Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed) · Date: 28/07/10 02:26 PM · On: Chapter 1
Marvelous story! Sam revealing that he'd been cleaning his gun earlier was shocking yet unifying. It was knowing the burden each would place on his brother that kept him from executing his act. Sad that it's more burden that saves them but at least they have a new understanding of one another. He'd been old, seen too much, been tired before his voice had changed. So expressive. Dean's led a long, hard life. Although we all know that, it took you breaking it down into the daily grind and stress for me to actually see how battered he is. It had finally gottento the point where the fight was more than his heart could handle. That was a very insightful comment. It is your heart that keeps you going when you really want to give up. Finally, it's just too much effort to fight, too exhausting even to think. Ending the pain, giving yourself rest is all you want--- nothing beyond that release. We see that in Dean. Mmmm! Fried pie a la mode. Yum! Yum!
Author's Response: Oh thank you so much! This was one of those stories that just poured out of me, both brother's spoke to me so clearly! I honestly feel Dean is older than his years and my heart does ache for him--for both of them *sends fried pie* huge hug
Reviewer: Oceane (Signed) · Date: 23/07/10 06:19 PM · On: Chapter 1
That was powerful and so poignant. So well written I felt Dean's despair, Sam didn't panic and knew how to handle Dean. I so love their brotherly bond. Beautifully done Muffy.
Author's Response: Oh thank you so much! It always comes down to the two of them against the world, doesn't it? *huge hug*
Reviewer: supernaturalfan (Signed) · Date: 23/07/10 12:03 PM · On: Chapter 1
Very dark Muffy..and so sad. It's true these boys keep each other human. I'm glad they have each other and I'm glad your back. Look forward to reading more chapters to your other stories...keep writing and I'll keep reading. Take care, Jane
Author's Response: Thank you so much hon! They do keep each other (and me) human! I am back and madly working to catch up! *huge hug*
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 22/07/10 04:54 PM · On: Chapter 1
This was sad and yet it wasn't. The way Dean thought about this was so matter of fact and yet so desperate. I don't know if I make any sense here, but that's how I felt. He just couldn't do it anymore and yet he didn't act impulsively, rather he remembered and thought about Sam and everything. And then Sam showed up and they talked about it without talking about it and they understood each other. Brothers and more, bonded to know one another so well. It was funny to hear them talking about pie and salad, showing how different they are and yet they both meant the same and knew it. Happy anniversary. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: Thank you so much hon! I know what you mean about Sad and not. Dean was difficult to write in this one, but you are so right, they are brothers and friends, knowing each other so well! *huge hug*
Reviewer: Micaiah (Signed) · Date: 20/07/10 07:52 PM · On: Chapter 1
Aw, Muffy, that was awesome! I'd say these boys have had their fair share of dark thoughts with all the things they've been through but obviously they have kept each other going....with the help of pie. Pie always makes everything better! Loved the bitch/jerk moment. It's been way too long since we've had that. Hugs, Sonya
Author's Response: Oh thank you so much. Pie does make everything better doesn't it. And having a Sam or Dean in your life! *huge hug*
Reviewer: Primrose (Signed) · Date: 20/07/10 05:07 AM · On: Chapter 1
I really like Sam's very gentle way of handling the situation here. It's exactly NOT how I would have handled it. I think his method was much more effective. I'm so sorry that you have struggled. Keep walking in the light, hon. This fangirl's on your side. :)
Author's Response: Thank you so much! Sam was so gentle as I wrote him, he lead the way, Thank you so much for your support, without all you, I would have been in a worse place than Dean! *huge hug8
Reviewer: Come2Me (Signed) · Date: 19/07/10 09:18 AM · On: Chapter 1
Amazing. I absolutely love this. I... I... There are no words. This is FANTASTIC. Just how it would go, and the PIE. *flails* Wow.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I have wanted pie since I wrote this. *sigh* *huge huge huge hug*
Reviewer: Amberdreams (Signed) · Date: 19/07/10 07:53 AM · On: Chapter 1
Funny, I can see Dean doing this now, but not back then...not even right after their Dad died, or even when he kept talking about how tired he was and you could see all the pain mounting up. The only time I could have seen him trying to commit suicide otherwise was when it was already too late and Michael would have just brought him back. Still, you write a great angsty one shot, as always, so I can suspend my disbelief!
Author's Response: I am not sure why you assumed it was that early in their history. I purposefully left it nebulous. Since he more than indicated to Sam that he was willing to just die there (albeit with Sam) I think he was considering it even then. I appreciate you reading, though.
Reviewer: Soennelchen (Signed) · Date: 19/07/10 06:20 AM · On: Chapter 1
Holy crap, Muffy... so many thoughts go through my mind now. Well first, happy anniversary. It's good to see you back, we missed you! Welcome back to "the sunshine" :) This was a really intense piece. I think you captured Dean's emotions and pain really well. But would he actually do it? I am inclined to doubt it, at least I hope so. I like were you took the story, having Sam come in. Hope to see more of your work from now on again! :)
Author's Response: Oh thank you so much hon! *huge hug* I am not sure Dean would actually go through with it, there is still a moment between the tightening of the finger that allows a change of mind and I think he would stop. I hope. And I hope to start posting more again, my writing is climbing out of hell with me and I think I am ready to jump in again. *hugs you*
Reviewer: calUK (Signed) · Date: 19/07/10 03:38 AM · On: Chapter 1
Hey, good to see you back! Amazing imagery in this - so vivid and 'clean' it really makes the awful state Dean's in stand out and feel real. Love the dichotomy of Dean's memories - learning gunmanship in a field full of butterflies, and camping with Sam while John's out hunting the new MotW; the contrast in each of them is almost surreal, makes them seem somehow dreamlike. And then Sam, coming to the rescue with deep-fried pie. (ick - though deep-fried pizza is an old favourite in Edinburgh!) The silent acknowledgment of what they've both been through giving them both strength, without ever actually coming out and saying it that's so very Winchester! Hope that sunlight keeps getting brighter hun! Cal
Author's Response: Oh thank you so much, hon! I hoped to catch that odd surreal state when someone reaches this point. Dean's head it so hard to get into! This is one of those odd stories I wrote from the end first. I had the "what are you doing" "cleaning my gun" in my heard for a long time but only that tiny bit of the conversation.The sunlight is getting brighter, slowly but surely Hugest of hugs, my friend
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed) · Date: 19/07/10 12:17 AM · On: Chapter 1
Geez girl! You got me tearing up! Dean's reminiscing was beautifully bittersweet. Then I loved how you referred to Sam and Dean having previously talked about this subject. But that they had, in the classic Winchester way, talked about "running away" instead .....as they tried to open up about such a painful and desperate subject. That is just like the boys. Then, the way Sam found Dean, saw the note, the gun dropped....and all along, Sammy just talked about pie. So perfect. That's what got me misty! It's all the pie's fault!
Author's Response: It is all the pies fault. I know! Pie is cruel, it *sniff* stupid pie. (LOL I just got this hysterical picture in my head, Dean getting that sad look and Sam getting concerned and Dean saying something about pie LOL LOL) Joking aside, that you so much! It was hard to get the courage to post this! *HUGE HUGE HUGE HUG*
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