Reviewer: mizpah (Signed)
09/08/11 04:26 AM · On:
All the more poignant for me just having watched the episode, and grieved right along with Dean, fighting back the tears that he was fighting when he said his final goodbye and walked away from Lisa's room.
He had just ripped his own heart out of his chest, stomped on it, kicked it against the wall, then stabbed it with his boot knife. All in the name of protecting those he loved.
And the tragedy is - that is no guarantee that they will be safe. Just because they don't remember doesn't mean they won't be a target.
I wish fervently that somewhere along the line, the boys find happiness and are allowed to keep it, because they deserve so much more than the nightmares that life, heaven and hell have thrown at them.
Awesome work, BJ - this is just as heartbreaking as Jensen's performance during that episode. A wonderful peek into Dean's tortured psyche, as always.
Hey, Jules! Long time, I miss the gang but lots of stuff going on here on the home front.
I love that Jensen loved that last scene with Lisa and Ben. He gave such a stellar performance, so subtle but just as heartbreaking as if he'd dissolved in a billion tears. The fact that he held back, kept all that pain inside just made the hurt so much worse. And he wouldn't even allow Sam to offer comfort.
And while he's always wanted to protect Sam from the pain of their lives, to think that he'd allowed Ben to start down that same path must have gutted him. Dean never seems to acknowledge his own pain aside from not wanting anyone else to experience it. Not Sam, and certainly not Ben.
To see himself doing what his dad did to him...well, I would love for show to have him do some further soul searching and finally come to terms with Dad and how he raised them.
The mindwipe does nothing to insure their safety, but it does offer them the chance at normal again. Something that Dean would value, especially since he and Sam can't have it. He always wants for others.
Good to hear from you, take care, B.J.
Reviewer: birdie (Signed)
06/08/11 03:28 PM · On:
Awh BJ...beautifully voiced and hauntingly sad. You are a master story teller
Sadly it is Dean telling the story and it is so sad. Poor guy deserves so much better...maybe one day. I love that they didn't kill off Lisa and Ben, it means that they can one day remember, maybe at a time when Dean can reenter their lives and they can make it work. One can hope!
Reviewer: Glitterbelle (Signed)
04/08/11 03:50 PM · On:
This a beautiful, heartbreaking insight into Dean's thoughts for this scene. You have really captured the essence of who Dean is and why he did this for Ben and Lisa. Like the previous reviewer I could really hear Dean's voice saying these words as I read them. Very nicely written. I really enjoyed it. Thanks for sharing. :-) x
Thank you, that is absolutely the best comment anyone could make on one of my stories, that I captured their voice. Jensen makes Dean so real, so defined, that it feels like he is in my head, guiding my writing and speaking thru me.
I love that while I feel like I know Dean so well, he still surprises me, Show & Jensen still finds ways to reveal more layers. He is certainly never simple and while wiping their memories obviously has a lot going against it, it is WHY he did it that captivates me. Dean's intentions are always pure and unselfish.
And he does break our hearts, totally and absolutely. He is a hero who deserves so much more and maybe...one day, Lisa & Ben will again know him. Who wouldn't want to know Dean Winchester?
Take care, B.J.
Reviewer: supernatfem76 (Signed)
03/08/11 06:56 PM · On:
You did a fantastic job getting into Dean's head for this tag to Let It Bleed. I could almost hear Dean saying these words. I really enjoyed reading this.
Thank you, that is the ultimate compliment and what I strive to do. I love getting inside Dean's head, Jensen is so amazing he pulls you in and you begin to see the world thru his eyes.
Dean truly was conflicted here and only did what he thought was best, his hope to give them back their lives just another sacrifice...but then his own pain is always secondary. Knowing they had a chance to live unafraid was paramount to him.
I only want them to one day know him and understand, he deserves that and so do they. Thanks again, B.J.
Reviewer: fitz (Signed)
03/08/11 01:52 AM · On:
You nailed it. I remember thinking when I watched the episode that Dean was wrong to have their memories erased. Despite the distress his friendship had brought to their door they wouldn't have ever wished to have never known him. But this story is so right. From Dean's perspective, as heart breaking as it was, he had no other choice. Thank you for your insight. Added to my favourites. Fitz
Thanks! And that is what's so sad and wrong, Dean thinks this is best and yet how can he believe they are better to have never known him? Lisa said it was the best year of her life. Yes, trouble came, misunderstandings and danger...but I wanted them to work it out, find a way, throw away the rule book and make it work.
Maybe someday...when all the evil is vanquished and fate gives Dean a second chance. Where there's life there's hope. Take care, B.J.
Reviewer: Nachuma (Signed)
03/08/11 12:18 AM · On:
I loved this! Yeah, break my heart, Dean...
I'd read a lot of criticism about the mind-wipe and its lack of logic, but you gave the perfect explanation--not to keep them from danger (which doesn't make sense) but to give Ben back his innocence (which he'd said he wished he could do for the boy in Something Wicked, Sam as a kid, and their brother Adam...) Thanks for a wonderful story!
Innocence has always been a hot issue for Dean, his protective instincts trying his damnedest to give others the chance he himself was robbed of. Ben was like another chance to do it right and yet Dean feels he failed, failed to protect him and maintain his innocence.
I hope someday they allow Lisa and Ben to remember, Dean deserves that, deserves to know that despite their issues, Lisa does respect and love him, that he is a fond memory for all the good between them.
Thanks for the lovely review, take care, B.J.