Reviewer: zebaniee (Signed)
22/01/11 10:24 PM · On:
Such a short paragraph covered it all. Well done, well written and it made me sad.
Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed)
15/04/10 06:34 PM · On:
Sam's clips of heaven excluding Dean had to have hit him like a punch. He's sacrificed so much to keep his family together. He doesn't understand its because he's given Sam that stable foundation that he was able to live a normal life which meant becoming his own person and leaving the nest.
"My jaw's clenched so tightly that my teeth are aching, but I keep it that way. Because if I don't, I might end up screaming." That's exactly how I imagined Dean feeling---lost, helpless, angry.
Admitting that he'd believed in god wasn't much of a surprise. I think he wanted to believe all along that his mom was right and angels were watching over him. And I think that he felt over his head in the apocalypse and needed to believe that there was someone more powerful who cared and could put an end to all the torment. i think he wanted to believe in God so the fate of the world didn't really rest on his shoulders because that's too heavy a burden. I think that deep down, his lack of self-worth keeps him from believing he's capable of such a feat.
"I hadn't been dead inside. Not then. But I am now." Aughhhh! That killed me. It's so desperately sad.
Author's Response: Thank you. It certainly has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions lately, huh? I'm glad you enjoyed the read.
Reviewer: Primrose (Signed)
05/04/10 11:02 PM · On:
WAAH!!!! The last line just clinches it. Fabulous. *goes off to cry now*
Author's Response: I'm still emotionally wrecked over this episode. Thanks for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: Micaiah (Signed)
05/04/10 09:50 PM · On:
Ah, poor Dean. He really is at the end of his rope this time. I only hope Sam will step up to the plate and be there for Dean the way Dean has always been there for him.
Congrats on the ribbon!
Author's Response: Thank you very much. I'm glad you liked it.
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed)
05/04/10 03:43 AM · On:
Yeah. I get that this is how he's feelin. And even get that he had his reasons for lettin go of the amulet. And maybe he even did it to symbolize that he lets his bro go, let him have his freedom (which actually could be good for each of em... coz he frees himself of his unfair burden as the big bro lookin out for baby bro all the time putting himself last all the time).
Still, I feel as dead as he does. That thunk just shattered my heart into a million pieces and I just fear there will be more crushing things coming up... I am not sure I can bear to watch these. Well, I guess we'll have to see if Sam finds a way to make Dean better. It's his turn to look out for him now.
And dude... the line about Sam's heaven being Dean's worst hell made me think about Dean's stint in hell and wonder if the demons tortured him like this too. That was hard to watch either and you put in words what I was feeling then...
Thanks so much... *sniff sniff* these boys break my heart. *sigh*
PS: congrats on the double-feature again!
Author's Response: I totally get how Dean was feeling and why he was feeling that way. Still I was a little mad at him. Now I just feel anguish for both boys. Like you, I don't know how I'm going to watch the coming episodes. Anyway, thanks for reading and reviewing. It's much appreciated.
Reviewer: Silvertayl (Signed)
04/04/10 05:19 PM · On:
Oh Vanessa you're breaking my heart. Thank you... I think?
I'm sorry for breaking your heart. But thank you kindly for reading.
Reviewer: GreyCat (Signed)
04/04/10 11:59 AM · On:
You captured it so well that I'm felling Deans pain myself, almost like a palpable thing! And I so understand that know he feels dead inside, Famine might started but God words finish it. Poor Dean, hope he will find strength to keep fighting!
Wow. Thank you so much. That is a great compliment.
Reviewer: dixie (Signed)
03/04/10 08:54 PM · On:
Great tag - short, but oh so perfect!
Author's Response: Thank you. I'm glad you liked it.
Reviewer: Tree66 (Signed)
03/04/10 04:33 PM · On:
OUCH! Wow- have to admit I hadnt thught about that last couple of sentences that way... he probably wasnt dead inside when Famine said it... but after God kicking him in the head and then this... thinking that his brother's happiest times were without him... he's definately at an all-time low... yep... he might be dead inside now..
Loved the first tag... love this one even more... totally captures Dean's state of mind!
Great job Vanessa!
Wow, you made this a featured story! Thank you so much!
I admit that I was (am) mad at Dean for throwing the amulet away but yet I can so totally see why he did it. When people think they've reached the point where they have nothing left, they can do stupid things. Things like throwing away a treasured item because it suddenly has become to painful to even look at it. I think that's where Dean is at. Eventually the person comes to regret being so hasty and rash, which is what I hope happens to Dean (and that Sam did think to pick up the amulet).
So glad you liked it. Thanks again for the featured status.