Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed) · Date: 29/08/10 08:14 PM · On: Chapter 1
Great chapter! Looks like the plot is thickening. yay! I can't wait! Dean knew he had to leave now or he would break down in her arms, the same way he had the first time they'd made love after Sammy had died. Ohhh, that is such a touching passage. I can clearly imagine it in my head and it breaks my heart. Not just yet baby. We've got a few more miles to go. Is he planning suicide by Impala?
Author's Response: I could clearly imagine that too, Dean breaking down because he had a moment of happiness, while thinking his brother is in hell. I would imagine he felt guilty if he had any happiness. Poor guy!
Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed) · Date: 29/08/10 07:50 PM · On: Prologue
Great beginning! There are a few tags to Swan Song out there (I've even done one) and I have to say this is one of the best. Almost a thousand miles away, in Cicero, Indiana, Dean Winchester cradled his phone to his chest and cried. That tore at my heart. Poor Dean!
Author's Response: Hey Shannon! There are a ton of tags to Swan Song and I think I read about two the day after it aired and then I quit when I decided to write one. I've not been able to read much lately anyway because of my eyes and it's absolutely killing me! Thank you for the nice compliment! :)
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed) · Date: 29/08/10 09:57 AM · On: Chapter 5
Right now it feels both brothers but especially Sam (and it just breaks my heart to see him suffer like this and so desperately trying to keep his composure for Dean's sake but longing for his brother so much) are drowning in despair and sorrow. I wasn't surprised though Bobby couldn't get through to Sam - the answer has to be Dean and they both have to understand this if they want to have a chance to heal. Markham's A Creed expresses this so perfectly as I believe this is the very core of Sam's and Dean's bond: "There is a destiny that makes us brothers; None goes his way alone"! You sure write this in an amazing way and I can't wait for this to continue!
Author's Response: Aw, I like that quote Sabine. Very fitting for our boys. And you're right, they are both drowning and the only person able to save them is each other. I'm really glad you're enjoying the story and I appreciate all your kinds words....and of course the lovely stars!
Reviewer: VeeveesWorld (Signed) · Date: 29/08/10 12:32 AM · On: Prologue
Noooo!!!.....oooo! I love Adam though. However, as much as I do, I've come to the realization that he probably won't be sticking around. However, you have caught me, hook and sinker.
Author's Response: I liked Adam a lot too and would love to see him some more but sadly, I'm with you. I don't think he'll be back. So, I caught you but did I keep you? :) Thanks for taking time to comment and for the lovely stars.
Reviewer: supernaturalfan (Signed) · Date: 27/08/10 01:50 PM · On: Chapter 5
This one broke my heart. Poor Sam..he's hurting so much. I'm afraid when they hit the road together, he won't be able to hide it from Dean.
He really needs his big brother, but Dean's anger with him and not trusting him is blinding Dean to how much Sam's needs him..and he won't even let Bobby comfort him. Sad!!
If this breaks my heart, I don't know how it will be when he finally lets all this out...I just know he won't get any sleep until he does..and Dean is there to forgive him.
Look forward to next week. Talk to you soon.
Take care,
Jane
Author's Response: Thanks Jane. Sam is really in a bad way. He's been holding all this in for a year but seeing his brother again, well, it's gonna do something to him. He's going to want Dean to take care of him like he always did but at the same time he wants so much more for Dean than just being his brother's keeper.
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 26/08/10 10:22 PM · On: Chapter 5
I'm having tears in my eyes while I'm reading this story. It hurts so much to feel their pain. Dean feeling once again like he can't trust Sam, unable to see that his brother just tried to give him a gift. He was hurting so bad, was not really living that Lisa knew she would loose him. If Dean can't hide his emotions, than it's really bad. And then there is Sam, doing something for his brother out of love and now finding that it was not the right thing. Now he is looking for forgiveness again, just like he had before his sacrifice. And now he finally is taking Dean's advice and holds it all in. He is turning into Dean and I don't think he can handle it. Heck, Dean hardly can handle being Dean. And Bobby, hurting himself, has to reach out and try to help. He is awesome. So how is this going to turn out? What happened to Castiel? I can't wait for more. I don't care if it pains me to read it, because that just means you did your job as an author and relayed the emotions to me. Awesome job. Hugs, Vonnie
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 26/08/10 09:26 PM · On: Chapter 5
Aww, I had tears in my eyes after reading this one. Sam is way more broken than Dean realises, or is possibly willing to see. It's beginning to look now like Sam really couldn't have contacted Dean when he came back, because he was an absolute wreck. And he's not much better now. Sleeping in a chair with all the lights on because he can't face the dark, keeping a diary of his nightmares and small bouts of sleep, still thinking that he has so much to atone for and that he can never earn Dean's forgiveness no matter how hard he tries - no wonder he isolated himself from everyone. I have to confess, I can't wait to see where you're going to take this. And as soon as I found out about Sam's diary, I found myself hoping that Dean will stumble across it and find out that his brother hasn't fully escaped from the hell he willingly fell into. He's escaped physically, but mentally he still has a long way to go. I know Dean's angry and hurt, but I hope that once he knows what's been going on, his attitude towards Sam and his decisions might soften a little. Loved Bobby acting as mediator, and my heart just ached for Sam feeling that he was on the outer when Dean was being comforted by their surrogate father. I was so relieved and touched when Bobby came out to find Sam and tried to talk to him. Sam's hanging on by a very thin thread, it seems. Wonder if this hunt is going to snap his tenuous hold on his self-control. And what have you done with Cas? Or what has the enemy done with our favourite angel? Mixed feelings about Lisa. I know she's worried about Dean and upset over his being hurt by the knowledge that his brother has been back for a year and he wasn't told, but I think I'm feeling rather protective of Sam at this point, so my hackles are up a bit where she's concerned. Back off, girlie, and leave Sammy alone - he's fragile. That little litany he's got going on in his head is worrying, and so sad - "Bury it, Sam. Forget it." That statement just spoke of so much lonliness and heartbreak for me. And Sam's right - if he needs to sleep with all the lights blazing, how the hell is he going to keep that from Dean? But I'm thinking the sooner Dean finds out that all is definitely not well with Sam, the sooner that rift will heal. Is it next week yet? Jules
Author's Response: Thanks Jules. :) Dean is definitely hurt and rightly so but once he found out Sam was still alive, that's all he has....anger and hurt feelings. His suffering for his brother is over but Sam is still suffering. I have a reader over on FF.net that doesn't seem to get that. *shrugs* Can't please 'em all, nor do I want to. That means I would be compromising what I believe and that's just not me. Yeah, I had to throw Lisa in there to give Sam a hard time. But I'm with you--back off girlie! I wanted Sam to know that Dean did have some normal, even possibly happy times and I just couldn't see Dean opening up about it but I could see Sam calling Lisa to find out. But you're right, Sam is hanging on by a very thin thread. Something's got to give....
Reviewer: supernaturalfan (Signed) · Date: 23/08/10 02:10 PM · On: Chapter 4
I finally got around to reading this. One good thing..it's Monday, so I only have 3 days to wait. lol
I'm worried about Sam. He not doing so well..I'm thinking a meltdown is in his future. I'm glad he has Dean now to help him through..and he really wants them rings destroyed, but not for himself but for Dean. I'm like Dean..that thought didn't cross my mind till Sam brought it up.
I know it's been mention in the spoilers that Sam is more like the Dean of season 1, but I'm thinking it's more a cover up. I honestly hope that your Sam portrayed in the story is more the Sam we will see later in the season. Even Jared said Sam is messed up. Let's hope his shoot first ask questions later attitude will change back to the Sam we know and love.
I'm freaked at how close you are to the spoilers..alright what do you know that I don't. You been hiding stuff..lol
Look forward to the next. Talk to you Thursday if not sooner.
Take care,
Jane
Author's Response: Aw, thanks Jane. I'm not too keen on Sam being all hard either. It sounds like he may even be worse than Dean ever was. I can imagine he is gonna be messed up because he has such a good soul and to go through everything he's been through.....it just breaks my heart. I hope that he does revert to the Sam we know and love or my heart may not be able to take it. Jules suggested that I had kidnapped Kripke but you know I would have invited you girls over if I had! *sigh* If only. I was so excited when the spoilers started coming out and then I thought: crap, people are gonna think I wrote this after I heard the spoilers but I swear, I didn't! I'm channeling my inner Kripke....now there's a very big.....IF ONLY! :)
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed) · Date: 22/08/10 08:14 AM · On: Chapter 4
I know there will be desperate and dangerous times ahead for Sam and Dean after they found out what they have to face now and the rings seem to be undestroyable (lol LOTR) but they are back together again and you can feel what this means to them throughout the whole chapter!! Loved what Bobby said to Dean (who has every right to be furious), "You're right. I have no idea but you do have an idea what Sam has been through. As hard as it was for you here, don't you think being locked up in Lucifer's cage was worse, no matter how long he was there?" and once more Bobby so wonderfully proves he is family for Sam and Dean. For Sam I'm scared, what he's been through is indescribable and I hope he will talk to Dean before he breaks completely; Dean never will let this happen though, right? Loved the chapter, thank you!
Author's Response: Sam has certainly been through a lot and Dean will try his best to be there for him although they both have a lot to work through now that they're back together. And now they've got the added worrry of the rings. Nothing is every easy for these poor boys. Thanks for the awesome review Sabine!
Reviewer: Amberdreams (Signed) · Date: 21/08/10 03:40 PM · On: Chapter 4
Thought I'd pop over here and review for a change! Would Michael still be interested in Dean? I wonder. Do angels feel vengeful? - I reckon a warlike one like Michael might, in which case if he got free he'd probably be almost as pissed as Lucifer. Oops!
Author's Response: Well, obviously Sam thinks Michael would still be interested in Dean and so do I. I think he'd be slightly pissed that he got pulled into the pit with Lucifer.
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 20/08/10 06:45 PM · On: Chapter 4
Wonderful chapter. The boys being back together and there being some problems, Sam not wanting to talk, not able to sleep, Dean upset because no one told him, yet in the end they are just happy to be together. Sounds like they have quite a problems there though.Can't wait to see how this is going to go. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: They definitely have some things they are going to have to work through. Let's just hope they aren't so stubborn they can't work through everything. You know how these boys can get sometimes. :) Thanks for the review Vonnie!
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 19/08/10 09:26 PM · On: Chapter 4
That is so scary how on the money you were with the timeline of Sam's return. You kidnapped Kripke and made him give you advance spoilers, didn't you? LOL. Seriously, great work in pre-empting. Could understand totally Dean's anger and hurt, and I really love the way Bobby backed off and admitted that he didn't understand how it had been for Dean for that last year. Not because he was wrong, but that showed how much he's on the boys' side. But I'm a bit concerned about Sam. He must have really been messed up something chronic when he came back, and he's still suffering the effects a year on. And the inability to destroy War's ring has just made things worse, I think. Love the nod back to Lord of the Rings, too, hun, just like Dean did in 5.02 when he asked about a pitstop to Mount Doom to destroy it. I'm beginning to wonder if it will take a journey to a modern day Mordor for them to get rid of these ones as well. Is it next week yet? Jules
Author's Response: LOL I wish I'd kidnapped Kripke! I'd so love to meet that man! Sam has been mostly alone for the past year and trying to handle things on his own. Just not a good thing after a stint in the pit with Lucifer. Nobody should be alone after something like that. And you may be on to something about the modern day Mordor, Jules. :)
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed) · Date: 15/08/10 08:13 AM · On: Chapter 3
So it really was Sam behind Bobby, couldn't have wished for more, as painful as their reunion was, this here alone was worth the pain, 'Sam gave a fleeting smile and Bobby wondered how long it had been since the boy had done so..."Sam, he's pissed, hurt and confused but it doesn't take away from the fact he hasn't let go of your hand." This time Sam's smile lasted longer.' This is what it feels to come home I believe, simply wonderful!
Author's Response: Thanks Sabine. I love what you said: this is what it feels like to come home. You are absolutely right! :)
Reviewer: Nachuma (Signed) · Date: 14/08/10 09:16 PM · On: Chapter 3
OK, you've got me hooked...now I can't wait to see where this is going. Keep up the good work! Nancy
Author's Response: Whoa! I feel special because I wasn't expecting a review! :) Thanks Nancy!
Reviewer: supernaturalfan (Signed) · Date: 14/08/10 08:23 AM · On: Chapter 3
WOW... you packed alot of emotion into this one short chapter. You brought tears to my eyes.
Then his brother's arms were around him and Dean buried his face against Sam's neck, breathing in the familiar smell of this little brother, weeping uncontrollably and once again, he was whole. That one sentence neatly wraps up Dean's feelings.
"Sam, he's pissed, hurt and confused but it doesn't take away from the fact that he hasn't let go of your hand."
This time Sam's smile lasted longer.
Sam knows Dean's angry and he's not done letting Sam know, but he's happy to be back with Dean, too. I'm thinking fallout next chapter..can't believe I have to wait a week. Talk to you soon.
Take care,
Jane
Author's Response: I was actually afraid the sentence about Dean being whole might be a bit much....too chick flicky perhaps, but after I wrote it, I couldn't change it because it's true. Chick flicky or not. :) And yep, fallout is on the way! Thanks Jane and see you Thursday!
Reviewer: Maureen Nesbitt (Signed) · Date: 13/08/10 06:34 PM · On: Chapter 3
How on earth did Sam think that letting Dean believe he was dead and down in the pit with Lucifer was a good thing?? Sometimes that boy has no brains and he's supposed to be the smart one. How will Dean take it when he's well enough to hear the whole story, about how long Sam has been walking around fit and well? More soon Please, can't wait.
Author's Response: I know what you mean. Sometimes I just want to smack them both upside the head! If they'd just talk to each other.....men! Thanks for the review and the stars! Update will be Thursday! See you then!
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 13/08/10 11:51 AM · On: Chapter 3
Oh wow, definitely awesome. Dean back with Bobby and the old man knows what he was up too. And now Dean is in for the shock of a lifetime. Sam is back, thinner, longer hair and haunted eyes, but still all Sammy. Wow, can understand that Dean is pissed and hurt and wow, just overwhelmed and can't let go of Sam's hand, even in sleep. Wonder how bad it was for Sam, poor kid obviously doesn't quite know how to smile anymore. Great chapter. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: Thanks Vonnie! Bobby knows those boys pretty well by now, which is a good thing. Dean is definitely pissed but right now he's just glad to have his brother back. I don't think it's all sunk in yet. And you'll find out more about how bad it was for Sam soon!
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 13/08/10 11:41 AM · On: Chapter 2
Wow, Dean really is getting serious and now he has to fight demons, because they want the rings. Wonder what else it opens? I hope it's Castiel that brought Bobby and he can save Dean. Gotta read on now. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: Dean meant business when he went to that cemetery so I guess we should be thankful those demons showed up! Thanks for the pretty stars Vonnie!
Reviewer: dixie (Signed) · Date: 12/08/10 09:41 PM · On: Chapter 3
Excellent story! Very well written and I'm looking forward to more. I can honestly say, I hope what airs on September 24 is this good. I truly mean that!
Author's Response: Thank you very much! I'm very flattered but I'm sure whatever airs on September 24 will be better than anything I can come up with. :) I just wish September would hurry up and get here!!
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 12/08/10 09:29 PM · On: Chapter 3
Dean's going to want an explanation when he finally gets back on his feet....or at least can stay awake for more than ten minutes....*grins*... Wonder how he's going to take it - and whether he'll take a swing at Sam just for good measure. Poor Bobby.... That was heartbreaking how he thought he was dreaming and didn't want to wake up - but it was actually Sam there, soothing him while he slept. And then waking and reacting to Bobby's little slip - "You back with us?". But then to spring Sam in the kitchen getting a drink of water, and finding out his brother was really back from the cage - no wonder Dean wouldn't let go of Sam's hand - and no wonder he came out swinging. I'm sort of caught between the two - not just with your story, Sonya, but with canon as well (well, what's been revealed so far and hunted down by you and Sabine - LOL). I can understand Sam turning away from the house, not wanting to ruin Dean's chance at the normal life that he secretly craved - then not so secretly yearned for in the dark days of the apocalypse. But I can also see how angry and hurt that Dean would be over being kept in the dark, spending heaven knows how much time trying to build that normal life while assuming his brother was in the worst kind of hell that could ever be conceived. Winchesters never do things the easy way, do they? Geez, I forgot it was Thursday....well, Friday down here now - I forgot to poke you - LOL. Jules
Author's Response: Tee Hee....I got poked by someone else this week so never fear! You are totally right about Winchesters never doing things the easy way! Their freaking problem is thinking they know what is best for the other while not bothering to talk things out and see what the other one really thinks/wants. You just can't assume you know what's best for someone. The longer I am a parent, the more I learn about that. And I'm caught between the two also, Jules, and the thing is, I understand both sides. I understand why Dean would miss his brother so much and be totally pissed if he hadn't been told Sam was okay but on the other hand I understand Sam wanting Dean to have that normal life he's always hinted at wanting. He knows Dean has always sacrificed everything for him. He feels like this is the least he can do for Dean. I just want to knock their heads together and make them sit down and talk! Sometimes being able to symapthize with both sides makes it easy to write and sometimes it makes it really hard. When Swan Song first aired I read comments from people wondering if it was really Sam outside the window and would he let Dean know he was back and I just knew the answer was no. And then after all the negative comments I wondered if I should even write this story but you know how it is once it starts nagging at you and this chapter was actually the one that came to mind first. The rest of the story evolved from here and most of the feedback I've had has been very positive. I will have to say that it makes me squee when the spoilers line up with what I have written. I had eight chapters written and the entire story mapped out before we ever started getting all those spoilers from Comic Con! Thanks for the review Jules. This turned into a rather long reply, didn't it? We can always pick it up in email if we need to. :)
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed) · Date: 08/08/10 09:10 AM · On: Chapter 2
They came in time, right? Cause I don't think I could handle it if it was too late and I also hope so much it's Sam behind Bobby. He's the one Dean needs, so things can finally fall back into place! Heartbreaking moments when Dean after making his decision (and you killed me with this line, "But he'd never promised he couldn't try to join his brother") sat in the Impala listening to the pings of the cooling engine, like saying goodbye to each other. Wonder what the rings can open besides Lucifer's cage, it's big and nothing good for sure. Amazing chapter, thank you so much!
Author's Response: Rest easy Sabine. One thing I would never do is kill the boys. :) Most everyone seems to like the bit with the Impala. I actually teared up when I wrote that part. Thanks so much for the review and I promise on Thursday you'll know who is with Bobby. :)
Reviewer: supernaturalfan (Signed) · Date: 06/08/10 02:16 PM · On: Chapter 2
What else could the rings open? I'm intrigued..and you are officially the queen of cliffhangers. LOL
I never doubted that Dean would lose his hunter instincts..no matter how much time has passed. Glad you feel the same..and who is that familiar shape behind Bobby? I'm torn between Sam or Cas...can't wait till next Thursday to find out. Talk to you soon.
Take care,
Jane
Author's Response: Queen of cliffhangers? I can live with that. :) I was thinking when I posted this that you and Sarah were going to kill me because you still don't know if the familiar figure is Sam or not. I promise you'll find out who it is on Thursday! :) I think it's going to be really weird to see Dean as a civilian but I hope the show lets us see some of it. I think it would be hard to adjust. Thanks for reading and reviewing Jane!
Reviewer: BritLit (Signed) · Date: 06/08/10 03:53 AM · On: Prologue
I do not review much.....generally it's only established authors such as the award winning bjxmas---I know you know her...right? Anyway---I'm a former Lit teacher and now prof and I LOVE to see good writing...this it it! Well done..and do give us more!
Author's Response: Wow! I'm really flattered. Thanks! And yes, I do know who bjxmas is...or I should say I know her work. I've read and reviewed some. I just haven't been able to read much of anything lately and it's killing me! Thanks again for the review!
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 05/08/10 09:39 PM · On: Chapter 2
Hmm...the plot thickens, as they say. So, is the familiar figure Sam, or Cas, standing behind Bobby? I'm sort of hovering mid-way between the two, but possibly slightly more towards Cas, since how else could Bobby have gotten to the cemetery in such a short time? And what else can be opened by the Horsemens' rings? Intriguing.... And now Dean's hurt - hopefully Bobby really has got him and it's not as bad as Dean seems to think it is. Roll on Thursday.... Jules
Author's Response: Hi Jules, So, I promise you'll know who the familiar character is after the next chapter. :) I will tell you this though about Bobby getting to Lawrence in a short time? Sioux Falls is closer to Lawrence than Cicero is so if Lisa had called Bobby immediately after Dean left, Bobby would have gotten there first but since Ben caused a delay in her calling Bobby by being upset, Dean got there just a little before Bobby....just in time to get in trouble with those demons! Whew! I gave myself a headache when I did the research for that one! I've still got to get around to reading your new one Jules. I promise I will as soon as I can! I'm not ignoring you! :)
Reviewer: supernaturalfan (Signed) · Date: 31/07/10 05:00 PM · On: Chapter 1
O.k. I'm thinking Dean is going back to Stull Cemetary. I hope it's just to try and bring Sam back..not anything else. It better not be anything else!!
I'm also thinking Bobby called Sam. Can't wait to find out. I hope the boys get back together next chapter because poor Dean really needs Sam...can't wait to find out.
It's a good thing I go back to work next week. At least I have something to keep me busy till Thursday. LOL
Take care friend,
Jane
Author's Response: What if it is something else? :) How's that for a teaser? I thought you were probably going back to work soon. All our schools around here are gearing back up. See you Thursday (well, if not before then in SH).
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