Reviewer: sam (Signed)
04/02/11 04:32 PM · On:
ahhhh this is great, but i have a ? is yvonne me jules...well if it is or isnt i like it thank you so much and i was wondering if i can get a sweet copy of this to my collection ... if i may of course ... i tell you its poetry. email@example.com
Of course you may have a copy - actually, there should be one in your hands by now. Think I sent one off the other night.
Hi, Ivonne. So glad you liked RoboSam in all his misunderstanding glory - lol. Not having a soul means he really is missing out on so much - he has all of our beloved Sam's memories, but can't make much sense out of them without the emotional connection to give them their true meaning.
But at least he did make the effort to be at Dean's bedside for Christmas.
Thanks so much for reading, hun. Take care,
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed)
27/12/10 10:53 PM · On:
Absolutely loved. And Robo-Sam was just right........semi-creepy and all!
Thanks so much for that. Glad I got RoboSam right. Man, that was hard work! How do you write someone with no emotions??? Especially when I'm emotion-driven myself.
He is pretty creepy, isn't he? Definitely not the Sammy we know and love. Will be interesting to see how he pulls up in episode 12......
Thanks so much for reading, and letting me know what you thought. Hope you had a great Christmas and New Year.
Reviewer: supernaturalfan (Signed)
27/12/10 12:50 PM · On:
Great one shot Jules. I am so behind in reading, but when I saw this one I had to read first. You portrayed soulless Sam point on..could see him in my head. I can imagine how hard that was..after so many stories the other way, but you did him justice. Just shows how good a writer you are. Also loved your betrayal of Vonnie..LOL perfect!! All her reactions were perfect..and believeable. Know in my heart this would be her. Great story to end the year with..look forward to 2011 and other great adventures from you. Have a Happy New Year. We'll talk soon.
Take care friend,
I'm behind in my reviewing, so we're both in the same boat. Time gets away these days, doesn't it?
And yeah, it was damned hard to write soulless Sam - I lost count of how many times I tweaked and re-wrote his scenes, especially the dialogue between him and his reflection.
Awww, so glad you loved Vonnie...but then we all do, don't we? LOL. Yep, I'm pretty certain it would be just a Vonnie thing to do, too, to reach out to those boys and try to help in any way she could.
Take care, and we're definitely talking soon,
Reviewer: Miriam (Signed)
27/12/10 07:50 AM · On:
Merry Christmas!!! I finally happily have a day to slow down and absorb your words. Thank you, as always! I have so appreciated how robo-Sam has added to the depth of the show, but it has been very hard for me as my first response to the story comes from Sam and Dean's relationship. You have captured the great disconnect so well. And, the equally amazing reality of the memory and connect of love for his brother being acted out intellectually by Sam. Take care...
Hi, Jo! Happy Christmas to you, too!
How's that foot? I'm guessing by your comments about finally having a day to slow down, that you're back on the run again and the foot's healed up nicely?
Oh, the great disconnect. Man, that pains me. I'm really peeved at the writers for doing that. Just when the brothers finally sorted out their differences and welded themselves back into the team they should have been all along, bang! Sam takes a dive into the worst part of Hell, and then we're back to square one by the time he reunites with his brother.....*unhappy sigh*.....
Is it too much to ask to have the boys fighting side-by-side instead of each other?
Someone get Sera Gamble on the phone...I've got a bone to pick with her!!!
Hope you had a great New Year, hun.
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed)
26/12/10 01:22 PM · On:
Okay, so I have to get my thoughts together here. First of all I like to say that you lied to me when you said that I had only a small role, as I was in most of the story. And you made me younger, attractive and smart, wow, so awesome.
I felt horrible for Dean, so ill and out of his mind with fever and all alone in that hospital. He really needed someone by his side and I'm glad Yvonne found the phone and decided to call Sam. Their first interaction was funny and sad and I think you got RoboSam completely right there. Loved the honesty with which he spoke. Sometimes not having emotions isn't such a bad thing, even though it can be pretty embarrassing. Sam repeating the things his brother told him made me laugh. The no flirting, suffering is the only game in town and the realization he needed to show empathy, after he just told her god and his angels were dick, were so great.
The way Sam talked to himself in the mirror, how he finally needed to ask Dean because he just had to have the answer shows his confusion. And it has to be confusing to remember his whole life, all the emotions and the actions, yet being unable to connect with them. I guess it's not even like a book or a movie, because somehow we are able to connect with that because of our feelings. I can't even imagine how it would be to have memories of myself and it not having any impact on my life today.
And I loved Dean, when he woke up to Sam being there with a Christmas tree and presents and eggnog. And even though he was disappointed at first, because he realized Sam just accessed memories and copied them, he also realized that by being there and doing this, Sam showed there was something between them that went far beyond emotions. I loved that you used the word 'bond', as it is something that has always been between them and in my opinion has to still be there. It was what brought Sam back to Dean, when the Djinns threatened him and what brought him back to the hospital now.
And Yvonne listening in and praying, well we know prayers work. What a shock though to overhear this kind of thing and react the way she did. I think I would have had a difficult time to do that.
I really want to thank you for writing this. It was a great Christmas present and I will treasure it. You just have the ability to bring me into a story like I'm right there, taking part in it. And I know RoboSam is difficult, but you did him justice to the smallest detail. At least the way I perceived him. You also got Dean down so well and what makes him stick with his brother. His loyalty, his devotion, his love. Everything that makes him awesome. Hope that the New Year will be the best ever. Hugs, Vonnie
Um....well....it was only a little lie...*puppy dog eyes*....and in my defence, it did only start out as a little scene in my head, but it sort of - grew....*bigger puppy dog eyes*....you know how it is.
When Chris gave me the idea for the story, she likened RoboSam to Castiel right at the start of his association with the boys - not understanding humans and their emotions. And she thought there was a great opportunity for some good comedy there, like the fairies episode, with Sam trying to understand why the Christmas stuff was so important, and missing the mark completely because he couldn't sense the emotion behind it all.
But it didn't really turn out quite the way it started. It ended up being not a completely funny piece. Just...a few funny moments.
I tried to reason out why Sam would do the whole tree and stuff for his brother, and oh, gosh, it was so hard. Logic dictated that he'd be more likely to make sure Dean would be all right then hit the road again. So I'm really glad that argument he had with his reflection worked out so well. And yeah, it must be frustrating on an intellectual level for Sam not being able to make sense of the emotional ties behind his memories.
I am so thrilled that you enjoyed this so much, hun. And thankful that you allowed me to immortalise your name in print.
Aah! I almost forgot! And I told Karen I'd ask.
So.....after all the dust settled....did Sam end up getting your number or what?
Reviewer: zippy37 (Signed)
26/12/10 08:13 AM · On:
What a treat to have a Mizpah Christmas story just in time to read on Christmas Eve! I had a very lazy evening and I topped it off with this story (which I loved btw). I think you wrote soulless Sam very well; I agree with you that it's very hard to think through how this version of Sam will react to anything these days. On first reading the story, I wasn't sure if Sam as portrayed on the show would even have tried to make Xmas for Dean - it's hard to see any emotional connection between them at the moment - but that said, Sam does seem to want Dean around and I'm not convinced that it's just to have an extra weapon (although that's definitely a big part of it). You've done a really good job of articulating Sam's attempts to sort through his relationship with Dean and whatever feelings he may have/not have on the subject, which again I think builds on what we've seen briefly in the show.
Thanks for getting this story out in time for Xmas (I miss the VS Xmas collection but you're all making up for it). I hope you had a lovely Christmas and wish you a very Happy New Year. On a selfish note, I can't wait for some new stories too.
We had a wet Christmas Eve, driving to my cousin's place to drop off presents for the kids, then back to my place for a hot cup of tea and dry off - lol.
It was really hard to get inside RoboSam's head, because I'm so used to tapping into his emotions, and I had no base for that this time around. And yes, I'm with you - on some level, Sam knows he needs his brother. He just can't apply a logical reason for why. Because it's not logical. It's family.
Oh, new stories? Well.....I've had two weeks off work over Christmas, and actually managed to get some writing done, so......very, very soon, I'm hitting the boards again.
Reviewer: Dolphindreamer (Signed)
25/12/10 07:37 PM · On:
Dean watched Sam's eyes follow the nurse from the room, and frowned in disgust. "You didn't."
The younger man turned back to face him, trying to dredge up an expression of wounded pride. "No, I didn't. I suffered by your bedside, trying to feel the angst."
"I swear I didn't make a move on the hot nurse."
Giggles warmly to the above. Excellent banter.
How you wrote soulless Sam was spot on.
Thank you to Ziggy for all her extra help during such a busy time and for always being so supportive and caring...And Christ...such an exceptional banner. I still say the artwork makes the story come to life that much more and she makes the piece speak without the use of words. Talent!
The whole story is fantastic. But I wanted to pick a favorite part -to tell you about -- and that was Sam chopping down the tree and snow falling on his head...that image is so endearing -- even for soulless Sam.
Always amaizng to read and live in your world for a while.
Merry Christmas to the entire team Jules!
Hope you had a great New Year.
Thank you so much, not just from me but from my awesome back-up crew. They do a great job, and I can't do this thing without them.
Ah, so glad you loved that little moment with RoboSam and the snow - lol. I just had to give the uber-hunter a little nature payback! And thrilled that you loved the banter.
Wonder if Sam ended up getting Vonnie's number......*grins*...will have to ask Vonnie.
Reviewer: Soennelchen (Signed)
25/12/10 03:49 PM · On:
Jules, what can I say? Awesome, awesome :) !!! You did Dean and "Robo" Sam justice. Again a great piece of writing and a perfect present! Thank you for sharing this jewel with us!
Hope you had a wonderful Christmas. Hugs, from snowy Germany, Dagmar
Hugs back from hot, rainy and steamy Brisbane!
Oh, so relieved I did them justice, especially soulless Sam. Man, he was hard to write. Especially for me, who tends to be a bit like old Sam, operating on emotions rather than logic. It was so hard to keep the emotions out of it.
But it was a bit of a challenge that I couldn't resist in the end, so I had a go. Thankfully it turned out all right - lol.
Thanks hun, I had a great Christmas. Hope you did, too. Hugs to Sidney.
Reviewer: Oceane (Signed)
24/12/10 02:44 PM · On:
What a wonderful surprise, a Christmas' present just in time for, well Christmas, lol. I loved it. Hurt!Dean and Robo!Sam searching in his memories to give Dean a great Christmas moment, awesome. I loved when Robo!Sam talked to his other self, great work there. Thank you Jules, I wish you a Merry Christmas and a very happy New Year, see you next year.
Hullo, hun! I hope you had a great Christmas.
Yep, just sneaked this in under the wire - posted Christmas Eve my time.
Oh, you liked Sam's little chat in the mirror? I'm really pleased that came across so well. That bit got a fair amount of tweaking, I can tell you - lol. Shuffled quite a few lines around until I felt it was flowing right.
Thanks hun - glad you loved it. And I had a great Christmas and a pretty peaceful New Year, just the way I like it.
Reviewer: moira4eku (Signed)
24/12/10 11:23 AM · On:
Thanks for the Christmas treat. Nice to read it on Christmas Eve. It was great to see Sam trying to make an effort for Dean even if he isn't feeling it. This just gives Dean hope though for getting soulless Sam back to his Sammy. I really liked how the nurse overheard Sam and Dean and understood their problems because if she believes in her God then she would believe in Hell, angels, and demons. You too, take care this festive season.
Thanks so much for that. I'm very glad I could treat you - lol.
As I said to Tree, I think there are certain things hardwired into Sam, like his tie to his brother. But his head keeps getting in the way of that instinctual bond, and he keeps applying cold logic to situations that really don't have a lot of logic in them sometimes. Like his coming to Dean's rescue after a year apart. And saving Dean back in Crowley's motel from hell, even though he'd pretty much made up his mind by then that getting his soul back wasn't a good thing.
Glad too, that you liked the nurse. I based her on our own Vonnie836, with her kind permission. And yes, it makes sense that to believe in God and angels, one has to believe in the devil and demons - you have to have the balance.
Thanks so much for reading.
Reviewer: Tree66 (Signed)
24/12/10 08:56 AM · On:
Well... MERRY CHRISTMAS to me!!!! A healthy dose of Hurt!Dean and all that angst... and then the sweet goodness of poor RoboSam trying sooo hard to redo Christmas and make amends as it were... oh and lest I forget- you even gave me KickAssDean in the great fight scene with the Rugarau/Djinn and Vamp...
I think I was actually cheering when I saw the nurse was Yvonne ( well deserved btw!) YAY Vonnie!!!) and I think you did RoboSam quite well- even if as a die-hard DeanGirl- I almost couldnt be bothered to care with him - LOL
But then.. let's be honest- I'm not even surprised that you'd pull something like this off anymore - its ususally just a matter of what you're gonna pull out of your bag of tricks to amaze me at this point...
So the only thing left to say is THANKYOU for the awesome Christmas prezzie- (and hint at you to email my own personal copy) and tell you Merry Christmas from north of the equator!
Ooh, I forgot to email this! *smacks self in head*...my only excuse is that I've been writing - trying to get some WIP's actually finished and out of the folder where they're gathering cyber-dust and spider's webs. I will remedy that when I get home - email will be on its way in a few hours.
Merry Christmas to you indeed - I'm always bashing Sam, as Chris gleefully reminds me, so every now and then I have to bash my beloved Dean to even up the score a little bit - LOL. And yep, had to have a kickarse fight scene - couldn't have Dean go down with merely a whimper, or leave three creatures running around loose to track him to the hospital where he was vulnerable to attack. And you know Dean - he'd want to finish the job, even if it killed him.
Oh, go thrilled you liked Vonnie's contribution. And yeah, I understand about RoboSam. Email on its way soon to continue that discussion we started, too - lol. Geez, I'm behind in my correspondence. Must make that a new year's resolution - answer emails before they become months old!
I tried very hard to find a reasonable line for RoboSam to take, but have that underlying - and for a soulless Sam, mystifying - pull towards his brother that made him chew a hole in his own arm to save Dean back in Crowley's hell hotel. I think that bond is hard-wired into both of them, but RoboSam's logic keeps overriding it, except for when pure blind instinct takes over. Tried to tap into that a little bit for this story.
Hope you had a great Christmas Day hun, and that 2011 is a great year for you and yours.
Reviewer: Primrose (Signed)
24/12/10 06:43 AM · On:
Merry Christmas to you too! I've also had a hard time with soulless Sam-enough that I have been avoiding season 6 stories. I think you've done a great job here, though. I appreciate Sam making the effort for Dean, even when he's not really feeling it. :) Thank you!
Oh, me too. I've been trying six ways from Sunday to find excuses and reasons as to why Sam was acting all strange and cold, right up until Sam let Dean get turned, then I stopped cold in absolute shock, and started to think that Sam actually hadn't come out of the cage after all, because NO WAY would Sammy have let that happen.
So it was really hard to write RoboSam and dig into that coldly logical head without the benefit of emotions to motivate him. But after my initial reaction of throwing up my hands in horror when the idea was first suggested to me, I sort of couldn't resist the challenge.
So glad (read 'relieved') that you enjoyed it.
Reviewer: ziggy (Signed)
24/12/10 06:15 AM · On:
Awesome Christmas story sis, wonderfully written and perfectly executed. I know you were worried about writing RoboSam but you needn't have been, you got him spot-on.
No way would Dean be a victim of a simple mugging, it took a Djinn, vampire, and rugaru to injure him that badly - and he managed to take all three out too! Loved the flashback that told us how he got to be in the hospital.
And loved the nurse Yvonne, finding Dean's phone and contacting Sam after she heard his words as he fought the fever.
So right that Sam would steal a car to be by Dean's side, he may not feel emotions but there is some subconscious attachment to his brother that demanded he make his way to the hospital.
Perfect too that Sam dredged his memories to provide some sort of Christmas for Dean when Yvonne mentioned it, the fact that he made the effort although couldn't feel the sentiment behind it spoke volumes.
Totally believable too Yvonne's reaction when she overheard the brothers' conversation, she knew something was off with Sam but loved her faith to pray for him.
Great banter at the end, Dean is certainly starting to recover telling Sam not to sing or he will scare the candy stripers (here they are WRVS volunteers)!
A really great read with fantastic imagery, particularly when Dean was lying in the hospital bed fighting the fever. You have struck gold yet again.
And thanks too for your awesome words in your A/N, it is an honour and privilege to beta for you and your friendship means the world to me.
Hope you and Chris have a wonderful Christmas and that 2011 is a great year for you both and all your hopes and dreams come true.
Thanks, sis, we did have a pretty great Christmas Day. Finished off the night by watching A Christmas Cottage and A Very Supernatural Christmas.
I was worried about RoboSam, especially trying to come up with motivations for him. Before it was easy - Dean was his brother, end of story. But now logic rules, and what's logical about driving four hours through a snowy night to sit with an unconscious man who's - in your mind - plotting to wipe you out of existence to bring back the brother he knows and loves?
Thanks so much for your help on this one as always. Chuffed that the images came across, especially Dean's fever experiences and Sam's conversation with himself in the mirror. Brr...shades of Lucifer, I just realised.....*shivers*....didn't mean for that particular symmetry to happen.