Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed) · Date: 07/06/08 07:49 PM · On: Chapter 25
I've enjoyed the ride so much that I almost hate the increased momentum that's coming. It's like cresting the hill on a big rollercoaster and anticipating the downward plunge.
Author's Response: I love that comparison!! It gave me that funny feeling in my stomach that you get at that exact moment. Thanks so much for that little thrill!!!
Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed) · Date: 07/06/08 07:22 PM · On: Chapter 24
Just when I thought Dr. Frankenstein was as warped as he could get, you have to add electricity! Welcome to the modern age! Gotta say though, I like it!
Author's Response: Ok, that made me laugh my ass off! I'm still smiling over it, and it's been well over a week now! Thanks for that, I needed it.
Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed) · Date: 07/06/08 06:39 PM · On: Chapter 23
Bobby's hard-ass peptalk with Sam was too funny! Give 'em hell, Bobby! I got a kick out of all the references to the nameless blond nurse who comes on duty at six. That was a hoot!
Author's Response: I think Bobby's pretty much had enough and since I see him most definitely possessing the patience of a saint, that says a lot! Glad you liked that nurse reference too...where else would Dean's head be...it has been six weeks, after all.
Reviewer: Vanessa (Signed) · Date: 07/06/08 05:39 PM · On: Chapter 25
YAY that the downward slide has begun but WAHHH that you ended the chapter there!!! I had just found my comfortable, happy place and was humming and enjoying Dean's torturous day and YOU pulled the plug. hehehe So you've left me with no choice but to BEG for a quick update. 'Cause now I feel like I'm gonna suffer withdrawal. Seriously though, thank you immensely for the update on this story. Needless to say, I enjoyed it very, very much.
Author's Response: Better late then never when it comes to responding, right? Not only has the downward slide started, I've decided to rub it up and down with Vaseline to make it nice and slippery with nothing to hold on to... that sound like fun?
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 07/06/08 05:00 PM · On: Chapter 19
Helen. Sorry, didn't have any time lately. Some bad stuff happened and had to be taken care of. Not done with that but sorted and almost done... Hope my review will be nearly as entertaining as usual. And I just noticed, that you posted a new chapter... so gotta keep reading to get there, huh? ...he doesn’t just have a bug up his ass, he’s got the whole damn ant farm.... the mother of all hissy fits .... Bobby is clearly seething. And I like his description of Dean's behaviour. LOL ....it breaks my heart to hear him talk about himself like that... like his life means nothing.... if I don’t, it may drive me crazy wondering if he truly feels that way... Owh, yeah I felt exactly the same way. And still need Dean to be that way, 'cause that's how he is. But he could be a bit more self-caring sometimes. He is such a good person, only rough on the outside to protect his inner sensitivity... ....I need my brother back, and I need him whole again.... MEEEEE TOOOO. Thinking about Dean in hell now, not only in your story. Almost tearing me apart. Have to remind myself they aren't real. That's the most difficult part of it all, 'cos both actors are so terrific. And I have to stay sane for the next days... ...irritability bordering on psychotic.... Love that line... hilarious. Have a friend who once described himself as vegetarian bordering on vegan and it became a running gag.... this reminds me of it. OK, random and a bit weird, I know... in a rambling mood... ...he wanted to start pounding on the door... Oh, yeah. Can clearly picture him standing there fist held in mid air and hoisting up the thinking-face, such a controlled person. I would have knocked down the door and then might have remembered to check if it was really closed. Am very spontaneous and hot-blooded... sometimes a bit panicky.... ...he did finally find some clarity... FINALLY. Damned right and about time. ...You, Dean, are all he has left... your brother needs you more than you think you need him... awh. Sobbing madly. And such a wonderful heartbreaking reference to YED saying the complete opposite. The number of times I've wanted to shout out and tell him that same thing. Glad you let him hear it from someone eventually. ....“Sam…I think we need to talk.”... What a rare and touching moment. Dean must be in a very weak and angsty mood to actually say that. Like on Long Distance Call. Sobbed and laughed through the chick-flick/banter conversation there. I am so glad you saved Dean from his suicidal intentions. That would have been unbearable even if he hadn't died. Side effects are a pain in the ass, if you ask me. OK. That worked out kinda well. Will try and R & R some more on the next chapter. Catch ya there. Ilka
Author's Response: I have to say that your reviews are always entertaining! Sometimes I think a pissed off Bobby can be as much fun as a pissed off Dean. I always think back to that scene in AHBL2 when he confronts Dean in the junkyard...by far one of my favorite moments ever!! You are so right about Dean too, he is an incredibly, wonderfully, caring person and all that inner sensitivity he hides makes him so damn appealing, doesn't it...aw hell, I could sit and talk about that man all day... Hey, that vegan friend...he doesn't eat eggs, does he? Just curious as I like to ramble all the time too. And yeah, mark those words "We need to talk" because I don't think you'll ever hear them from Dean's lips again. Ha ha...not his style. Ok, pausing there for the night, way past my bedtime!
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed) · Date: 07/06/08 04:58 PM · On: Chapter 25
Another brilliant chapter. I can't wait to see what you have in store for Dean and Julia. I know it wont be nice lol.
Author's Response: You are so right! I don't have anything nice planned for either one of them... but if I had to say, Julia's going to get the better end of the deal, that's for sure! (any big surprise there?)
Reviewer: JLE (Signed) · Date: 07/06/08 04:51 PM · On: Chapter 25
Thanks! I would have asked sooner if I knew it would get me a chapter posted. Still loving everything about this little tale you're telling. Looking forward to Dean and Julia's troubles to come. I will anxiously await the next chapter. Judy
Author's Response: Thanks Judy, and feel free to ask any time!! I can always use a kick in the pants every now and again. I love that you're still loving it!!
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 02/06/08 07:08 PM · On: Chapter 18
Helen, last one for today. And what a brilliant chapter. And the ending really almost seduced me to read the next chapter. But my eyes are drooping and I need a fair share of sleep. ....like a spoiled rotten, little brat then the tough as nails hunter he was... Ha. Sometimes Dean is just such a kid. Like here. Most men are like that when they have a cold or something like it. Dean however needs a full on torture to become a whining baby... ...why don’t you just shut your fucking mouth and mind your own business......you just a fucking moron.....B.A.M.F...What the fuck have you two been doing behind my back....fucking blue eye....Fuck you Sam....I want some fucking answers... I should have just fucking died .... I call this: The F Word. A Dean Winchester Collection Of Bad Temper. Would make a nice poem if you ask me. Really bad fucking temper that is.... Awful but hilarious swearing. “...given it to you rectally,” and amazingly that shut Dean up instantly... Love the good doc. He knows his way around Dean, too. Not just Julia. Btw. I am glad Trent hasn't gotten to her yet. I like it when she takes on Dean. Tough chick. ...how light Dean had become... awh. Not enough muscles anymore. Geez, terrifying thought. Hope Dean makes a quick and full recovery. ....Oh hell no, not today…Sam..... Hahahaha. Enter Dean's nemesis. Julia is so cool. ....weak, sore, tired, sick to his stomach.... Yep, that about sums up Dean's agony and weakness. Poor sap. ....I’m sorry Sam, I just can’t do this anymore.... NNNNOOOO WAY! Don't you dare do this, Dean! Don't you dare let him do this Helen! He's just returned from his coma. Don't shut him up again, please. And this is so not like Dean, wonder how bad he must be suffering to consider taking his own life and leave Sammy behind unprotected. He must be thinking he is no good to save Sam anymore. Gawd, poor Dean. Shit. I wish I could go on with the next chappie. But my vision is blurry and I am soooo tired. Well, then. See ya tomorrow on the next chapter. Take care, Ilka
Author's Response: Ok. I lied just a bit. I'm going to finish the other ones tomorrow but I absolutely had to answer this one tonight because I must have laughed for nearly ten minutes at the f-bomb compilation. Strung together, that is hilarious!! And this: The F Word. A Dean Winchester Collection Of Bad Temper- nearly had me on the floor!! Could you imagine the administration of meds rectally to poor dean? (hmm...one torture I've never dumped on him...no, wait, maybe i have. ok, never mind) Don't forget now...suicidal tendencies are a side effect of that drug...remember, he just can't help it. (Ok, that's all I'll say!!) Ok, hitting the hay now! Can't wait to hear what you think of the rest!! Night for now and you take care too, Helen
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 02/06/08 06:07 PM · On: Chapter 17
OK. Another great chapter. And I really love a pissed off Dean. He really really really is pissed. So great. Don't mind the swearing at all. Like Sam, I so need a fix of Dean's voice right now, I don't care if he swears as colourful as a rainbow (If you know what I mean...) ....His head hurt, his eyes hurt, his heart hurt.... awh, poor Sammy. It's getting to ya, all this hovering and worrying. I know how he feels. Same here. Come on Dean! Wake the friggin hell up! ....Even in his near comatose sleep, Dean was in some kind of pain,....his lips would be pursed together like usually did when he was in pain..... Oh, hurt Dean is so cute and so pitiable. And I do love the way his lips form a pouting scowl when he is hurt. Ah, well, I love his lips. Period. ...comfort zone, and it’s pretty unlikely he’ll stray too far from it or kill outside of it...the house of a sociopath no warmth or personality...but wait for the bastard to return to face the Winchester music, and if he had his way, he’d most definitely be leading the orchestra.... That SOB Trent is gone. Coward. Must be planning something real bad for Dean. And how creepy is that house? Though I have to say, I like the colours. Yet it' d never be that tidy in my house. Me very messy and my ADD isn't helping with that flaw at all... Owh, I can't wait to see what torture Sam is gonna inflict on Trent. YEAH. Pay back time.... And the bit about the comfort zone. You really know how a psycho killer's mind ticks. ....Great, he’ll be more irritable then his usual self. This is gonna be fun.... Hahahaha. Yeah. Fun. Indeed. Can't wait for it!!!! And poor Sam will be on the receiving end of most of it. Cos he'll be mother-henning Dean and Dean HATES it with capital letters. ....Sam was desperate for a fix ... the desperation in Sam’s voice finally helping force him somewhat awake.... Desperate Sam, and hurt/protective Dean. If there ever was a perfect combination it's this one. Dean will protect Sam until he dies despite all his agony.... what a bro. Wish I had one like him. Scratch that. Wish I had Dean and not as a bro but ... ehem... well it'd be incest if he was my bro.... wandering off ... back to the review, woman! ....zero to pissed in about five seconds, and pissed at him no less.... HAHAHAHA. Already feel sorry for Sammy. But this will be so much fun to read. I definitely will read on. Though I planned on going to bed now. Will do one more chapter. Missed Dean's quips and his voice so much. I really understand how Sam feels (see above). So, no way I can sleep when Dean finally is awake and PISSED and Sam is gonna pay for Dean's discomfort. Catch ya on the next one. Hugs. Ilka
Author's Response: That's the great thing about print... we can make Dean's mouth as filthy as we want, can't we? And pissed off swearing... that's just down right sexy, isn't it? (Ok, where did that come from?) I must agree with the love of the lips, but let's not stop there. The lips, the eyes, the chin, the...*leaves the rest to the imagination* You know, Dean could always be a step-brother, that's not technically incest and hmm... that would make Sam a brother too. Imagine that. (Yeah, that was a little weird too) Glad you liked the pissed off Dean! More of that to come.
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 02/06/08 03:32 PM · On: Chapter 16
Fallen asleep? You're kiddin, right? Owh, that evilevilevilevilevil Trent. What did he do to Dean now? No rest for Dean or Sam... although they aren't wicked, are they? ...chewing his nails and opting to crack his knuckles.... despicable habits, both of them. Cured my nail biting when I turned 17. I still crack my knuckles though, very lady-like, aren't I? ...Bobby’s thought process in a nice, neat package for Sam to examine... He is such a bright man, Bobby. Glad he still has his senses with him, cos if Sam is on a rampage he won't really think any more... ....We have to stop him Bobby!... YEAH, let's go hunt him down! Finally some action. Quit thinking Sam. Go make a plan and finish him. ....He may be a monster, but he’s still human, and we don’t kill humans... Hell, yeah. I wish Trent was a supernatural being... Damn no hunting then. At least not now. *puts down sawn off and plops onto chair* ...kind of attitude from Dean, not you... Shoot first ask questions later. That's so not like Sam. “...if you want to do it with your finger up your ass, be my guest.”... “I can’t, my heads already taking up all the space, remember?”... Lovely banter. Laughing fits here. I miss this since Dean is unconscious most of the time. Glad that Bobby fills in for Dean. ...Bobby made sense, he always made sense.... Damn right, Sammy. You should kiss that man's ass more often. I love Bobby and his knowledge and common sense. ..Obsessing... Reminds me of Sam in Mystery Spot after Dean's death. Became a real obsessive man... Creepy. Hope he isn't getting like that in the new season again. ...the figure that had been lurking in the hallway ... almost feels like a demon or something the way you describe him. God, my heart rate doubled when I read that. .....Dean’s lower body jerk in what Waterson assumed, or hoped, was pain.... A** **e (sorry...). That bastard can't give him some time to rest, can he? I hope in the end Dean will be able to make him suffer for everything. Would be nice to know Dean gets back at him. PLEASE, Helen, let him do the most painful things to Trent... OK, let's see what the next chapter holds.... Cheers and keep em coming, Ilka
Author's Response: Far from wicked, that's what I say. Oh, and as for the cracking knuckles... guilty as charged as well! I gotta say, I love Bobby and his character is entirely underutilized. He needs more air time... hey Kripke, you listening? (Yeah, right!) Oh, and just because Sam and Dean don't hunt humans doesn't mean you can't...grab that shotgun and have at it!!! Sorry about Dean being unconscious most of the time, but you gotta admit, the thought of that is sorta cute, isn't it? Let me just end this one by saying that Trent is going to get his eventually... and in a big way (I hope)
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 01/06/08 06:43 PM · On: Chapter 15
Helen, I am so glad I read this chapter too before turning in. Awful things happening to sweetie Dean, Bobby scamming the police and a protective, angsty, angry, sad Sam. WOW. Trent is really evolving as a psycho killer: rose, rosary, dress. Eerie and creepy as hell. That man so needs to be stopped.... ....too well from years of hunts gone bad, that sound of machines doing the breathing for those that couldn’t do it for themselves, and searched the darkness for any sign of Sam..... Gawd, no. Don't let him be intubated. Too bad. Didn't get my wish. However, that makes an even more hurt Dean. So, I am OK with that. You are really putting him through a lot Helen. And the way Sam looked, puffy eyes and all. Oh, that poor boy.... ....Dr. Waterson, that’s who. He did this to Dean, and I’m gonna kill him.... Damn right, Sam. Wait for me. Just getting my gear up and then we're gonna hunt this medical bitch down and give him a taste of his own medicine, that creepy sadistic son of a bitch. ....lips starting to turn an ominous shade of blue.... Things are really going down hill now.... wait I have to get my tissue. Poor, suffering, hurt Dean. Uch. I take back all my drools earlier. This hurts so much... God, I dunno if I can stand to read on. .... NO, I will read on. Promise, cos I need to see that Waterson terminated, killed, murdered, dead and suffering before that!!! ....indicative of an overdose.... junkie... Not a junkie but reactions like that coming up. Oh my God! ...to have a one track mind at times.... Don't doctors have that all the time? I guess they teach this at med school. Thank you for the chapter, Helen. You are doing a brilliant job here. Nighty-night, Ilka
Author's Response: Ilka, I am glad that you have read every chapter! I'm glad Trent has that effect, that's kinda how I tried to make him. I gotta say, I don't think a story goes by that Dean's not intubated at least once... hmm, gotta go check on that one. And hey, tell me how you really feel about Waterson...come on, don't hold back now. (and let me also say that there's something kinda sexy about blue lips, isn't there?) Throwing another thanks before I move on the the next one!!
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 01/06/08 06:06 PM · On: Chapter 14
OK. Maybe one more after this as I am really intrigued how this goes on... That sweet mumble: Cute, how he returns to his childhood coming out of his sleep. My heart opened up. I like a soft Dean from time to time. ...warmth he felt coming from Dean’s body... shit. He is going septic, isn't he? That freaky doctor and his not so sterile injection. I HATE him. ...like a heavenly oasis sent directly from God himself.... beautiful picture. Very evocative. Had to get a drink for myself after reading this. ...Lindsay Lohan at a Hollywood rave.... So hilarious. *rofl* ...You going to make me starve to death?... That's a low blow, Sam. But it worked, didn't it. Dean needs his strength back... ...I really want him out of here by tomorrow afternoon, and completely out of Trent’s care as of right now.... Good plan. Good doctor. Although he should keep an eye on his fiancée. She is going to suffer big time. I am glad the boys are leaving... they are, aren't they?! Quickly continuing with the next chapter and then another review and off to bed.... Hugs ya, Ilka
Author's Response: Hi again Ilka, Ok last response for the night because I'm friggin' tired!! (Monday's a long work day) As for that sweet mumble...can you imagine hearing it, like right next to you?...ahhhhh-dare to dream!! (Ok, that was weird) Can't really answer too many of those questions without spoiling anything, so...sorry, gotta keep my mouth shut. I will say as for leaving the hospital...not on your life! Ok, thanks a million, you brightened my day!! Be back tomorrow to finish!! Helen
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 01/06/08 05:14 PM · On: Chapter 13
Helen. Oh this story is like a roller-coaster ride. Up and down, twists and turns... Like it although I detest roller-coasters. I have severe fears of heights and flying and such things are just like hell's screwed mixture of both. OK. Rambling... let's stick to reviewing! ...Why is talking to a Winchester like talking to a brick wall sometimes?... Haha. They are such stubborn men, those Winchesters. And they all have protective brick walls around themselves, so it really isn't a surprise that talking to them feels like that! ...he crossed his arms over his chest, threw out a pouted lip, and started sulking... Yah, I can picture him sitting there, his shoulders drooped and his brown bangs falling in front of his face. So like Sam. Sulking, he always reminds me of a small boy! ...Yeah, a nice, long hall to pace... hahahaha. Patience isn't his strongest trait. Especially when he is in protective mode. And all this thinking and those questions needing an answer, I guess if he doesn't pace his head will explode! ...full blown panic mode now......This is not happening, he has to remember, he just has to... Damn, too bad. Dean doesn't remember anything. Are Trisha and the girls coming back to Dean to point him in the right direction? And poor Sam really doesn't get any rest. Again all this worrying... ...you’re alright and the car’s alright, then I’m alright,... This sentence sums up the man that is Dean Winchester completely. ...Sam, why can’t I feel my legs? Am I… Have you by any chance read neonchica's stories? Cos she would have Dean definitely paralysed. One evil Dean-torturer. Weird but good stories. Dean is always on the receiving end of some bad and sometimes mutilating illnesses and injuries. Liked them. They were the first ones I read on UnGen (apart from the VS). ...Getting rid of Dean permanently, well, that would be the hard part.... The doc doesn't know how tough it is to get rid of Dean, does he? Dean is like a ... a cockroach. I know that's not a nice thing to say but he seems to be able to survive everything. And Sam will make sure Dean won't die at Trent's hands... he will, won't he? *kneels down, chin quivering, hands clutched together in a praying way* I mean, you may let him suffer but don't let him die, OK? ...only 999,998 questions left... So like Sam. Always a million questions in this guys head. Gawd, I dunno how Dean puts up with that. He'd drive me nuts and I work with children between 5 and 12, which is about the nosiest stage in their childhood... See? I liked it big time. Again. This story is constantly thrilling and I am sitting on the edge of my chair reading it... Hugs, Ilka
Author's Response: Well, look at it this way, at least this roller coaster won't make you puke, right? I have an incredible fear of heights also, don't feel bad and feel free to ramble at will. Stubborn, pouting Winchesters...what a beautiful sight, eh? Continuing on with that...yep, absolutely no patience also (big part of their charm) I have read a couple of neonchica's stories and yes, they are chock full of major hurt Dean. That got me thinking about all the nasty things I've piled on the guy over various stories. Trown him from a second story window, food poisoning, septicemia two or three times, a couple comas, tortured down in hell (Literally and it had nothing to do with the season finale), bashed over the head and given a major concussion, emergency tracheotomy, arsenic poisoning, pneumonia...well, there's more but you get the point, right? (and none of that's even in this story) As much as i hate to agree with the comparison, yes, Dean is like a cockroach, but a really cute one. Ok, really glad you liked this one and moving on to the next!!
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 01/06/08 04:04 PM · On: Chapter 12
Helen. Back to R & R. Sorry had to work the last days. Didn't have any time left. Today however, it's back to business, hehe. ...He would never let his personal feelings interfere with his performance.... Yeah right. If the good doc only knew. And I am so glad Bobby's got a bad feeling about Trent. God thing the doc joined the surgery. Otherwise Dean would have bled to death, not been able to pee or any other horrible thing. Helen. I would have flown over to the US and told you off for that!! ...the damn Winchesters would just accept the fact that occasionally bad shit happens and everything wrong in the world wasn’t all their faults... Sam is really good at self-loathing too, isn't he? He might have picked some tricks up from Dean, master of self-destruction and self-hatred. ...watching Dean slowly bleed to death over the next couple days... Well. I am a bit torn here. I said I would have been angry, on the other hand, that would have meant a really hurt, hurt, hurt Dean. uh. No, better have him safe and sound than risk loosing him. That psycho killer is a really evil character. And you do him so well, Helen. Totally insane. ...little physical therapist... Oh, no not her. I like her. She really stands a chance against Dean and his quips. Please Helen, tell me you don't plan to kill her!!! I guess Dean would be glad at first but then he'd beat himself up again for whatever reason he can find (see again self-loathing above!) and we need him focused on getting better and killing/stopping (as they don't kill humans normally) Evil Trent. Thank you for this chapter, Helen. I totally enjoyed it. Especially after the long hours of tedious accountancy I attended to. Brilliant and as usual full of action and angst. On with the next one, Ilka
Author's Response: Nice to see you back for more!!  Now that I'm smiling, I'm going to make an attempt at responding but I gotta say I'll probably sound like a moron because I can barely keep my eyes open right now. Ok, that being said, forgive me if I ramble. I would never, ever let that poor boy bleed to death *fingers crossed behind my back*, now the lack of urinary tract function...well, that's fair game. Feel free to head on over and tell me off though, it would probably be fun! I agree with you on the whole Sam self-loathing issue too. He is really good at it but at least he's a little more subtle about it, god bless him. He did learn that from the master after all, didn't he? Hurt, hurt, hurt Dean...'nuff said there! I can make no comment about Julia, other than she's...well...ok, never mind.
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 29/05/08 04:42 PM · On: Chapter 11
Last one for today, Helen. Gotta be up early tomorrow. Will come back to you then. This chapter has been sooo great. Why do you apologize? It needed to happen that the killer and the Winchesters meet. And your approach to that worked out so well. I am feeling very anxious for Dean now... ...I have a bad feeling about this, really bad... psychic or not, trust your gut feeling Sammy, get Dean out of there! NOW! .....you really think he’d want anything else bad to happen to Dean....He didn’t like him, not one bit. It was his turn to have the bad feeling, the really bad feeling.... Who's the psychic-geek-boy now?Those many years of hunting evil must have had an effect on Bobby. Like the way Sam's and Bobby's opinions change. That's cool. .....smiled inside when he visually saw Sam and Bobby both cringe at that comment and instinctually reached for their own manly areas as he continued his explanation.... Oh, that guy is so completely insane. And so MEAN. Poor Dean is gonna suffer big time. Really scared for him. Thinking of going down to my car and open my own trunk to recover some kick-ass weapon and finish that bastard off. Whadda ya think: breakdown triangle or cigarette lighter? What's the better option? ...He’d wanted all along to finish the job, maybe this was his golden opportunity, like someone was giving him a sign.... Dean! DEAN! Wake up man. TELL SAMMY! This bastard is gonna make you suffer and then kill you! ...Damn it, he’s good, even when he’s wounded.... Always the skilled hunter. Even in pain. HURT!DEAN.....drooling...
....the way it faltered every few syllables.... Dean was trying to be funny, and failing miserably.... uuuuuaaawww. Sobbing. A little. Like him when he tries so bad to be all strong and funny. ....the bastard brother serial killer was going to be taking a knife to him in the next few minutes, and at his most cherished parts no less, and he was now more scared then he’d ever been in his entire life..... damn I wish I didn't have to get up early tomorrow. Gotta leave him alone with that serial killer bastard. And btw, this doctor really needs a catheter ripped out of his own private parts and then left to bleed out without any painkillers and then be kicked in the same place. Do I sound like some sadistic maniac to you? Good. Cos I am if it comes to Dean. I like to torture him and then torture those who inflicted the pain on him... like this doctor.... ehem... feeling a little embarrassed now... That's it for tonite, honey. Looking forward to your responses. Sleep tight, Ilka
Author's Response: If you read any of my other stories, you'll find that I apologize for myself quite a bit. I am my own worst critic, I just can't help it. Just ignore it...sometimes I get hormonal or whiny. Ok, that out of the way (Probably hormonal tonight too) Poor Sam is a little too trusting sometimes and given a choice, I gotta say I'd rather have Bobby looking out for my best interests on certain occasions. Guess that psychic hotline Sam has is a little short-circuited at the moment, but then again, wouldn't any man be after seeing what he had just seen? I'm with you all the way on the hurt!Dean too...drooling all the way. Now, I have to tell you that I was cracking up at the last part. What you said about the good doctor needing a dose of his own medicine was too funny, but then you asked me if you sound like a sadistic maniac. I say NO WAY!! I'm with you about Dean...we're the only ones allowed to hurt him like that!! You should in no way, shape or form feel embarassed...not one bit. Oh, let me just say, hold that thought about what you want to do to him because he's not done with Dean yet, not by a longshot!! On that note. good night and thank you one million and one!! I can go to sleep with another big smile spread wide on my face and have dreams of Dean rolling around in pain...umm, ok...that was a little weird. Helen
Author's Response: Oh yeah, almost forgot...I plan on diggin' into that story of yours this weekend because I am the type of person that has to read it from beginning to end in one sitting...damn, I wish I didn't have to get up for work tomorrow...*heavy sigh*
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 29/05/08 03:04 PM · On: Chapter 10
OK, back from work. Starting on a review now. Have read that bit in the morning and quotes have been made then. So forgive me if I sound a bit weird. Long day, Thursday is. ...deeply to take in the smell and smiling a broad, satisfied smile as her cry of pain was silenced .... eeew. This guy is so creeping me out. That's not easy because I am a fan of all things horror and suspense, so well done, Helen. ....Duct tape was better, it wouldn’t leave any bruises or rope burns.... The killer is evolving, escalating I think. Has made some experience and is changing his MO slightly to better achieve is goal. ....the sudden pull, then the warmth, the pain not catching up with his brain until he’d finally sucked in a lungful of air.... OUCH! That must have hurt, Dean. Guess you won't be able to have some downstairs fun over the next weeks. You're a mean woman Helen. Destroying his “best” parts... LOVING HURT!DEAN.... .... He was his brother after all, and there was no bond greater then that.... aawww. Come here you sweet boy, no you couldn't do anything to harm your lil bro'. The bond is so great you even accept being in hell in exchange for your bro's life, soooo self-sacrificing. ...Trophies... You really gave this a thought, Helen. Because of the trophies they just can't salt 'n burn Trisha away completely. I didn't think of that! Cool. And the bit about the glass where he keeps them is just so disgusting and gory.... I wanted to eat my breakfast while I was reading. Stopped the spoon half way to the mouth. ...Dr. Waterson’s on call tonight.... nice turn of events. So now, they are gonna meet the killer. Wonder if Dean notices him from his near death experience. OOOWWHH creepy and so exciting. Off to the next one. Liked it big time. Was sad I had to leave for work. Wanted to keep on reading. ... Hugs, Ilka xxx
Author's Response: Hi again!! I must say that I am by no means psychotic in anyway but I am truly intrigued by the whole serial killer mentality. I'm glad he's creepy, that was exactly what I was trying to do with him. I always pictured Ted Bundy that way...he's kind of my inspiration, weird as that sounds. I got a lot of flack for what I did to poor Dean there too...but hey, it was a necessary piece of story advancement. (Yeah, right...ha ha) Right on the money about Dean again...we all know now that he would do ANYTHING for Sam...and he did too. Sorry if I ruined your breakfast too, that a major 'my bad'. Call me twisted, but I didn't really think it was that gross...go figure. And yes...the moment that will turn the story upside down and on it's ear...crazy serial killer doctor that already almost offed Dean once gets to have poor Dean as a patient. Hmm...that doesn't bode well for Dean, does it? Smiling as I move on too...and thanks again!! Helen
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 28/05/08 04:28 PM · On: Chapter 9
OK, Helen. Last review for today. Eyes are drooping and can't really concentrate. And a person should be alert when reading this, cos it's one hell of a story. ...M&Ms... loving this. Dean withou M&Ms is just not thinkable. Made me laugh despite the seriousness of the momentary situation. ...He just wanted normal again, even if it was their kind of normal.... Oh boy, do I know how he feels. Poor Dean. Poor Sam. ...making him feel like someone else was staring at him and not Dean.... eerie eye. Wonder if it is still there in the next chapter. The seizures apparently are. ...Dean Winchester housing a woman within him still too funny for Bobby to contain himself... Glad that Bobby is here and helps Sam salting 'n burning the corpse, supporting weary Sam. But yeah, I admit I had to chuckle, when I read his thought about Dean having a girl inside him. Testosterone controlled, heroic hunter having a whiny chick inside him. Hahaha. But a little like Sam in BUaBS, hosting Meg for a few weeks and we all know how nasty that turned out in the end. Makes me wonder... That's it hunny. I am off to bed and wish you a pleasant day/night. Never sure about the time zones. Hugs, Ilka
Author's Response: Dean and his M&M's...can't have one without the other, can you? Sorry to say too, no normal, even Winchester normal coming anytime soon. Poor guys. This story was my first attempt at incorporating Bobby heavily into a story, so please be kind! I do so love Bobby. Oh, and let me say that if given a choice, I'm much rather be stuck with Trish inside me then Meg...yow!! Thanks for all the great words tonight...good night and hope to see you again tomorrow!! Helen
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 28/05/08 02:50 PM · On: Chapter 8
Alright. Revelation. Cool. Hm, sorry. One-word sentences always mean I am thinking deeply, very engaged in the story. My mind is buzzing with possible turns of events. ...been the one to put her in the ground in the first place... ....feeling nothing but, well, nothing...he wanted, needed, to do it again... ....quick snapshot of his crowning achievement.... ...need to relive that night once again unable to resist... Evil, but not supernaturally, I guess. So he is the girl's bro' I figure... one evil man. A psycho serial killer. Cool. Quick call the guys from “Criminal Minds” and have em profile this SOB. He already did two girls and might want to kill Dean... FOR FUN!!! Creepy guy, looking forward to reading more about him. ....she bit through her tongue, a huge chunk of it falling into his lap ....morbidly tucking it into his pocket, wanting to keep just one.... eeewww. That's just gory... which is cool, btw. I am a huge fan of morbid!! So he is collecting trophies too. You really know how to define a real psycho killer. Applauding. ...body bouncing off the front fender of the vehicle as he could almost feel the bones crunch inside as he hit the tree.... Ouch. That hurt more than the scene in chapter one, especially as that bastard relishes the memory so much. Gonna kill em myself for puttin Dean through this and for enjoying it even. Hate him... ...As hard as he tried, he didn’t have the strength to right them, and Sam could see it, silently correcting their position for him as the look of disgust in himself spread across Dean’s face.... awww. Dean. Come on, cut yourself some slack (guess that's the term, ain't it?). A person having survived those evil injuries is allowed to be helpless and weak for a change. He so hates being frail and not able to take care of himself. That's why he hates hospitals so much. They remind him of being in need... ....victories against Dean few and far between, as he added this one to the list right up at the top... Hehe. Sam really wins a quip. Cool. Some happiness in all this worry. Way to go, Sammy. ...He got it now, but it was just a little too late... Uch, Dean. Should've talked to Sam instead of “running away” and hiding from the girl. Shit. Now Sam is gonna make it worse. They would have had such a good source about the killer... And he might even have endangered Sam... As I said, you guys open up to each other instead of keeping secrets. NOTHING GOOD COMES OUT OF IT!!! Guess, one more chapter won't hurt, will it? I mean, it's bound to be good and I can still sleep later, can't I? Gawd, I so hooked.... Ilka
Author's Response: Hi again Ilka, Very glad to have you hooked! Makes me smile. I will say that there are a lot more twists and turns to come...but by now you've probably already figured that out. You pegged the brother part right on the head...nice job. If you think he's creepy now, just wait...he gets a lot worse. Glad you liked the gory too, I worried about that part when I wrote it. I am a huge fan of gory and morbid as well, but you can probably tell that already. You are so right in your responses to Dean too...exactly right. That's what makes him so darn lovable!! I live by one motto when it comes to sleep: Why waste time doing it now? I'll get plenty of it when I'm dead, right?
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 28/05/08 01:44 PM · On: Chapter 7
Helen. A lot of action, less thinking. Like it, too. You're excellent at both. Only short quotes, wanna read another chapter before turning in... ...the annoyance in his voice hiding the gratuity in his thoughts... Aaah. So like Dean. Like it when he does that. No chick flick even when he is hurt. ....Go figure, just our luck.... Winchester luck, damn right. But there would have been no story if she hadn't hit Dean. And that would've been a really sad thing, cos I enjoy your ideas a lot. ......the seizures had started unexplainably.... Hm. You got me thinking. Maybe she has suffered something similar to Dean? Or was it “just” epilepsy? ....man that had been silently watching him from across the street .... So eager to finally find out who he is. He definitely has something bad in mind. Beware of him Sammy, he'll be the reason for Dean's pain and the girl's death, I bet you anything! And come night-time he will show his face... hopefully. Cheers, off to next chapter. Ilka
Author's Response: You are way too kind to me, but go on anyway!! You are absolutely right about him being the reason for poor Dean's pain and the girl's death...and poor Dean has so much more pain to come! Thank you so much, moving on also.
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 28/05/08 12:41 PM · On: Chapter 6
Helen. Uuhhh, bit scared now. You reading my story? SCARY! Be kind, OK? Especially the first half isn't that elaborate. I'm still a baby-author... quotes ....He would never allow anyone else to help him; it just wasn’t in his nature.... yeah, Dean is definitely gonna give that therapist hell and Sam too if he tries to prevent him form leaving the hospital... Can't wait to read those bits. HILARIOUS... ...Dean instead pressing his body harder against the touch.... OWH, cute. Wonder if it is really Dean or the friggin ghost again. Would be nice to think it's Dean. He sure is freaked out by the events... ....as Dean wrapped his hand around it and prevented him from summoning assistance... DEAN, come on. Some one's gotta clean it away. Can't have Sam do that. Definitely PURE Dean this time. ....already started fuming.... Oh yeah. Like the tirade following. PISSED OFF majorly. ....he wasn’t telling him....'Dean Bullshit Detector'.... Business as ususal for the brothers. Trying to keep the other from knowing something they don't want to share. I wish they would stop doin it for once. Nothing good ever came out of it... Like the Dean Bullshit Detector. Brilliant idea. And so true. Even we, the readers, watchers and authors, so know when Dean is hiding something. ...sponge bath time... mmmmmmhhhh. Can I do that please? I'll be real gentle and only peek if he doesn't look.... mmmmmhhh. Sorry, have a thing with nursing him back to health. Blushing. I know that sounds a bit pervy... ....lip stuck out far enough for birds to use a perch.... Hurray, the pout, the wonderful, so cute pout.... Makes him look so young. ....not wanting to startle Dean back into the reality.... Hey, Sam really is quick on the uptake. Using his brother's instability to get the information he wants. That's almost mischievous. ....God, I’m such a woman..... Yeah, damn right. So suck it up Winchester and be your normal self. ...his brother’s bookmarks, knowing he‘d find exactly... How sweet is that? Sam having bookmarked all about Dean's tragic accident and Dean expecting him to. Aaawww. Hug 'em, both of them. OK then. If you are really gonna read my story.... remember. I am a very kind person as you can see from my reviews! Just kidding. Knock yourself out. Hugs, Ilka
Author's Response: Ilka, I can tell you that if your story has the slightest bit of hurt!Dean in it, I already like it and haven't even started it yet. I'm only responding to this review tonight because Wednesday is the worst possible day of the week for me. I work a twelve hour day and it takes me an hour to get home. That being said, I must say that coming home and reading all the awesome comments you made warmed my heart and made me smile wide!! I am saving the rest of the responses for tomorrow when I'm not half asleep, but once again, Thank you so much. I love the detail in your comments (But I think I said that already, didn't I?) I don't want to say too much though as to not give anything away or spoil anything. Oh, and yes...I am going to read your story. I was very happy to see it is complete too because as my bio says, I have the attention span of a goldfish and usually stick to complete stories or one shots. Thanks again!!  See, I am smiling REALLY wide!
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 27/05/08 06:09 PM · On: Chapter 5
Pissed and ranting Dean, YAY! Great chapter, Helen. ...someone else was footing the bill... wonder who that may be. The guy running away? ...like a startled schoolgirl finding a big hairy spider in her locker... Hilarious! Still in fits of laughter. Princess Samantha! ...Winchester guilt that never seemed to end.... Yeah, those men have a tendency to do that to themselves. Always the ones to blame for everything. Guess it kinda is a genetic thing. ...grow on you like a fungus.... Cool and very snarky remark. Shame he didn't say it out loud! Snarky Sam!!! ...back in all his obstinate glory. Sam couldn’t be any happier then what he was at just that moment.... Me too! So happy to have Dean back. Although I think something else came back with him. All this chick flick and the seizures, the blue eye. Points to some supernatural intervention. Can't wait to read how Dean is gonna put up with it. He'll be so pissed... ...lost big, because Sam had seen the whole thing.... This hero complex has two sides to it like about everything, huh? Not only is Sam worshipping Dean, Dean feels obliged to be always strong and heroic. Men are so weird, ... and so sexy when they try to be strong and fail at it... At least Dean is. ...crying like a baby... Haha. However, eerie. Dean having a chick flick moment, watching a girlie movie. First reaction: Laughter. Second: Oh god, what's wrong about that picture? ... I think that something really unpleasant is about to happen. My gut is telling me to watch out for any weird behaviour on Dean's part. Well, that's it for today. Thanks for your story. I really enjoy it. Take care, Ilka
Author's Response: You would be very, very right about somethimg coming back with Dean and even more right about the blue eye, seizures and chick flick. Don't worry though, it doesn't last long though because things go real downhill for poor Dean real fast. (Hope that doesn't turn you off to the story) That was really just the little bit of comic relief before things go way south. Once again, thank you and always happy to hear from you!!
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 27/05/08 03:18 PM · On: Chapter 4
There you go Helen. Another cool chapter. Like your way of writing. Clear and straight forward. No flourish. Even if the boys think there is a feeling of action. Brilliant. Like a race. Pure adrenaline. Quotes (again) ...Dean may not want any kind of final absolution, but Sam needed it for him.... Dean may even be pissed when he hears about that. But Sam needs it, doesn't he? So alone and scared... aaawww. ....Bouncing between miracle and certain death.... Terrible, terrible dilemma. Tough decision. He risks Dean's life to not let him die. It's always the family who decides that, so goddamn tough. I pray I don't have to do this some time... ...tears streaming down his face... *sniffle, sob* Sam is so pitiful when he cries. Like a small child. ...Please don’t leave me alone Dean, please...They wheeled him away, leaving Sam alone again... The only thing Dean might have needed to hear to start fighting for his life is Sam's plea... Gawd. Tore at my soul, that one. And then the echo of his plea in the last sentence of the para, Sam being denied his deepest, most desired wish. God, I feel for Sam so much. ...why he was actually keeping them in the first place, knowing full well he may need to burn them later... Surely keeps them as a token, a reminder, a way to be close to Dean. After all they've got his big bro's blood on them. Touching. Wiping my eyes secretly... ...Bobby had made it there sometime during his sleep... Ah, bless him. Bobby is so good to have around. Takes care of the boys. A safe haven. Once he shows up, some of the grief and responsibility will be lifted from Sam's shoulders. ...If Bobby hadn’t been standing right behind Sam to catch him, he would have fallen flat on his ass, his knees going weak and buckling under him as he fully entered the room... Geez! I got a very similar scene in my story. Shouldn't be a surprise though. Bobby is the one to catch them if they fall. Every time. ...they took Dean away again... god, I am so glad that I can continue reading. Sam's pain and loneliness is so tangible. My heart aches for him so bad. Great chapter, really. Cheers, Ilka
Author's Response: Glad to see you came back! I gotta say that this chapter was my favorite one and I've read your comments for it four of five times now. I keep going back to the line: 'Geez! I got a very similar scene in my story. Shouldn't be a surprise though. Bobby is the one to catch them if they fall. Every time.' I must say, being the total hurt!Dean junkie that I am, I'm thinking I'm going to have to read that one!! Thanks again, I love the detail you leave in your reviews and appreciate it more than you know!!
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 26/05/08 07:15 PM · On: Chapter 3
OK Helen,
time for a real review. If I really am caught up in a story, like now, I tend to write reviews with quotes in them. So if you don't like this, just gimme a hint and I'll stop doing it. Just helps me reviewing...
Uhm, and I might add that English isn't my first language, so please excuse me for the odd words now and then, I am trying!
...coursing through him like water flowing down a rain soaked river, ready to overflow... Like that and the other similes a lot. Dean's pain becomes really palpable by those images. Brilliant. ...at least tolerable to him... Yeah, just like Dean to suck the agony up even if it is incredibly painful. By Dean standards, the pain becoming a little hard to tolerate equals unconsciousness for everybody else. Hurt!Dean, my favourite! Such a tough warrior that man! ...a little voice in there with him... That'll be the woman I guess. Yeah, will freak Dean out. Cool! Like a pissed Dean, too. And this psychic thing sure is gonna piss him off. ...the pattern of breath so familiar to him, the pattern he needed so badly to hear... Aaaww. Bless him. His need to be close to Sammy, seeking an anchor to soothe his fear, to steady him.... sniffle. ...he was full on panicked now.... HAHA! Like it if he panics because of the Impala. Just like in the episode Red Sky at Morning. He nearly hyperventilates! Our tough and brave hunter, collapsing because of a stooopid car. Well, scratch that! I just love the Impala... ...in a coma... Yeah, coma and Dean, that's always a great combination. Did that to him myself! ...seizures... That'll be the woman's effect on him too. As she used to be an epileptic. And maybe her eyes are blue. Hm, gotta reread your description of her outer appearance. And the seizures, Dean will hate them, being unable to do anything, leaving him weak and frail... Gawd, he'll hate that big time. Really enjoying your story. Will come back to read and review tomorrow. Time for bed now. It's 2:15 in the morning in Germany, Take care Ilka/RoweenaC
Author's Response: Ilka, Let me just say that your English is perfect! Better than some of the people I have known my entire life! Good old American public school system at work...ha ha. Now that I've said that, I'd also like to say that you should feel free to quote away. I love hearing how certain things made people feel, whether they be good or bad. It's what helps improve what we say and do so I say...have at it! I will look forward to hearing what you think of the rest of this story and I hope you really enjoy it. Thank you so very very much!!
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed) · Date: 26/05/08 06:40 PM · On: Chapter 2
Hey Helen, finally found time to read and leave a review. Gotta say, an interesting start to a story, those two chapters. Great! Lots of action... And I prayed for Dean's quick return into his own body. Must've freaked him right out! Quick quote: ....One of Dean’s eyes was it’s usual soft green color, but oddly, the other didn’t match anymore. The other eye was a deep shade of blue.... Hm, really. Was a little angry at first. Cos I really love his green eyes. However, now that I have adjusted to it (real quick actually), I am curious what will happen next. I mean, I can see where you are going by the title, but why does it affect those gorgeous pools of emerald fire (ha, me and my obsession with his eyes! Sorry got carried away...)? Hugs, Ilka
Author's Response: Thanks Ilka!! I know how you feel about those green beauties, but believe me, there's a good reason for the eye color change, and hey, it was only one of them. Let me just say again that I am glad you find it interesting and I hope you like the entire thing!! Thanks so much.
Reviewer: bulletbabe (Signed) · Date: 26/05/08 05:30 PM · On: Chapter 24
Damn this was a great chapter ...and the best bit? The bit that should be heading to the UnGen hall of fame for the best moments in FanFic...Bobby slapping Dean upside the head...lol Just a classic...what more can I say, LOVED IT!! XXX Louy
Author's Response: Aww Louy...big huge thanks for taking the time to read! I know you have a lot on your plate and I am honored that you made a space for this crazy piece of whatever it is. I gotta tell you, what you just said there is going to put the biggest smile on my face for the rest of the day!! UnGen hall of fame for best moments in FanFic...priceless!! And to think you think it should be there, even better!! Thanks so much!!!!
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