Reviewer: BritLit (Signed)
10/02/10 03:42 PM · On:
As always, BJ, you give us such an insightful, believable peek into Dean's mind....I agree with other reviewers that the poor boy must deal with all those stuffed away feelings very soon indeed!
I think you are just the one to write such a story---you are able to convey the deep emotions of this complex man so sensitively....how one does wish that Jensen might see your work as his acting is just as sensitive, is it not?
I sure hope the show lets Dean deal with his issues soon, because watching Jensen 'go there' would be marvelous. He is such an inspiring, intuitive and sensitive actor and he and his amazing ability to bring Dean to life are what inspire me to delve deeper into Dean's psyche and write these stories.
Thanks again for your support, it is greatly appreciated. Take care, B.J.
Reviewer: Primrose (Signed)
03/02/10 05:36 AM · On:
I'm really afraid of what will happen when Dean DOES really break. It's an interesting idea that he knew the doctor was a figment of his imagination even BEFORE the big reveal in the episode. Good job!
Yeah, once we knew the doc was hallucinated, looking back after their first encounter, the expression on Dean's face as he wandered the halls, how distracted he was when Sam called out to him, man, you do worry about his state of mind.
And I think it shows how close to the edge he is, just how easily he could lose it. Any other man would have cracked long ago and you wonder, just how much longer can Dean live under this constant, unrelenting pressure?
If Show goes there, Jensen will have a terrific acting opportunity and I'd like to see it just for that. Thanks for reading and reviewing. Later, B.J.
Reviewer: GreyCat (Signed)
02/02/10 11:10 AM · On:
Excellent job B.J.! Such a wonderful little journey inside Dean's mind!
I really think that Dean really needs to talk with someone, even if that someone is only a product of his imagination/hallucination, who knows? It just might help. (hey, I talk with myself plenty of times - no, I'm not crazy, yet!).
Hey, Dany! Yes, Dean most certainly needs to talk to someone. I wish he and Sam could talk to each other...maybe soon? They both have the weight of the world, quite literally, on their shoulders. They are strong men, but even Winchesters can use a helping hand at times.
I don't talk to myself much, but I do hear Winchester voices in my head while I'm writing. That doesn't make me crazy, does it?
Thanks for reading and reviewing. Later, B.J.
Reviewer: supernatfem76 (Signed)
01/02/10 01:30 PM · On:
I loved the verbal sparring between Dean and the psychiatrist. I think you really did a fantastic job writing how Dean feels about his life and starting the apocalypse.
Author's Response: Thanks! I love writing dialogue for Dean. He is such a rich, well-rounded character, capable of the smartass remarks in addition to all the pain he tries to hide. This was a challenge to try and get the mix right. Glad to hear you enjoyed it. Take care, B.J.
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed)
31/01/10 11:41 PM · On:
Ooooh! That was good! You played the back and forth between Dean and his "shrink" perfectly. Dean's defenses, and the doctor's prodding and encouraging words, and disbelief at his lifestyle all rang true. I really liked this one. Excellent job!
Thanks! I liked writing the doc and Dean, knowing that Dean needed to talk, hence he hallucinated the person most able to get him to talk, and yet he isn't going to go there easily. Dean will always fight the share and care, even though his subconscious knows he needs it.
I hope we see more of his struggles in the near future. I don't believe his standard response of burying his feelings will work this time. He is heading for a crash, unless he faces up to his issues. Take care, B.J.
Reviewer: Micaiah (Signed)
30/01/10 06:28 PM · On:
"But I'm not any man." Well, isn't that the truth? Dean Winchester is unlike any man there is. Unfortunately, he's lying to himself if he thinks he can just keep pushing all this down and he's never going to break. And he was wrong to tell Sam to do the same because Sam is definitely not wired the same as Dean. Sam needs to talk, he needs to try and fix things.
I enjoyed your journey into Dean's thoughts. I think they're pretty much spot on what Dean would be thinking. And I assume you think the same as me, that the doc was a hallucination all along, she was never real? I thought she looked a lot like Meg.
I originally thought the doc was real for their first encounter. That made sense to me, that later, when he hallucinated he would call upon her to be his sounding board. I later agreed that she was in his head the entire time. I think that just surprised me that he was that 'crazy' almost as soon as they got there. But I think it works to show how much he needs to talk with someone and just how close to the edge he truly is.
I too do not believe his approach of shoving it all down and not dealing with it will work for him or Sam. It might have worked in the past, but Dean has been denying his hurts for too long. Between Hell and the pressure to stop Lucifer, he is near the breaking point.
And I do believe that once he cracks, once he faces up to his personal demons he will come out stronger. Both he and Sam. And it will probably be the only way they will be able to fight this fight.
At one point I wondered (as I'm sure Dean flashed on) whether the shrink was Meg, come to torment him. I liked how it played out, but of course, I wanted more...hence my story.
I'm so glad you enjoyed it, thanks for reading and reviewing. - B.J.
Reviewer: Tree66 (Signed)
30/01/10 06:26 PM · On:
BJ - I'm not even surprised that you could take us on such a beautifully ( and yet sadly touching) scripted journey through Dean's head... - You are my favorite writer when it comes to delving inside and then transferring the psychological underpinnings of that man's tragic past and how it has shaped him. - Imagine the worst thing possible, then magnify it by a thousand and you wouldn't even be close - No one could possibly imagine the things this man had seen/done/experienced - much less the penultimate of going to Hell...
I will admit that I was one of the folks that DIDNT 'catch' at first- how the female psych doc was nothing more than a figment of Dean's mind until the very end- and even then- I thought she was a demon or the stupid wraith for a few extra minutes... (stupid me!)...
So this tag- (in addition to me rewatching the eppy and paying better attention) just so wonderfully helps put everything together...
I can only imagine the internal dialogue Dean probably has with himself- when the room is quiet- or he's all alone- or even he thinks Sam isnt paying attention... and I can only imagine that much of what you've written has come up a few of those time!
As always- wonderously written!
Tree, thank you! Your review was beautiful and your words too kind. I love digging around in Dean's head, and with the inspiration of Jensen's amazing turn as Dean, I find it almost easy. He brings Dean to such vivid life, I simply try to get out of the way and let the man talk.
I actually argued at first that the lady shrink was real for their first encounter, but on multiple viewings I too decided that she was in his head the entire time. We just never realized how unstable he was from the start, hallucinating almost immediately. But I think that does speak to how much he needs to talk to someone, even though he does protest too much.
I think quiet nights would always plague Dean, but especially now. The busier he is, the less time he has to reflect on all that is wrong with his life and just how impossible it will be to defeat Lucifer.
Thanks again, B.J.
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed)
30/01/10 04:40 PM · On:
The back and forth, incessant digging into Dean's psyche, the walls slowly but steadily being eroded under the barrage of pointed questions - really, really well done.
We all know Dean's a mess under that tough hunter exterior, and we heard Sam voice what is going on inside him that worries him so much, but it was one heck of a journey to actually walk through Dean's buried thoughts and feelings with his inner voice as tour guide.
And I have a feeling that Dean's advice to bury it deep and get on with the job at the end of the episode is going to come back and bite them on the bum somewhere down the track.....
Question, though - what is "thraped"? I haven't heard that term before - not surprising, since I usually stay the hell away from things like acronyms, modern terms and political correctness......*shudders*....those things give me the heebie-jeebies. When I watched the eppy, I thought Dean had said he'd been raped, and I almost shot off my chair. Cookie6 thought he'd said mind-raped, which made more sense than raped. That part of the dialogue wasn't exactly clear on playback.
And that was a fairly ominous, but accurate, prediction at the end - sooner or later their walls will crack, and hopefully they will survive the fallout.
Great job, BJ - lovely to see you back on the boards again. Thank you so much for sharing this. Painstakingly well-crafted as always.
Thanks, Jules! You always give such lovely, thought out reviews, much appreciated. I had to close-caption my TV and it said 'thraped', I took it to be Dean's disgust at being subjected to 'therapy' and his way of combining it with rape to imply he was forced into the mind-shrink stuff he so hates.
I do believe that his way of dealing with things, shoving them down and ignoring them will come back to bite them in the ass. That only works for so long, but I believe both he and Sam are made of sturdy stuff and will come out stronger in the end once they face up to their issues.
Dean is a fascinating subject to dig through his psyche. Originally, I had more snark and his normal cocky defenses, but on rewatching the episode, it struck me how very serious he was through most of the exchanges with his shrink. Dean really is more subdued now, more introspective even though he refuses to allow himself the comfort of sharing his pain.
And no one but Jensen could convey so much in those scenes. We are so lucky to have this show and the Js playing these intriguing characters. It certainly gives us plenty of opportunities to explore their lives in our stories, right?
Thanks again and take care, B.J.
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed)
30/01/10 03:00 PM · On:
This was excellent, very sad, poor Dean, his head's not a nice place to be.
Author's Response: Thanks! Yes, his entire life isn't something you'd wish on your worst enemy, and yet, Dean survives. I do think he will eventually have to face his fears head on, or they will destroy him. Man, between Michael and his own issues, he is so screwed. Thanks for reading and reviewing, B.J.