Reviewer: mizpah (Signed)
30/05/10 02:53 AM · On:
Oh, Dean......*reaches for tissues*....
Those memories were manipulated - no way would that painful night Sam left for Stanford be anywhere near his idea of heaven. We all know Sam's version of heaven would definitely include Jess, and she was nowhere to be found up there while the boys were trying to get to Joshua.
But Dean's too far gone into a hopeless depression to see the situation for what it was - and now he's made the decision he's fought against for almost a year.
If only he could have gotten that moment, he would have heard a very different story to the one playing out in his head - that his little brother does love him, and does need him.
And it could have changed his mind....
Powerful stuff, hun.
Thanks Jules. Yes, I believe Dean was just too far gone to think clearly otherwise he would have seen what we all seen. No way would Sam's version of heaven not include him or Jess.
Reviewer: GreyCat (Signed)
30/04/10 12:42 PM · On:
Yap! You made me cry again! But who cares? I loved it!
(you know I thinks there's a spn vid in youtube with that music!)
Yay for making you cry again! :) Glad you liked it!
Ooh, must look for youtube video! I love Breaking Benjamin and I'm always on the lookout for good videos to their songs. If you happen to find it could you email me the link? Thanks!
Reviewer: ziggy (Signed)
16/04/10 11:05 AM · On:
Can so imagine Dean actually thinking those thoughts and Zachariah must be rubbing his hands in glee as his plan seems to be working fine, Dean is so screwed up and tired and wants it just to be over. Loved how you had him reaching for his amulet (and so hope that Sam did pick it out of the rubbish bin to give back to Dean someday). He is wrong about Sam though, Sam needs and wants Dean by his side and not just to fight the Apocalypse, he just can't see it as he's at his lowest.
Great tag Sonya.
Thanks Sarah and I totally agree that Dean is wrong about Sam. I have to believe that Sam picked the amulet out of the trash. I just can't imagine he would have left it there.
Now to the real issue: have you seen the 100th episode yet? :) :)
Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed)
14/04/10 06:14 AM · On:
So beautiful! OMG! You described what I though Dean must be feeling perfectly! And we all knew that Dean was going to have to say yes to Michael this season, it was just a matter of when not if.
I especially love when Dean reaches for the amulet. When he threw it away I was screaming at the TV, 'don't do it you fool! It's not about God, it's about you and Sam."
The one last stop nearly broke my heart. I hope next season we get to see Dean find a little bit of happiness with Ben and his mom.
I think every Supernatural fan on the face of the earth was screaming at their TV the night Dean threw the amulet in the trash. What a heartbreaker.
I really think Sam is going to find a way to save his brother. I still have hope.
Thanks so much for the review! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed)
13/04/10 07:18 PM · On:
Sonya, you rock! That's a perfect tag. It reviews so many of the feelings Dean has, like abandonment, hurt, bitterness, and then resolution. Everything he has relied on is gone. He feels that even his brotherly love is unreciprocated. You captured all those so well. Great job!
And I heard that song on the way home today, and tried to catch all the lyrics, because it sounded like it would make a great SN vid!! It's the IOL Hive mind! LOL
Aw, thanks Terri! I had a really hard time getting into Dean's head and am still not sure I did it justice but thanks for thinking so!
You know I love Breaking Benjamin. My daughter says it's my emo music. :) I think every one of their songs on Dear Agony could somehow be a SPN video/story.
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed)
13/04/10 05:14 PM · On:
I still want to scream,'Darn it Dean, you've got it all wrong', but I know it won't help. Poor boy is so screwed up, he believes exactly what the angels want him to belief. Loved your perspective that he is hoping, when everything is over, he will be at peace with Sam. Hugs, Vonnie
Dean is just in a very bad place and after all he's been through, I don't blame him at all. I'm hoping Sam will be able to get through to him before it's too late.
Thanks for the review Vonnie!
Reviewer: moira4eku (Signed)
13/04/10 03:41 PM · On:
I dearly hope that somehow Dean does not say "yes" to Michael. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that Sam and Dean's broken relationship can be prepaired. You did a great job of showing how Dean feels after the last two episodes, his hopelessness is really shining through. I hope to see more of this fic.
Author's Response: Thanks so much for the review! I really think somehow Sam is going to keep Dean from saying yes. I'm not sure how it will all play out but I still believe in Team Free Will.
Reviewer: Maureen Nesbitt (Signed)
13/04/10 11:28 AM · On:
OMG, that was so sad, Dean can't really be going to say Yes? Where is he going? Can't someone stop him? And the biggest question of all is there going to be more to this fic. I hope so, it's not finished. Thanks..
Thanks for the review but I'm afraid this particular fic is finished. At least my part of it is. I only filled in the missing scene with what I thought could have happened. As far as where he's going, he's going to see Lisa and then he's going to find the angels. Have you seen this episode yet?
And yes, I think someone can stop him and I think it will be Sam.
Reviewer: usaexpat (Signed)
13/04/10 11:25 AM · On:
really enjoyed this story...my favorite lines are this "Dean couldn't even snag a guest role in Sam's version of heaven. How the hell was that supposed to make him feel?"" very very true...good job
Author's Response: Thanks so much for the review! I think Dean not being in Sam's heaven was really his breaking point. But I don't necessarily think they were reliving their happiest moments in heaven I think is was more about what they've always wanted. Sam always wanted normal, Dean always wanted family so they saw the things that reminded them of this. But that's only my opinion. :) Thanks again!