unbelievably funny...

You know my MO by now, I guess. SOME QUOTES:

...Dean stood on the other side of them like an avenging angel...    HOT and so like Dean. Doesn't he always look like that with his sawn-off clutched in his hand?

...Rage. Pain. Fear. Desperation. Sorrow...    A few words, but powerful emotions and pictures blossom from them. The essence of Dean...

...It was the most wonderful feeling in the world. It was also the most terrible...      Isn't that just so unfair? He feels great and sad at the same time. But we're all human and know that there are always two side to the medallion...

...Out of nowhere it seemed, he suddenly wished that his Dad was there...    Now, how utterly sweet is that. He still needs his Dad, don't we all some times? Oh, bless him. His family is so close to him and means so much to him. I wish I could hug him or make John appear right in front of him to ease his pain and fear.

 

OK, off to the next chappie.

Cheers, Ilka/RC



Author's Response:

I could "see" the avenging angel scene in my head SO CLEAR when I was writing this. I held on to that for a long time afterwards, too.

And yeah, there are times that I really think I want my Mom around, even though all it would bring me is heartache, chaos, and more work. But sometimes the need for a parent is instinctive.

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 07/05/08 Title: Chapter 7: Brothers

 

Gaelic.

Reading this story is a pleasure. However I feel like I'm jinxed. Maybe Brenna has got something to do with it. As it is, I've just finished reading and reviewing and my Internet fails. So I click and refresh. The whole review is gone. GODAMN SONOVABITCH COMPUTER AND TECHNOLOGY! I thought that was behind me (see my LiveJournal).

OK, now. Here I go AGAIN, 'cos you deserver a nice review.

...“Dude. I did not faint.”“It’s called friggin’ blood loss, man.” ... So typical. Al ways works on Dean to allude to him being some kind of wuss. Hehe. Made me smile and then giggle.

...The tremble betrayed him before the hitch in his breath... Owh, my god. You had me in tears here. Just after the giggles. Still wiping my eyes. *sniffles* Ain't that a sweet and breath-taking moment of weakness. For once in his hard life, Dean allows himself tears. Not sad, grieving or desperate tears. Tears, because Sammy told him how important Dean is and how much Sam owes to his self-sacrificing big brother. I wanna hug 'em both.

...what was it about grabbing his hair, anyway?... And laughter again. Boy, get yourself a decent haircut. Nobody will grab it then. You're so not a teenager anymore...

....wrapped a towel around his waist, and stepped into the room... Thanks for that sexy, hot picture. Anyways, I think I have one just like it on my desktop. Hang on. Lemme see. Yeah. OH YEAH. Jared's got some fine muscles, doesn't he? Oh those abs.... *drooling* Even though I am a Dean-Gal, that's some hot thing to think about....

....He thought about how young Dean looked when he slept.... So true. He looks a lot younger than Sammy, when he is asleep or truly happy. Remember in BDaBR when they get the free meals and have a picture taken? He looks so young. Like 15 or something. Ah, bless him. Such a multi-layered man... complex, indeed.

Typed this review using my OpenOfficeWriter. So, no Internet-demon can get to it now...

Cheers, Ilka/RC



Author's Response:

*pets Ilka*

I'm so sorry you've had so much trouble with technology. I've seen some of your posts on LJ about how much trouble it's been.

But in any case, I am still blessed with this review!! Thanks so much -- and I'm glad you enjoyed those parts you called out. It was so much fun to write. :)

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 07/05/08 Title: Chapter 8: The Journey's The Thing

 

Oh, Gaelic, ye goddess of FanFiction, I bow to thee. (*smirks*)

What a wonderful story. Filled my heart with all emotions a good story has. Love, hate, fear, compassion, angst and happiness. And no, I don't think I should be kind because it is your first. Don't have to be, it rocks. Thank you, thank you...

I'll be reading the sequel next.. Hope I'll finish without more computer problems. So I can finally, maybe start on “In the light” some time soon.

Now, my usual quotes. Not that many this time. Would have taken the whole of the chappie, but...

....“Because you’re on a journey, Dean. And I’m not sure when you’ll reach the end or what you’ll find there. So I wanted you to have some…protection while you traveled.”.... That Brenna-Babe is a gem and a psychic and so right. I know, they'll meet again. Maybe this time there'll be some action between the sheets, huh? Not really described as such but I wish for Dean to have an equal for once... (Am I being any clear on my wish? Brenna and Dean having S**)

kissing scene: again wonderfully descriptive, felt real and sexy... yay, great writing.

...If you rid the world of evil, he thought looking at his brother, would you end up living in a world without hero's?... DAMN RIGHT!! So, make sure there is still something evil to hunt. Would be so sad without you guys....

What Brenna sees in his eyes: Owh, I do love the way she understands and reads Dean. Not invasive but understanding, caring. And when she sees the boy laughing, oh, my breath hitched at that. I felt so happy for Dean. Brenna is a cool, cool character. Looking forward to meeting her again on the sequel.

In total: Great story, wonderful OC. Loved the special bond between the brothers. I enjoyed every letter, every word and every line.



Hugs, Ilka/RC


 



Author's Response:

HA! Goddess of fanfiction. Hardly. I'm so ordinary I could disappear if you glanced my way quickly. :) But I still love that you have enjoyed this story.

And I'm pleased you've enjoyed Brenna. She appears in two of my other stories and now that "In the Light" is done, I plan on bringing her back at some point. Have three stories in the works...

I'm hopeful that I'll get to see you on a review page again. Thanks so much for muddling through your PC troubles to make sure I get these reviews. I treasure them. Honestly, I do.

Best to you,
Gaelic

 
Summary:

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When a hunt goes sideways, the brothers are hurt and lost in the northern Minnesota woods. They have only each other and their skills to get them out...and they aren't alone. They are being tracked by the 'perfect hunter'.


Categories: General Characters: None
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 9 Completed: Yes Word count: 67711
[Report This] Published: 31/12/06 Updated: 31/12/06


Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 28/04/08 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2

Hey gaelic, feel like leaving a short review.

I have read those of your stories on the VS and must say they were great. However, this one is the first of your ungen ones I read.

I must say I love the flashbacks. Nicely done, they explain so much of Dean's and Sam's behaviour. Kid-Dean is so sweet and vulnerable... I wish I ould hug him and squeeze him to make him feel better...

I like the way they are forced to talk about their emotions, especially Dean. I guess he wouldn't be talking if he didn't have the concussion...

Well, on with the next chappie...

Cheers, Ilka/RoweenaC



Author's Response:

Hi and Cead Mile Failte (a hundred thousand welcomes)!

So happy to see you here and I'm thrilled that you are enjoying this story. I'm just about to wrap up it's sequel, In the Light. :) I had a fantastic time writing Ramble On and hope very much that you enjoy the remaining story.

Thanks for coming by and for letting me know that you enjoyed the VS stories.

Slainte,

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 28/04/08 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3

Now, that's what I call writing.

Where to start...

I must say you clearly got the point: Never Dean before Sam. Poor sap, always putting himself last.

I love it when Dean is walling up his emotions, makes me wanna hug him and it's a feeling worse than reading about a Hurt!Dean (which I do love to read and write about preferably). Owh, melting here...

Like this "Oh, I thought it was a rhetorical question" made me laugh despite of the desperate situation. The same thing happened when Dean snarked he could read. Hilarious.

Very crafty work on the travois (new word for me!), Dean. Impressive.

 I gotta say: Shame on you Sammy. Every FanFic girl knows how complex Dean is. That's why we all love to write about him, so much, isn't it? I'm really a bit angry with Sam here. I always thought Dean was more complex than Sam. College-boy! Sorry, had to vent my anger...

These bits are just wonderful writing (would have to paste the whole story in, but I chose these as examples):

 "The sun hit his dark-blonde hair and picked up flecks of gold, giving him an almost-halo effect."

and

"a dark current of danger running under his words"

Can't wait to read on. Owh, the wendigo and Dean's without protection!

Cheers, Ilka

 

 



Author's Response:

Hi Ilka! I just got these last few reviews -- thank you so much for reviewing as you go! It means a lot to me, and I'm thrilled you're enjoying the story.

It's so funny looking back at when I wrote this and when this was set (Season 1) and how much we've learned about these characters since then. I will admit to be a full-on DeanGirl from the word go, but I have warmed considerably to Sammy as my stories progressed.

But really, only in how he affects his big bro.

I'm loving that you pasted your favorite lines and that you laughed midst the tense situations. Oh, and I also like that you're enjoying the flashbacks -- it's my first attempt at "WeeChesters" or writing John, so I'm glad it worked for you.

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 28/04/08 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4

Hey gaelic,

It's me again. Guess it will be the last chapter for me today. However, I wanted to leave another review. As they are the air we breathe.

Oh, terrible, terrible ordeal. For the both of them. Good thing the Indian hunter found them in the end. Wonder how this will go on.

Though I have to say, Sam is a bit of a wuss here. I know Dean's a hero and Sam's leg is really bad, but, this whining attitude when he actually contemplates how he's gonna get Dean to the travois and how they are supposed to go on. The only thing I'd like to say is "Suck it up, Winchester." Dean could do it if it came to that.

Some quotes. I liked them big time:

"his lashes outlining the purple smudges of exhaustion under his eyes" owh yeah, hurt!Dean, love his eyes and the lashes in particular.

"Sammy. Everything you do matters to me.” Big Brother Mode in full swing. NICE and so cute. About as close for Dean to come to say "I love you, Sam."

Catch ya on the next chapter...

Night, Ilka

 



Author's Response:

You're so right -- reviews are air, and I thank you for them.

There is nothing like a glimpse of Dean's lashes. *sighs* And you're right. That's exactly what Dean meant when he said those words.

Hee.

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 29/04/08 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 5

Well gaelic.  

Speechless. How deeply touching. Dean is so far away, talking about his inner demons to his "Dad". Would never do this if he were in his right mind. The mere thought'd kill him.

The self-sacrificing attitude, however, could cost him his life and still... I cried while reading this.

And the dialogue between him and Sam where Sam tried to keep him awake and walking. Only followed by the parting in the clearing. Girl, you had me in tears there.

By the way, Abe's a lovely character.  Caring, understanding, sweet.

These are my favourite bits and images:

"Kid was damn clever." Nice to hear someone else say that! Exactly my point!!

"The boy was broken and the only thing keeping him together was the thought that their father had come." Oh Dean, soooo heart-breaking. Tears here... 

"devotion. It was as plain in Dean’s eyes as they reflected in the moonlight as the blood covering his face." There's no one else as devoted as Dean is to Sammy. Even in the face of his own death...

"Dean seemed to melt forward into the air at the same time" powerful writing there. Love the image.

"Abe looked at Dean one last time; he somehow looked so young, and very, very old at the same time." Yeah he does that a lot when he's in pain. My heart always goes out to him then.

And then the thought of Sam having to watch Dean being left behind. I don't know how he could stand it, brave baby bro. Strong Sam there.

Anyway, if Abe had taken Dean first, the older brother would have fought until he might have died to get back to Sam. Absolutely the right decision, Abe. And Sam's lucky to have a bro like Dean.

Now, I think I haven't been that speechless in the end, have I?

Cheers, Ilka

 



Author's Response:

This was one of the hardest chapters to write for me -- this and Chapter 7...

Bringing Dean this low, forcing him to keep moving, knowing that if he learned the truth it could stop him... I remember crying while writing it. I know, I'm a big sap.

And I love that you weren't speechless. :) Thanks so much for this!!

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 29/04/08 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6

owh, gawd. I wanted to go to bed. Don't do that. I'm in tears and he's dying, god, notlong review here. On to the next chappie,

Hugs, Ilka

LOVIN IT



Author's Response:

Don't stay up too late... but keep the reviews comin' -- now I'm watching for you, anxious for what you'll think of the next parts.

*hugs back*

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 29/04/08 Title: Chapter 7: Chapter 7

Hey gaelic. Still me. Can't go to bed until I finished it I fear. It's a quarter to 3 in the morning! HELL! Good that I only have to be at work at 11.45...

I wish that this story would be on the show. Actually it feels, like I'm watching the boys, not reading it...

I love those bits, when Sam tells Dean stories t keep him alive.

Oh and then when I thought I wouldn't need the tissues anymore, you came up with the bit about Dad not being there. The hurt in Dean slashed out and tore at my own soul. Guess what: tears again. Oh, gaelic, I wish I could write just one small chappie the way you do.

Your skills humble me....

Those are the most emotional parts of the chappie for me. I pasted them with tears in my eyes, so forgive if I haven't caught others, too. Too busy wiping my eyes...

"when you give up everything for your family, you deserve to get something back’.”   Damn right. He did deserved the car. And John did the best he could short of saying 'I love you'. What is it with the Winchesters incapable of admitting their feelings? I guess that's why we all love them, makes them human.

"It was as if Sam were suddenly seeing a person where he’d always seen a hero. Dean felt stripped bare, laid open. His mask was gone, his wall transparent. He wanted to look away, but Sam’s eyes held him. He felt a tremble in his chest, a shiver from the inside out."     owh, painfully beautiful. ARTIST! That's the worst bit, comparing the amount of tissues I used...

"but his balance was off and he was slipping toward an edge that he couldn’t let himself go over" Oh, Dean don't go over...!

"Why did contact with Sam do that to him? Balance him? Bring him back from the darkness?" 'Cos he's your reason for living, the reason to keep you from falling, in short he's your anchor, your brother!

"But I did, Sam… I needed him…" Yeah, I wish John would have come and heard you speaking all those wonderfully honest and brave things... Although, Abe wouldn't be in the story then. And I say, he's a great person...

Gaelic, I wish that Kripke read these things you write. He could enlist you as a writer...

On with the next one,

Hugs, Ilka



Author's Response:

You have me blushing, seriously. I read this review with my hand over my heart. Thank you, sincerely and humbly.

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 29/04/08 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8

Gaelic, still here...

Well another tearful chapter.

Fist of all, got a question: When was Sam in Dean's dream? That another of your stories? If so, please tell me which one...

Another thing. I wondered when exactly you wrote this story. 'cos if you did before AHBL2 you are a psychic-girl. The bit about the indian shaman sacrificing himself for his brother and ending up as an evil SOB. That just made me think of Dean's deal over Sam's death and Dean about to turn into a demon.

And then the bit about Dean accusing the shaman that he should've killed his own brother. Exactly what John asked of Dean on Sam's behalf. Great idea!

Oh, and during the ceremony there were tears again. I thought I was as dry as the desert by then, but you squeezed them out! The way Dean cried out for Sam, owh, hurthurthurt!!

"He was gravity. Needed, depended upon, and unseen." Great concept. Sums up the riddle that is Dean Winchester...

One day he will destroy himself to save you… It is the blessing and the curse of brothers.” see my ideas on Dean's deal above

"Dean looked back, and the expression in his eyes was a tangle of pain, regret, sorrow, and resolution" owh, I wish his Dad would've looked at him the way he did at Sam. Dean needs a loving father too. He's always waiting for John to show his affection. But then, he resolves and accepts the facts. This sentence again discribes the contradictive and complex being we all call Dean, HA!

Thanks for the chappie, gonna go on with the epilogue (I think there is one, right?)

Catch ya on the epilogue, Ilka

 



Author's Response:

Yep -- there is an epilogue. I only posted here on UnGen -- not on ff.net where I also posted this story. Don't ask me why...I had a good reason, but... yeah.

I wrote this a long time before AHBL2. In December of 2006, or thereabouts, so any similarities you see are purely coincidental. (btw, I reallllllyyyy hope Dean isn't going to turn Demon on us...)

As for Sam in Dean's dream -- that happened in my story "Within My Hands." The boys had to fight a nightmare witch. If you read that, though, there is a character that I brought back named Brenna Kavanagh -- I introduced her in my first story "Holding On To Let Go" and she comes back one more in "Into the Fire."

Not necessary to read those, just wanted to let you know if you checked out "Within My Hands."

Hope you enjoy the epilogue and I am so glad you've liked this story. Very thrilling for me to watch you experience it!

Gaelic

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 29/04/08 Title: Chapter 9: Epilogue

Gaelic, I don't think I have ever reviewed that long and emotionally. Well, maybe on "Chipping away" and "The Devil In You". However, this story here is my all time favourite and it will always be.

Glad you added the epilogue. Was nice to hear Abe tell John about Dean's feelings.  And there are so very true things he says. I've quoted them below.

The quote at the beginning is so fitting. Perfect choice.

I'll let my review finish with your suitable words as mine won't reach your abilities... (honestly, no I'm not flattering!)

"Abe felt a jab in his heart. Dean had needed to see this man so badly. He had needed him to survive. But… he had pulled through without his father’s physical presence. He had made it on will. On his and his brother’s will."   owh, Dean...  

"This man’s sons were a dual reflection of him. Their passion, their anger, their fire, their devotion… they were their father." Glad, someone else sees them that way. Always felt that way, too.

“Now he has to be practically stripped to nothing to show it.”    Which is absolutely the way (mentally and physically) I prefer Dean, yeah, I know I'm mean!

Cheers and many many hugs for letting me share your story, Ilka



Author's Response:

*HUGS YOU BACK*

Thank you so much for the heartfelt, emotional reviews. I will treasure them always. I'm so pleased you enjoyed the epilogue, and that we view the boys and John in the same way.

Now, off to bed -- you have to be at work in like... 4 hours! :)

Slainte,

Gaelic

 
Summary:

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What happens to the Winchester's after the events of "Devil's Trap"? This was actually written right after the season finale some months ago.


Categories: AU Characters: None
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 23 Completed: Yes Word count: 93391
[Report This] Published: 01/01/07 Updated: 24/02/07


Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 21/03/08 Title: Chapter 14: Chapter 14: Unleashed

I'm feeling like having a fever myself. That's turmoil, oh my....

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 21/03/08 Title: Chapter 15: Chapter 15: Until it Sleeps

Nice idea, the medicine man thing... Can't wai how it's playing out....

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 21/03/08 Title: Chapter 19: Chapter 19: Desperate Rituals

tension rising, can't relax... wow

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 21/03/08 Title: Chapter 20: Chapter 20: Devils and Heroes

pheeeew...............

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 21/03/08 Title: Chapter 21: Chapter 21: Faith Restored

god, you nearly had me in tears....

 
Reviewer: RoweenaC Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 21/03/08 Title: Chapter 22: Chapter 22: Living With Purpose

I'm outta words. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

 

Greets and hugs from Germany, Ilka



Author's Response:

Hey Roweena! I hope you don't mind, but I'm going to just respond to this last review instead of each one below. First of all, thank you for taking time to read this and and leave comments. Secondly, I'm excited that you enjoyed this story and thankful that you didn't run away screaming in horror, lol. 

I appreciate your comments. 

Also, I just started the sequel to it this week and you can find that here as well. 

Thanks again.