I've been trying so hard to save this story till it was finished but the temptation was just too great.  'Angels' was such a fantastic story and I loved the new characters so much, it was a real treat to be reunited with Jax again!!  Jax reminds me a little of a naughty puppy just wanting to be loved, but not knowing how to make things right.

What a first chapter, poor Sam, if only he knew who was out there waiting for him.  Dean never could understand that his death would be as hard for Sam to take as he knew Sam's was for him.  Your description of Sam's mental anguish is just so heartwrenching. 

Now I've got to resist reading all 10 chapters in one go and staying up till it's time for work!!  Loving the story, Thanks.  Jane

That was lovely, spot on humour, I'm still chuckling.  Thanks  J.

A thoroughly gripping start, the build up of tension and panic was intense.  Sam's constant anger at John and his terror at the thought of losing Dean were such an accurate insight into what Sam would have gone through.  Beautifully done.  J

Author's Response:

Thank you for your kind review, I was really happy that you thought my version of Sam at this time was accurate. I was debating if I had done a little too much "John bashing". But I kept coming back to that line from John; if Sam left he should "stay gone". How could you not get hurt by that?  The Winchester's world is one big irony to Sam, what other families would be celebrating and throwing parties for, his family marginalizes or considers selfish. They really aren't the Brady's are they?!!!

Thanks again for taking the time to read and review. Abi. 

You've really captured the terror and horror in Dean's flashback, somehow there's such a sense that it's all gone horribly wrong without Sam's presence.  I love the humour (particularly the joining a daemon worshipping cult line) amidst all the pain, suffering and angst.  I'm very much looking forward to the next one.  Thanks  J.

Author's Response:

*Grins* I am really happy the humour worked, I love Dean's snarkyness (new word fit for a Dean!). You hope that when you are trying to capture it, you aren't going overboard or missing the mark completely. 

When I imagine the Stanford years for Dean I always see a black hole. Sam was part of a small, tight knit unit, with his brother and his father; they must each have had their role to play. John and Dean strike me as shoot first types in comparison to Sam, and I am sure they suffered for the lack of his influence on hunts.

So enough with the deep meaningful psycho-babble, I am just thrilled you are enjoying this and look forward to hearing your thoughts on Chapter four!!!!

Abi. 

I loved the images of the gurgling one year old, and Sam's first word.... Deen.  I guess that made it kind of hard for Dean to keep up his levels of anger quite enough to fight Sam.  I almost felt sorry for the football team, two p....d off Winchester needing to blow off steam, not really a fair fight!!  Kyle seemed a decent enough sort though, typically generous gesture on Sams' part, ever the peacemaker, letting the fight end, saying he'd lost.

That anger's still bubbling below the surface though, it's a sure sign of the turmoil Dean's going through that he hasn't returned his Dads' phone calls. 

 Now what's in this letter that's just arrived, doesn't sound too good!  Please update soon, we need to know!  Thanks.  Jane

Well, first off, what a delight to log on and find a new story alert from one of my favourite authors - it must be Christmas!!

Then OMG what visions you have given us in this one.  Poor Dean, beaten, drugged, manacled in a cage and chained naked to the floor, my days, it really must be Christmas!!....lol 

Then, what they did at the end with those scissors and shaver just doesn't bear thinking about - you warned that this was a dark one, I get the feeling the boys are in for a really rough ride.  Please update soon, I sooo need to know how Deans' taken this latest trauma!!

Totally gripping start,  Thanks Jane

Oh dear, the pain, the cold, the thirst, the humiliation, the hunger, the fear all starting to take their toll now.  It's alarming to see how the brainwashing utilises so many techniques to break someone, playing on insecurities to find a way in.  Scary stuff!!

Your description of that icy bucket of water made me shiver, I had to go and turn up the heating. 

Dean's gradual descent as confusion sets in is so sad.  I'm really not liking 'the Father', I dread to think what John would do to him if he caught up to them.  I just hope that CCTV was working.  Great chapter.  J

Oh, it's heartbreaking to think of Dean battered, bleeding and on the verge of broken.  How much more can he take, bless him....so pleased you decided not to leave it here, I'm off to the next one.  Thanks J.

Author's Response: hey janger . . .it really is sad to pic Dean like this. glad you are happy that i posted next chappy!! thanks for reading!! bambers;)

Ouch!!  Poor Sam, five days in a coma, ruptured spleen and memory loss, I think that's all gonna look like Happy Days when he gets where he's going.....I dread to think what state Dean's in by now.  Well, at least Bobby's on the scene, perhaps he'll have a better chance of rescuing the boys. 

Thank you for the extra update before Christmas, now instead of just worrying about Dean hanging around, I can worry about the pair of them and which one the Father will decide to end - although I know you'd never do that to us....lol!!

Have a lovely Christmas, I'll be looking out for the next chapter. Thanks again, ever hopeful.  Jane

OMG, the thought of spending Christmas with Charlie's inspiration is truly scary!!  However, I feel you may have taken your horror at the thought of it out on Dean here....lol.  Wow, this was really intense, from the excruciating physical pain, to the total psychological breakdown and loss of all hope. 

I still can't believe that under it all Dean's been completely broken, I would have to volunteer to help put him back together!!

Ouch, I think it might have been less painful to chop his hair off, rather than give him this radical manicure!!  (Not really an option I guess?)  This was really brutal, I don't suppose there's any chance that Dean got to hear his screams, manages to escape and rescues Sam before they break his fingers?...lol.

This story is so nerve-wracking, the cliffhangers are killing me.  Keep up the good work.  Jane

Oh no, poor Dean, I hope to goodness there's enough of him to put back together after all he's been through.  Thank heavens Bobby's taken control of the situation and given John a piece of his mind, about time he got himself into gear.  Nothing like a mightily riled John to get things moving!!

Another great update.  Jane

Oh no, poor Sam, if anything could break his spirit is would be the belief that Dean could do something like this to him, to cause him pain and humiliate him.  That Father is one cruel, sadistic, manipulative SOB. 

At least it looks as though Dawn has managed to break free of the Fathers spell and has permission to stitch and tend him.  Hopefully, without the continual drug feed, Sam might start to come round and realise that it wasn't Dean torturing him but another of the Fathers' tricks.  At least I hope it was really the Father!!

Reading the description of Dean whipping Sam was really traumatic, it felt so wrong to think that Dean had been so totally brainwashed and de-humanized that he could ever act in that way against his Sam. 

I hope John and Bobby are starting to get their acts together, is it nearly time for the cavalry to arrive?? lol.  Thanks for a great update, looking forward to the next one.  Jane