Reviewer: cappy712 (Signed)
31/07/12 02:03 PM · On:
That was some story, I loved the format and I loved how Groundhog day / Mystery Spot this was. Thank you for sharing.
Thanks for that. I've always considered myself a Deangirl...well, Dean-woman...but when he hit Sam with that buzzer, I really felt jarred almost as much as Sam was, because it seemed so unlike Dean to just play with his brother's life like that.
So I suppose this was as much to soothe my ruffled feathers as to wonder if Dean did the whole "what if" scenario in his head after the dust had settled.
Thank you so much for reading. I'm really glad you enjoyed it. Even though it was hard keeping the story fresh with the repeated scenes, and remembering to put a slightly different twist on each time around - lol.
Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed)
25/02/12 08:54 PM · On:
Very nice!! The tension, emotion, and deep-seeded love the Winchesters have for one another was so clear in this story. It was a perfect balance of humor and drama. Thank you for sharing it.
Thank you, Shannon.
I'm really thrilled you enjoyed the story. It bugged me, that whole buzzer scene. It just seemed so...un-Dean-like to risk Sam's life like that - and I'm a Dean girl through and through....(although I think as little brother has grown up and grown HOT - I've become bi-bro over the last few seasons).
I read a tag - can't remember who wrote it - where Dean had tested it on his finger before hitting Sam in the chest with it, but still....it bugged me. So as usual with itches that the show won't scratch for me, I did it myself. I'm glad you were entertained by my scratchings - lol.
And even though the boys were so at odds with each other during season five, I still believe the love was there. Even during that painful scene in 5.01 when Dean tells Sam he can't trust him and that Sam can never make it up for what he did - there were tears in Dean's eyes when he said it, and he called his brother Sammy, so that told this little Pollyanna that he still loved his brother - he just didn't like him all that much at that point in time.
Thanks so much for reading, and for letting me know what you thought. Hopefully I'll be back on the site in a few weeks time with a new story. (fingers crossed). I've missed being around here.
Reviewer: gidgetgal9 (Signed)
01/05/10 03:25 PM · On:
That episode bothered me for the same reason, and so I rather enjoyed the way you worked it out. It was a interesting way for Dean to face the guilt to what he did. It was almost complimentary to Mystery Spot which was one of my favorites. Just awesome~! Gidget
Yes, I know quite a few Dean girls who were bothered by that scene. It just wasn't....Dean-like. Oh, and thank you, yes, it was written with Mystery Spot in mind.
It was a bad move for Dean to make, not just because it was out of character for him to use the thing on Sam knowing it had killed someone, but because they were still so uneasy with each other, and Sam would have taken that gesture the wrong way. It was a lot to risk for a harmless (?) prank.
So this went some way towards soothing my ruffled feathers over it - lol. Glad you enjoyed it.
Reviewer: Deanwinchesterfan1985 (Signed)
26/04/10 08:50 PM · On:
Wonderful story, Jules. I think I did read this one a while ago and just haven't had the time to review. But I was very shocked when Dean put that buzzer on Sam's chest after finding out what it did to that guy. What would have happened if it had really hurt Sam?
I think this story is a wonderful "what if" story. The consequences of Dean's actions should have haunted his mind because there was a good chance that it might not have been as harmless as Dean had intended it to be.
I also loved the part where Dean told Sam that he was never and would never be expendable because it's obvious to see in the way Dean throws himself in front of his brother to protect him that in Dean's eye Sam is more important than his own life. It's sad that Sam might see otherwise, but I think on some level he sees eye to eye with his brother on this. For both of them neither are expendable. If one is gone the other is lost and if you destroy one you destroy them both. Their bond is so tight there's no way it can be broken. Bent at points, but never fully severed. I loved it though, Jules, wonderful job!
Yep, me too. I couldn't believe Dean had done that - every time I see that scene, I just shake my head in denial and think, what would he have done if it had gone horribly wrong? What the flip was he thinking?
So my mind of course just kept strolling along that 'what if' track, and eventually came up with this.
And you're right, as angry and betrayed as Dean feels, he still loves his brother, and I think if push came to shove, he'd still fight to protect Sam.
Thanks so much, hun.
Reviewer: Amberdreams (Signed)
05/03/10 02:35 PM · On:
Very elegantly put together with the careful repetition and I very much liked the mirrored scene from Faith with the roles reversed. Maybe Dean deserved to be put through the mill like this...gruelling though it was to read it!
I've heard a few different theories, but that scene still really rattles my cage, on a number of levels. Whether it was Dean turning the tables on Sam about his wild hunches being risky as hell but turning out right (Route 666, Great Pumpkin), whether Dean was letting off some residual anger and resentment, or whether the writers just got him out of character for the sake of a laugh, it still rankles with me.
I'm pleased you liked the Faith mirrored scene. I was also going to mirror the scene from IMTOD with the coffee falling from Dean's hand, but since Sam was hooked up to monitors in the story, it wouldn't have worked the same, so I had him still at the door when the dream Sam's heart gave out.
Thanks so much for reading, and letting me know your thoughts.
Reviewer: Miriam (Signed)
05/03/10 05:26 AM · On:
Your writing is pitch perfect. Miss you! While I wait for a new story I reread all your older ones. And I so appreciate your gift. Wonderful. Hope you are well. Please take care and I will keep looking for you. All cheers and blessings, Jo
Aww, thanks, Jo.
Real life isn't playing nice at the moment. The job has become way too demanding, and it has seriously cut into my writing time by leaving me tired and drained by the time I come home. The stories are all up there in my head, but I can't seem to get them down on paper.
However, there is a new one just posted, so I hope that you like it. It's called Finding Home, and I just put it up about ten minutes ago.
Well - thank you so much for that. I'm truly honoured that you think that way. There's a lot of work that goes into the story, making sure I have the boys right, etc, and then passing it to my beta who gives it a final look over before I post, so it's very gratifying to know that we're hitting the mark.
Take care, and I'll see you on the new one.
Reviewer: pinkphoenix1985 (Signed)
21/02/10 02:16 PM · On:
This concept is wonderful because I also found it alarming when Dean did that to Sam.
the different nightmares were hard to read and I could definitely tell that Dean was in bad shape!
Nice touch putting the real world with Sam in as well especially since there's that real world nightmare
It was just so un-Dean-like, wasn't it? We're used to Sam playing hunches, but Dean taking a blatant risk like that? That was foreign territory indeed.
So this satisfied a nagging little doubt about my beloved Dean.
Glad you enjoyed it - and glad that the buzzer scene rattled your cage just as thoroughly as it did mine.
Reviewer: ritsam (Signed)
09/02/10 11:20 PM · On:
Yeah yeah, I'v enjoyed every single word of this story. Awesome indeed. I mean, yeah, Dean was being kinda irresponsible by using that freaking buzzer on his brother, but he'd regretted a lot aftermath. The nightmares about Sam dying again and again really left him breathless. They were horrible. I am so glad have you back, I love your writing--especially hurt/limp Sam stories. I don't read anyone's stories in here 'cept yours. You are the best.
Love love love it...
Hullo, Ritu - lovely to see you back again.
Aw, thank you so much! I'm honoured by your comments, and I hope that I never disappoint you.
Yes, that buzzer thing irked me something chronic. It was just so unlike Dean - well, the Dean of old, anyway. I think I jumped almost as high as Sam did when I first watched the scene. And my poor Dean-loyal mind kept trying to come up with an explanation - perhaps he touched it first with a finger to make sure it was harmless, perhaps he saw something in the kid that Sam hadn't spotted, etc.
Because I just couldn't reconcile that sort of reckless action with the Dean that I fell in love with during the Pilot.
So this was a way for me to sort of come to grips with it - by torturing Dean with nightmare after nightmare - LOL!
Thanks so much for reading, hun.
Reviewer: dixie (Signed)
01/02/10 09:56 PM · On:
Once again, another awesome story! Your ideas never cease to amaze!
Thank you so much for that, and for the pretty stars. I keep them for rainy days.
Ideas - ugh, I wish my freaky brain would STOP coming up with ideas sometimes. I have so many of them, I'll be finished long after the show has ended at the rate I'm going.
Thanks again for stopping by, and letting me know what you thought. I'm so glad you enjoyed the story.
Reviewer: supernaturalfan (Signed)
01/02/10 03:57 PM · On:
I'm with you on that scene. It has bugged me too, and I think that phone message is bugging you as much as me. I hope they cover that at some point because I feel it just wouldn't be right if they didn't. Thanks for writing this one shot. I was nice to see Dean feel some guilt over what he did. Not that I want him to suffer anymore than Sam, but I'm with you on some of the things he been doing lately. Not the Dean we've come to know. Especially when it comes to Sam.
I really loved your flip scene of "Faith". Sam being the one dying and the doctor telling Dean the same as he told Sam was pretty cool. At first I thought you were just playing the same scene only flipped, until Sam made the comment about the fabric softener teddy bear. You are full of surprises, and some funny among the angst was a relief.
Sorry to hear your bank folder is empty(yes I read everything) but I'm still here and still waiting to talk with you about my idea. Hope to hear from you soon, oh and I hope you'll write again soon.
BTW, we just might hear about Castiel opening the panic room and letting Sam in this weeks episode. After all, Anna knows it too and after what Cas did to her she may be up for some payback. We'll see. Just thought I'd throw that out there. Take care.
It shocked me when I first saw that scene - I just felt it was so out of character for Dean to risk Sam's life like that.
Then Trickie from SN.tv mentioned to me about Route 666, when Sam had that theory on how to beat the ghost truck, and I sort of got to thinking. It still strikes me as un-Dean-like, but I remembered that whenever Sam had a "hunch" we just accepted it and laughed at Dean's shocked reaction.
I suppose what made it not quite so funny was the fact that they are still on shaky ground as far as their brotherly bond is concerned, and the fact that Dean still doesn't know - we assume - that his phone message was altered.
Oh, you liked the mirroring of Faith? I didn't change it too much - pretty much kept the dialogue the same, apart from a couple of Dean's responses. But the doc's words were taken directly from the episode transcript.
Thanks so much, and hopefully I'll chat to you in-depth soon about that little idea of yours......
Reviewer: Oceane (Signed)
30/01/10 03:54 PM · On:
Jules, you're not alone, I was bugged as well about that scene. I'm glad that you wrote this one shot. Dean felt guilty as hell and his nightmarish dream showed it. I love these one shot stories, they gave explanation and closure to some scene that ended short and never addressed again. Terrific work with this one Jules, I'm looking forward to your next story anytime you'll be ready.
Hey, Oceane! I haven't forgotten about the email either - I've just been so slack in answering....*unhappy sigh*....I need a secretary....
Thanks for that. We were so bugged by that seemingly callous gesture, especially given the fact that the boys weren't on such good footing at that time. But I did wonder whether there would be some fallout from it.
And Dean's nightmares seemed a pretty good place to play that out.
Thanks hun - hopefully I'll be back soon.
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed)
30/01/10 03:35 PM · On:
Thanks for another fantastic story, i got a shock in the episode when Dean used the buzzer on Sam. i didn't know what to make of it, your story helped to make things a little better, thank you.
Thank you, Lindsay.
Oh, me too. I couldn't believe he'd done it. And the look on Sam's face - oy...
Even if Dean had been one hundred percent certain it was harmless, it was a really risky thing to do. And not something that the Dean of old would have done. Tease his brother unmercifully (like singing Fire Of Unknown Origin at the top of his voice in season 1, a few months after Jess died) but not hit Sam with something that he knew had killed a bloke and flash-cooked a full leg of ham in seconds.
I'm pleased that it's given you a bit of peace about the scene as well as me. I love Dean, but some days....*rolls eyes*....
Thanks so much for reading.
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed)
30/01/10 02:19 PM · On:
Thank you so much for writing this one-shot and giving me a much needed answer and actually closure to this buzzer incident, it was one of the scenes I just couldn't shake off.
Dean truly learned his lesson here in the most painful way, with these terrible nightmares creating his very own hell - vivid images indeed! You made me think of Nietzsche's quote "If you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you." Maybe this is part of the problem, both Dean and Sam had their fair share and it's incredibly hard for them not to drown.
Glad Sam confronted Dean and they did talk about it and for once didn't let it fester and when Dean said to Sam "You're not, and never were, expandable. Not to me" (god, how I love you for this line!) things were settled, they were back in sync. Wonderful!
I know what you mean. And that's what prompted me to write it. The Safe Haven girls kicked a few likes and dislikes around in an email discussion a few weeks ago, and the buzzer incident was one thing that kept popping up on peoples' dislike list.
And after that, this idea wouldn't leave me alone until I wrote it. So I thought - how can I torture Dean with guilt over what could have been a joke gone very, very wrong? I know - I'll give him nightmares! LOL.
Regarding the boys and their feelings towards each other. They might be angry - especially Dean - but the love is still there. I'm convinced of that more than ever after seeing 5.11 and 5.13, and watching reactions to certain scenes within those episodes. That, and the tone of voice in which certain lines of dialogue were spoken.
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed)
30/01/10 10:39 AM · On:
Another awesome story. Dean really learned his lesson here. No matter what his underlying intentions were, or even if he didn't have any at all and it was really just because he believed nothing would happen, he paid a high price for this one. Having to live through the prank again and again, every time ending up loosing Sam was truly a nightmare. First Castiel, then Zach showing up, telling him they wouldn't save Sam, even if they could, telling him, that's what he wanted anyway, wow, what a blow. Obviously his subconscious has been asking that question of him again and again. I think the worse though was, when he had to see the roles being reversed and he suddenly saw Sam in the hospital bed after being electrocuted and having only days, maybe a week to live. Difference though was that Sam wasn't at fault in Faith. And then Sam tells him he got what he wanted, that he, Sam was going to forgive and was not expecting forgiveness in return, only to just lie back and die that had to be the absolute blow.
I loved that you didn't ignore Sam's feelings in this, that you had him storm out after he reached into Dean's pocket and felt the buzzer, having to feel like Dean did it on purpose. It showed that he had to work through his own feelings regarding Dean's actions. Great brotherly moment with a funny ending.
I think Dean needed those nightmares to deal with his feelings. He needed to figure out if it was thoughtless or if there was some subconscious intention in it. It made him deal with how he felt about his brother and their relationship and what needed to change on his part. It was a very painful lesson to learn, but those are mostly the ones that stick with you forever.
I really liked Zach's attempt at some morbid humor. It wasn't really funny under the circumstances, but it sure was worthy of even the Trickster, except I always felt the Trickster was not really mean, while Zach truly is mean.
So I only can say I enjoyed this one tremendously. Worthy of you in every way. Now I hope it will rain so badly that you can't do anything else but write. Sorry, I know I'm evil, but I really want to see your next story as soon as possible. Anyway, hope you have a great weekend. Hugs, Vonnie
Yes, Dean was really tortured by his prank, and the possible outcomes.
I think that Dean's still angry with Sam - betrayal, especially by a child (and we all know that Sam is Dean's child) is hard to overcome and forgive. But I feel quite strongly that even though Dean is hurt and angry, and not quite ready to trust Sam again, he still loves him. That came out quite plainly outside the hospital in 5.01.
Despite the fact that Dean was telling Sam they couldn't go back to how they were, and there was nothing that Sam could do to make up for what he'd done - Dean still called him Sammy, and not in a bitter, nasty way. It was still the old affectionate childhood nickname, said with the same amount of love that it had always been spoken.
Oh, you liked Zachariah's black humour? I tried to make him as horrible as possible. I really dislike that plick. I think I hate him more than I hated Uriel. God, or Michael, or Raphael - someone - needs to squash that mongrel like an ant.
LOL - bring on the rain!
Reviewer: calUK (Signed)
29/01/10 06:37 PM · On:
I'm praying for rain... Love the way Dean's nightmares kept twisting around - just when I thought I knew what was coming, you threw a curveball and left me trying to play catch up again! It did seem a little cavalier to test the theory the way that he did, and this is such a nice way to resolve that - and to offer a tiny bit of the resolution I'm so hoping to see in this season.
Maybe I have the sense of humour of a nine year old too, but that Cas/Whoppee cushion thing - teehee.
Ta hun! Another great read!
LOL - we had a terribly wet weekend, but I didn't get that much writing done. Only about 5,000-odd words. Nothing like my usual speed. Not sure why I'm struggling so much lately....
So chuffed that you liked the nightmares with a little twist each time. And yep, I was shocked at Dean's move - I couldn't believe he'd done it at first.
I think, from what I've seen in two recent episodes, that they are finding their way back to each other. It's a long road, but I've seen hints that things are getting better. And the love is still there. With or without the "Boop!" - LOL.
Oh, well - we still love you even if you do have the same sense of humour as Dean - LOL. One has to feed the inner child every now and then, otherwise life gets way too serious and stressful.
Thanks hun - so glad you enjoyed it.
Reviewer: catchme21 (Signed)
29/01/10 06:16 PM · On:
*sigh* If only it had happened that way.
You know, I can understand everyone's frustrations. The writer's have put the boys through hell the past two season, so of course their relationships have changed.
I do wish they would start redirecting it back this way.
Awesome little piece Jules, a very nice read!! :)
Yep, I know exactly what you mean. And I know that a few people - some in our own little group as well - have really had some issues with how the new writers are treating the boys lately.
But I think there is a little bit of hope creeping back in for their brotherly bond - especially after the two little moments I saw in episode 5.13. Fingers crossed that Kripke keeps his promise, and puts them back together like they were meant to be.
Thanks hun - hope to hear from you soon - and remember, the spare room's always there.
Reviewer: Primrose (Signed)
29/01/10 05:21 PM · On:
I thought it was pretty nasty for Dean to use the buzzer on Sam. He couldn't REALLY know that it wouldn't work! I'm glad you taught him a bit of a lesson!
Wonderful story as usual! It's always a treat to see something new up from you on Fridays.
Sorry I took so long - nightmare week. Oh, yep, I agree. Unless he'd tested it out on his finger first. It was a hell of a risk, and one we'd never seen him take before, so it was a double shock. And I know what must have been going through Sam's mind....
Trickie from SN.tv mentioned that when she first saw that buzzer scene, she was reminded of the scene at the end of Route 666 when Sam told Dean he'd played a hunch that the ghost truck wouldn't be able to cross the holy ground. I'd never thought of it from that angle - we'd always just laughed at Dean's reaction to Sam's playing a hunch because Sam's hunches always seemed to work out.
Still......I just didn't find it funny....*shrugs*....
So stoked that you enjoyed the story so much. Pray for another wet weekend for me, eh, so I can get some more writing done instead of working in the garden - lol.
Reviewer: Midge (Signed)
29/01/10 02:29 PM · On:
That almost felt like Mystery Spot all over again but in reverse. Sad me really quite enjoyed Dean suffering through Sam's death again and again.
I know I'm supposed to be firmly spoiler free for another couple of weeks but the temptation at the recent Hunter Girls meet in London was just too great - so I'm no longer spoiler free with a lovely library of eps to catch up on.
But no longer being spoiler free also means I have a lovely backlog of stories to read too.
By the way, have you sold that dishwasher yet? *winks knowingly*....
It sort of was a bit Mystery Spot-ish, wasn't it? Over and over and over - poor Dean.
Ah, those hunter girls - they're a bad influence - ROFL. But I'm the same. And besides, if I wait for Channel 10 to start screening, I'll be a little old lady and too blind to see the telly.
Mmm, yes, you do have a nice little collection of fics to wade through. Happy wading. And I hope that somewhere along the line that little muse of yours starts to give you a bit of a nudge too.
Reviewer: Micaiah (Signed)
29/01/10 12:48 PM · On:
I wasn't expecting a new story from you this week so I was very happy when I got my little alert telling me you had added a story to the site.
I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who was bothered by Dean using the joy buzzer on Sam. I mean, things have been so strained between them and then Dean basically risks Sam's life to prove a point? If he'd been wrong, Sam would have died. Sam had every right to be angry. You know I'm a Dean girl too, but sometimes I just want to smack him upside the head.
I love your version of what happened afterwards. At least in your story, Dean realizes what a stupid move he made. Sometimes we all do things in the heat of the moment we regret and I like that Dean feels guilty over this. He should.
All those different scenarios of Sam dying....man, those were hard to read because I don't want my boys dead....ever, not even in a dream (yeah, I know, I'm guilty too). I could feel Dean's anguish in each one. Oh, and Cas being so callous...ouch....and Zachariah.....even in dreamland I wanted to scratch his eyes out.
My favorite moments: when Dean wakes up and sits on the edge of Sam's bed, so distraught that he can't really say anything, taking comfort just from the warmth of Sam's hip against his back...lovely, lovely, lovely. And the exchage between Sam and Dean when Dean tells Sam he's not expendable, Sam's reluctance to meet his eyes...just awesome!
And kudos to Chris for another awesome banner. I really like that one.
Hugs back - hey, Sonya.
It is a pretty spiffy banner, isn't it?
Oh, you're going to have to tell me how to put an author on alert - I got an email from a reader and I promised I'd find out for her. I'll email you.
No, you're not the only one. It bothered lots of us, because it just seemed so out of character for the Dean we've come to know and love.
And I'm with you - I want both boys still standing at the end, and side-by-side, where they belong. Zachariah - well, you know I can't stand him. So I set out to make him as horrible as I could. Glad it came across so well. He's a slime-ball - I hope he gets smited well before the end.
Thanks hun, so glad you enjoyed it.
Reviewer: ziggy (Signed)
29/01/10 08:10 AM · On:
First off I had to laugh at your comment about my red pen corrections, you made me sound like a teacher - but wait, aren't teachers not allowed to use red pen now as it may damage the child's psyche? Hope my red doesn't damage yours, but in my defence I have to use a colour that is different from your typed words!
Just loved this sis. I always had a problem with that particular scene, thinking it was sloppy writing and totally out of character for Dean to do that to his little brother, even if he was 100% sure of his hunch. Your story made it explainable though. You totally got across that in hindsight Dean would regret his action, realising how hurt his brother was, and totally got inside his head with the nightmares giving him various scenarios of his little brother dying from the prank - rather like Sam had in his reality in Mystery Spot. Loved how you also brought Zachariah (the p*ick) and Castiel into his nightmares too, their reactions compounding Dean’s guilt. Also loved the scene in the hospital, so like the situation Sam found himself with Dean in Faith and also Sam dying when Dean was about to go and get coffee, again a parallel to Sam finding their dad dead in In My Time Of Dying.
Perfect how things came to a head with Sam’s reaction to getting a faint zap from the buzzer when looking for a twenty in Dean’s jeans pocket, the older Winchester seeing the hurt and betrayal in his little brother’s face and knowing he has to put things right.
Great the scene by the stream and their much needed talk, Sam opening up to Dean and Dean letting Sam know he regretted the action and that it wouldn’t happen again. Their relationship may still have its cracks but they still have each other and loved the image of them striding back towards town falling into easy banter.
An amazing story Jules, you took a scene I hated and gave me something plausible.
Oh, yes, irrevocably scarred by your copious red pen corrections - my poor delicate little psyche....*sniffles pathetically*......
I was shocked as well, as it seemed to be such a not-Dean thing to do, especially given that they knew the thing could kill.
Chuffed that you liked the parallels to Faith, Mystery Spot and In My Time Of Dying. I was originally toying with the idea of Dean actually going for the coffee then coming back to find Sam had died in the dream, but I changed my mind at the last minute.
Thanks for all your help on this one, sis, even though I confused you with that final dream sequence - lol.
Reviewer: Miriam (Signed)
29/01/10 06:35 AM · On:
Wonderful - thanks!!! I have to say that little moment bothered me too. I felt stuck, almost "in shock". You have pulled me through to the other side.
Yes, I had a very hard time with that scene. I couldn't quite believe that Dean had done it, actually, and the possible motivations behind it really bugged me. I'm relieved you felt the same way, and that this went a little way towards making you feel better about it.
Thanks so much for reading, and reviewing. Reviews are gold.