Reviewer: dragonfly11 (Signed)
05/01/11 07:23 PM · On:
Really enjoyed this! Thanks!
Well, hullo! Haven't seen you around lately - does this mean...dare I hope....that we'll be getting an update on Goodnight Moon in the very near future? *pleading puppy eyes*...I love that story. Even though I was slack and forgot to leave a review on chapter 11, I hoovered it up like there was no tomorrow. Can't wait to see what John's going to do. Has he come back to be the sacrifice??
Thanks so much for poking your head in the door of my rather off-beat world. I'm really glad you enjoyed the story. The ending's very much AU now - dang Kripke! But it was still a fun walk for me to research through the seasons, and all the times Sam had left and come back to the one person he truly feels at home with - and who represents home to him.
Thanks again for reading! I'll be haunting the Just Added page now, you know - lol!
Reviewer: calUK (Signed)
26/07/10 04:57 PM · On:
Oh wow, now how did I miss this? That last one packs such a punch! And your voices - always so spot on - pick up the changes in the characters throughout the series.
Well, hullo, Carolyn! How have you been?
Oh, thank you so much for that - I'm chuffed. You know, it's really interesting taking a walk through the seasons and seeing the changes in both boys. What I usually do is watch the episodes around that time or event, or go through my screencap collection for the episode, just to refresh my memory as to what mindset they were in, etc.
Because they've both changed so much since the almost carefree days of the pilot and season 1.
That reminds me...I owe you a review for that wonderful one-shot you posted up a while ago where Dean's carrying Sam through a myriad of landscapes, and he has to get to the end without putting him down. That was brilliant - unfortunately I was in a lurker phase at the time I read it - a quick hit-and-run. But I loved the story, and have been meaning to come back and print it out. You really do the tension so well.
Reviewer: Deanwinchesterfan1985 (Signed)
26/04/10 09:39 PM · On:
Loved this story, Jules. It is so fitting that home for Sam is wherever Dean is. It suits them perfectly as they don't really have a real home besides the impala and the occasional stay at Bobby's. So for Sam to always be searching out that one constant that he's always considered vital in his life, that one slice of himself that he'll never be able to nor want to get rid of is the part that contains his brother and that's where he's safest.
I'll catch up on your other stories hopefully later this week. But I look forward to them.
And it is, exactly. Home for Sam means Dean. Even when he's got a bee in his bonnet about something, he still returns to Dean as the one constant in his topsy-turvy life.
And no, I don't think he would ever want to get rid of that slice of himself - he loves his big brother too much, and we saw just how devastated he was by Dean's loss. Those screams will haunt me for a long time....
Thanks hun, so glad you enjoyed it.
Reviewer: gidgetgal9 (Signed)
26/04/10 05:13 PM · On:
So my bad day (ie being stuck at the doctors office with a sick kiddo for an hour) was definitely made better because I had this story as company! It was so very awesome and I was able to lose myself in it as I waited. Thanks for that! :) Gidget
Oh, no! Hope kiddo is feeling better, Claudia. Nothing worse when you're feeling rotten - adult or child - than a full waiting room.
Thank you so much - I'm really pleased I could make a boring wait bearable for you.
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed)
08/03/10 12:41 PM · On:
Wow number 48,Oooh i loved this story, i loved all of the scenes from the pilot to the amazing ending. looking forward to the next story,and i'm really looking forward to your special number 50 fic.
Yep, 48 - it doesn't sound that much if you say it really quickly - LOL.
So pleased you loved it. I think that makes - what - four season arcs that I've done all up? Think it's four....or three....but they're interesting walks through the last few years, seeing how the boys have changed.
Oh, number 50 - well, it will be something special. It was actually intended to be my three-year anniversary fic, but I couldn't get it written in time - I clocked up three years as a fanfic writer in December on SN.tv and in January here, so missed that by a couple of months. Then when I realised this story was number 48, I made the anniversary story number 50. Am working frantically to get it finished, and trying to figure out what to write for number 49 - lol.
Thanks so much for reading.
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed)
08/03/10 07:57 AM · On:
That was great!! The wonderful extra touches that you added to the Winchester's past fit in perfectly. My mind's eye could see them added into scenes that are so familiar to any fan....and they fit seamlessly. I'd love an ending scene like the one you've described. I think we all want our "boys" together, and we want a satifying closure to this whole storyline. Thanks for providing something for me to hang onto while we wait for it to all unfold off of this page, and on the little screen. If I find that one lacking, I'll come back and re-read your version to take comfort in it again, as I did today!
Thank you so much.
And yes, I want both boys standing - together - at the end, and Lucifer back in his box. Along with Zachariah and a few other arsehole angels to keep him company......
So glad you liked all the little missing scenes. They were fun to go trolling for - each individual little homecoming for Sam.
Thanks so much for reading, and for letting me know your thoughts.
Reviewer: Oceane (Signed)
07/03/10 09:20 PM · On:
Great to see you Jules. Wow!48 stories already, hoping for 48 more . Finding home, so a fitting title with Sam going through terrible events but always finding comfort, safety and love from his big brother Dean. Home is family. Beautifully done Jules.
Thank you, Lise.
Yes, forty-eight stories. Whew.....and some of them were loooooong ones. I'd hate to add up the word count and see what it is.
Thanks so much for that - even though some vignettes were tough, overall it was rather fun to write this piece. I love seeing how the brothers have changed over the five years we've travelled with them. Some changes have been hard, but they're finding their way back to each other now, so there is hope for their future.
Provided they can defeat Lucifer and smack Michael down.....
I'm really glad you enjoyed it, hun.
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed)
06/03/10 04:33 PM · On:
For me this number 48 will certainly always be a special one now. I love how you write that Sam finds his home in his brother, that they are home for each other. What more could you wish for in life than to truly belong somewhere, to find this place, this person and feel "that indescribable sense of home creeping into (your) very soul." Simply wonderful, thank you sooo much!
Thank you, Sabine,
I'd never considered an early missing scene from the pilot before, but that bit fit the storyline so well. And the rest, well - that all fell into place rather easily
I have always believed that Sam loves his brother just as fiercely as Dean loves him - it wasn't just the whiskey talking when he tried to get the crossroads demon to swap him for Dean in hell. And with them moving around all their lives, I think that Sam's sense of home would not be able to be tied to a place, but rather to a person. And that person will always be Dean.
Despite their differences, despite a wedge being driven between them, despite everything that's happened, I still think that Dean represents home for Sam, and always will. Brothers till the end.
Thanks, hun. So stoked that you loved this.
Reviewer: supernaturalfan (Signed)
06/03/10 09:21 AM · On:
Jules, this was perfect. Now that I have read the whole thing the ending just fits. I'm not sure how else to say it. I was wondering where you've been, but this story makes the wait worthwhile. I look forward to more. I have some ideas to email to you about our story idea. I'll send that soon. Who knows, maybe it will cause your muse to come home from vacation. It's just not fair that it left you behind. I'll talk to you soon friend. Take care.
Hope this means that you're on the mend, and your family as well. It was a pretty rough time for you all.
Where I've been....well, real life has not been playing nice for a long time. Work is very stressful - more than it should be, with company directors playing mind games and keeping everyone on edge, and it's pretty much driven my muse into almost permanent hiding. Writing is a struggle now, not something that I can happily immerse myself in for hours on end.
Anyway, hopefully there will be a breakthrough soon in that area, and the muse will come back.
I'm really pleased that you loved the whole piece. And I think it will make a nice companion piece to what you're planning. Looking forward to your email, hun.
Reviewer: ritsam (Signed)
06/03/10 12:43 AM · On:
Okay, that was intense. I am still stunned. They way you've portrayed Sam's feeling from Pilot to finale, is awesome. I have no word to describe. Great Job. Love it.
You've mentioned that you will do something special for fic 50. What about fic 49? When are you going to post it? I always look forward for your writings.
Waiting for the next piece.
Thank you so much. Sam's undergone some pretty major changes, hasn't he? But there has been one constant through all that - Dean as home.
So glad you enjoyed it.
Story 49? Um....it's not written yet. Working on it, though. Sort of.....well, the idea is in my head. I just need to get it out of there and down on paper.
Reviewer: Miriam (Signed)
05/03/10 10:28 PM · On:
Oh Thanks!!! Really good to find you here when I returned home after a long day at work. I loved this story, the time changes and place changes moved effortlessly through Sam's experience of home. From realisation, through need, acceptance and gratitude. This is a great story of Sam for the reader and therefore also of Dean. Hope your days ahead go well. Will be so pleased to celebrate though reading your number 49 and then happily lighting candles for number 50! Take care. Cheers and Blessing and Hugs too! Jo
Hey, Jo! Told you - LOL.
It was so funny - I'd just finished posting this last night when I got the email notification that you'd reviewed A Hundred Possibilities, so I replied to you straight away.
So stoked that you loved this. And yes, Sam has always had that sense of Dean as home, he just didn't realise it sometimes. But something always pulls him back, no matter how far he goes.
Ah, story 49...well....hmm...it's not written yet. But it will be, I promise. Story 50's halfway there. And it will be something different. Well, I hope so, anyway - lol
Reviewer: amethyst (Signed)
05/03/10 06:23 PM · On:
I know you're not "back" but feel free to keep popping in to visit with quality like that. Those added scenes would fit effortlessly in with the original scripts. Brilliant job. Can't wait for story number 50 ( or number 49 for that matter)
Nope, not back...*shakes head vehemently*....
LOL - thanks, Debbie. I'm stoked you enjoyed it.
Well, story number 50 is actually half finished. I have something special planned.
Story 49 is.....not. LOL. Oh, dear. But never fear, I'll come up with something.
Thanks again for coming along for the ride. I had fun picking the scenes and going right back to the pilot with the boys being awkward with each other at first before finding their own special rhythm.
Reviewer: Soennelchen (Signed)
05/03/10 03:27 PM · On:
Wonderful, absolutely wonderful. Simply just not much more to say. Except maybe: you did it again :)
Thank you so much for sharing this little jewel with us! See you again soon? I sure hope so! Hugs, Dagmar
Well, nothing's ready to post, but it's raining this weekend and the muse loves to come out and play when it's wet. So we'll see what the next couple of weeks brings.
Thank you - I'm so pleased that you enjoyed it so much. I like the multi-season ones - they're a bit of a challenge but also fun to do. All the changes....it's an interesting walk.
Take care, hun
Reviewer: Primrose (Signed)
05/03/10 01:58 PM · On:
It was fabulous, of course! Thank you so much for giving us that little moment where the boys help out Bobby! It's always annoyed me that they just ditched him while he was still in the hospital. I'm also glad that Bobby was healed up in the end. Of course, what I especially loved is the constant reminder that the boys are better together than they are separate.
I hope that you are able to get your muse under control soon! I've missed your stories!
Thank you, Julie.
Yes, it was a bit of a jump wasn't it, from Bobby being in hospital to him being home, and us left wondering how he was coping with being confined to one floor and all the rest of it.
And yes, the boys are so much better together, as a team like they were trained to be. They really are stronger together, not weaker.
Aw, thanks for that - the muse has been behaving herself today, but she's off on a bit of a break at the moment so I'm catching up on reviews until she gets back into the office - lol. Working on story 50....
Reviewer: GreyCat (Signed)
05/03/10 10:43 AM · On:
My treat of the day, an e-mail saying that were a new story by mizpah!
LOL, thank you, Dany.
I'm so pleased you loved it. Actually, it was originally one scene shorter. I added the Illinois reunion scene last week, which is why it didn't go up last Friday night.
When I looked at the story, I realised I had a hell of a huge jump from season 2 right over three and four into season 5. Partly because Sam didn't do a runner in either of those seasons. But then I remembered that he had been away from Dean during those two seasons, so the reunion scene just fell into place from there.
Thanks so much for reading.
Reviewer: ziggy (Signed)
05/03/10 10:15 AM · On:
Awesome fic sis. Loved how you showed how Dean is home to Sam and, although this fic is essentially from Sam's POV it is also true that Sam is home to Dean as both are only complete when they are together, apart there is always something missing and they need each other even though it is something they wouldn't really admit to.
You picked perfect scenes from episodes through the seasons to convey this, from the Pilot right through to what could (and I hope does) happen at the end of Season 5! And could so imagine Castiel sacrificing himself to destroy Lucifer, making up for the fact that he let Sam out of Bobby's panic room, enabling the younger Winchester to break the final seal and start the Apocalypse.
Just love how you write the bond between the boys, your words show how much they love and need each other without being chick-flicky and, as always, you have them so in character.
A really great fic, loved it. Sarah
Thank you sis.
Yes, Dean is home, and I wanted it basically from Sam's point of view to really emphasise that. And I agree - there is not one without the other.
I'm wondering about Cas too, just quietly. And we both know that I want both boys still standing at the end, and definitely not having said yes to either Lucifer or Michael.
Thank you for your help on this one, and your patience with my endless tweaking.
Reviewer: Midge (Signed)
05/03/10 09:20 AM · On:
What a treat - something new from you. I loved it.
I admit I was nervous about reading it since you gave a season 5 spoiler warning but there was no need for me to worry, just a need to enjoy.
I don't know how you decide which scenes to pick to carry an arc like this but they were perfect. I just loved that it was all from Sam's pov and that Dean is home to him. Doesn't matter how badly he's hurting whether it physical or pyshcological, Dean makes it better.
And you have brighten my afternoon up yet again. Thank you.
PS. If you're planning something extra special for no 50, you'd best drag muse back from that round the world/universe cruise!
Well, we're two peas in a pod, aren't we? I was nervous about posting and you were nervous about reading - LOL.
Hmm, how I decide scenes....well, for this one, because the title was Finding Home, I needed scenes that represented Sam's searching for or coming home. So I went for the times he'd been away from Dean for some reason, which was the pilot (Stanford), S1 Scarecrow (taking off to look for John), S2 Hunted (taking off to look for answers), S4 Lazarus Rising (the reunion after Dean's return from the dead), S5 The End (reuniting again after their separation) and speculating about the end to cement Sam's feelings of Dean being home.
So once I had the episodes, it was just a matter of fleshing out a scene that would reflect Sam's feelings and his journey back to his home. Sounds relatively easy, but it did take a couple of weeks to put it all together.
I usually have a very clear end of story idea, and I work steadily towards that end goal. In this case I had the words "He was home." actually typed at the end of the Word doc, so I knew exactly where I was headed. So I just built the whole story towards that end point, and showcased the journey to get there.
I found it helped me to either watch the episodes or look at the screencaps for each vignette as well, to make sure I got myself into their mindset at that particular time so I could get their dynamics right.
So that was the process. Hope that helps a little bit. It was pretty much the same for Restocking, too, when I wrote that. I wanted the first aid kit and the patching up to be the central running theme, so it was a case of picking eppies where one had been hurt, and allow not only the wounded one to be patched up, but the one doing the patching to get a bit of healing and comfort too. Hence the "restocking" in the title had a double meaning.
And yes, the muse better get her bum back here pronto. I'm having trouble with number 50, and number 49 hasn't even been finished yet.
Reviewer: penmin (Signed)
05/03/10 08:27 AM · On:
Its so nice to be reminded of various moments through the series so far, all the way from a younger bristly Sam, to a mentally and physically tortured, holding-out from saying yes Sam...(I too think it may come to that.) And always, the one thing that was there and comforting to him somehow, was the idea of Dean (and the Impala) as home.
Muses are pesky creatures, around when you've got nowhere to take notes (my memory is like a sieve so I never remember what ideas she comes up with!) and swanning off somewhere when you're sitting at a keyboard with time to spare, wondering why the words won't flow...
Even though you're not really here Jules, won't tell promise lol, its good to see you back.
The posting fairy really doesn't like me right now, third time iv'e tried to post this!
Hi, Jacq! Hope the snow is easing for you now. We're in autumn now, so you should be getting some warmer days as we move into our winter.
It has been a hell of a journey for both brothers, hasn't it? From the almost carefree days of season 1, getting back together and learning how to be brothers again after Sam's time at Stanford, through the horrors of demon plans and deals, right to the end and the final battle fought on their behalf by the angel they called friend.
And yes, the one constant was Dean - Sam's embodiment of home.
Oh, I know what you mean about taking notes. I usually have scenes playing out in my head while I drive, etc. And by the time I get home and fire up the computer, some of it has gone.
And no, not really here...figment of your imagination - ROFL.
take care, hun
Reviewer: usaexpat (Signed)
05/03/10 07:54 AM · On:
very surprised to see a story by you! great treat on this friday. Lovely short stories, weaving the sense of family, home and love together. great job, you had lots of great lines, but I really liked this one..simple to the point "Sam leaned into his big brother's touch, bruised lips curving into a faint smile. He was safe. He was loved." well done!
I was surprised too - LOL.
Thank you - I really wanted to show that for Sam, despite everything that's happened, Dean really does represent home to him. And it was fun doing another multi-season story.
So glad you loved the last lines. To me, Sam's been a bit of a wanderer, but he's always pulled back home, or finds his way back there.
Reviewer: Vanessa (Signed)
05/03/10 07:48 AM · On:
Another nice read. I love the moments of brotherly closeness.
Hope you're keeping well. Thank you so much for that. Coming from a master of brotherly moments like yourself, I treasure that compliment.
Thanks so much for coming on the journey with me. It was great to have you along. Oh, they were such babies in the pilot, weren't they? So young and innocent, given what was heading for them.
I'm hoping they'll be still standing - together - at the end.
Reviewer: Micaiah (Signed)
05/03/10 07:33 AM · On:
I wasn't expecting to see anything from you since you said your muse had up and left so I was surprised when I got my little email notification this morning.
This is lovely, as always. The reunion scene in Illinois was beautiful. Oddly enough, I haven't read any fics about that moment. You captured everything that Sam was feeling perfectly.
The Michigan scene was something I can see happening. I'm afraid of Cas sacrificing himself for the greater good and saving the boys. Beautiful moments between Sam and Dean.
You got me all teary eyed this morning but that's not always a bad thing. And that last line just says it all "He was home." Great job, Jules.
I've been hanging on to this one. It was finished about a week or so ago, but I wanted to do some final tweaking as there was a scene or two that I felt could be made better.
And the muse hasn't been playing nice at all lately. Writing's been a struggle, actually. I'm most annoyed and frustrated...
Hmm, wonder why no one's done that reunion scene. I know most peoples' dvd's of the hug scene have probably almost got a hole worn through them - lol.
Ah, glad you liked the last line. I was heading for that right through the whole story. I'm wondering about Cas too, especially after a reviewer emailed me....more perhaps on that later.
Thanks so much, Sonya - so glad you liked it.
Reviewer: Amberdreams (Signed)
05/03/10 07:12 AM · On:
Don't know what you were worried about, Jules! It was good to go this journey with Sam for a change, very bitter-sweet though it was. I especially liked the reconciliation scene after The End, with the realisation that the gesture was being made for a second time with the hammer after the knife...
And I wonder how it will all end for them....
Cold feet - I suffer from them constantly. No matter how many stories I've posted, I'm still a bundle of nerves when it comes time to hit that final button.
So chuffed that you enjoyed the journey. Oh, and I'm especially chuffed that you liked the reconciliation scene out of 5.04. That flinch of Sam's just about broke my heart when Dean pulled out the knife. It told me how uncertain Sam was about everything, including his brother's love, and I just ached for how shattered he'd become on the inside.
I'm hoping that the end will leave both still standing. But I'm a Pollyanna, so.....
Reviewer: cheria (Signed)
05/03/10 07:10 AM · On:
Loved every word!!! Great job!!!
Hullo! And thank you, both for coming along for the ride and for letting me know what you thought.
It's rather a fun journey going through the multi season arcs, seeing how much the boys have changed. Some of them weren't nice changes, but I'm holding on to hope and Kripke's promise that he will put them back together by the end of season 5, where they belong.
Thank you again, I'm so pleased you enjoyed the story.
Reviewer: pinkphoenix1985 (Signed)
05/03/10 06:32 AM · On:
I squeal embarassingly when I see that there's been an update from you LOL
This is WONDERFUL!!!! I love how you wrote Sam's journey from not wanting to hunt to not saying yes!
I love that your little something made me cry--while your bigger stories just put me into a sobbing coma! the angst!
And I can so see that end scene happening on the show! I hope that the writers take note LOL
I especially loved your mention of The End because I recently posted on the site my own AU of The End, called Reflections. It's just my own spin on things and a chance to hurt both boys *evil smirk*
If you get a chance and read it, I would love to hear what you think.
I hope that your weekend is great!
Oh, no, not a girly squee - LOL.
Thank you, hun. It was a little scary to be back, actually. Not that I'm back or anything...just saying....
I'm glad you could come on this journey with me. It was fun to do. Sorry I made you cry, but not really, because it was in a good way.
I will check out your Reflections some time this weekend - thanks, hun.
Weekend is wet, so I'm writing. Which is a great weekend - lol.