Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed)
14/02/10 06:42 AM · On:
God, I nearly missed the second part here, I'm so sorry.
A truly heartbreaking read and you could feel the pain and loneliness consuming Dean. But there also was in the midst of all this despair this little moment expressing so well the special bond between Sam and Dean and that they share something unbreakable, a rare love only they can understand and will stand the test of time - "Sam was standing at the door, his duffel shlung over one shoulder, his eyes wide with the shock of the threat, but determination set in his jaw. Dean could see his brother's shoulders stiffen indignantly, then saw those soft hazel eyes sweep onto him. Look at him. See him. The anger in them evaporated and were immediately replaced with the pain that John would never see." A perfect piece!
I'm glad that you enjoyed the second part to this story. I am glad that you enjoyed that particular part that you have highlighted here in your review. That was the heart of this chapter I think, highlighting the relationship between the brothers.
Their bond is so unique and so strong that nothing could come between them. Even with all the crap they have been through in the past couple of seasons - it doesn't change how they feel for one another.
But I think it would be harder for someone else, like John, to see unless he knew what to look for. All he would see was Sam leaving, breaking up their family, turning his back on them.
Dean would see some of the same things but not in the same way. But I am glad that you enjoyed it so much. As always thanks for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: Micaiah (Signed)
09/02/10 05:55 PM · On:
Oh, that was so sad. I like how you combined two events that I've always wondered about: Sam leaving for Stanford and Bobby running John off with a shotgun. I've always wondered why he really ran him off. I can see John saying something like that to Bobby. John was pretty hot-headed, which is just one of the reasons him and Sam butted heads all the time.
Poor Dean. His world has just fallen apart but I love the fact that he called Sam to tell him he was proud of him.
I am glad you enjoyed this story. I wasn't too sure about it but it wouldn't leave me alone. And I too have always wondered about what could have made Bobby drive John off with a shotgun.
We have gotten a lot of little pieces of what happened between Sam and John during their last fight together - but I couldn't imagine Dean just standing there and letting them do that unless he were out or he was unable to do anything about it. So I chose the latter. If he were physically incapable of seperating Sam and John during their last fight it would have destroyed him even more I think. Because he wouldn't be able to stop it and would be helpless as he watched his brother walk out the door.
And you're right - John was pretty hot-headed. But Sam is as well. They are so much a like, two people can't be so a like and be expected to live in harmony.
But Dean is more like Bobby I've noticed. He lets you know exactally when you've gone too far. But even the apocolypse wasn't enough to push Bobby to the point of disowning the boys - so what could have driven him to pulling out a shotgun on John?
Pushing Sam away seemed like it would fit. Bobby is very fond of both the boys and if John pushed Sam to the point of no return Bobby would have noticed. And after hearing what John had done and had seen what it was doing to Dean I think it would have put him on the edge. And John in his anger and self defense for what he would have done would have lashed out at Bobby with the one weapon he had, driving Bobby over the edge.
I can't imagine John leaving his boys with a hunter who he hadn't checked out - and therefore knew about Bobby's background.
I'm glad you enjoyed this story though. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed)
08/02/10 08:25 AM · On:
Oh this was so very sad, so much pain.
Thanks for the read, i enjoyed it.
Author's Response: I am glad you enjoyed the last chapter to this one. Wasn't too sure about this story at first, but I'm glad I worked it out of my system. I promise I'll try to get my next chapter up for Nothing Stays Buried soon.
Reviewer: moira4eku (Signed)
07/02/10 11:29 PM · On:
Man, this was just so sad! Poor Dean. He's in so much pain. I can't believe he actually drove all the way to Bobby's house. What was John thinking. I'm thinking John may have tried to bring up what happened to Bobby's wife; that would certainly bring out the shot gun! Thanks for the 2 shot. I really enjoyed reading it.
Dean, I think would have had the harder time between John and himself with Sam's leaving as he was around more than John was and practically raised his little brother. But Sam's leaving broke up the family - as John left Dean not long after that. Not in this story but right before the Pilot episode.
I wanted to bring up something that John could say that would hit Bobby the wrong way the hardest. It wasn't easy to do as even the apocolypse didn't make Bobby disown the boys - especially Sam. He would do anything for them, his love for their family is obvious so what could have pushed Bobby so hard that he pushed John away?
I think that John's pushing Sam away was a big one. To hear what John had said to Sam and to see what it was doing to Dean would be enough to grind on Bobby's nerves, but then the icing on the cake - would have been if John brought up Bobby's wife. John seemed to be weary of which hunters he left his boys with, so I'm assuming he would have done background searches on Bobby and would have found out about what happened with his wife. So in his own pain and anger he brought up the one thing that Bobby hurt by the most.
I'm glad that you enjoyed this. Thank you for taking the time to read and review. It means a lot.
Reviewer: moira4eku (Signed)
07/02/10 11:15 PM · On:
How terribly sad. Dean gets seriously hurt, and his father is more interested in finishing the "job" than helping his own son. I agree with Sam. Dean is more important. It broke my heart that Sam was afraid to listen to his voice mail. I imagine Dean is really hurting here because he wasn't really able to say a proper goodbye to Sam. John is a jerk.
I think John was a jerk at times, but he had his reasons for acting as such. In the heat of the moment he was caught up in the hunt, knowing that the threat could come back and hurt other people, or possibly his boys again. So he knew that the job had to be finished before that could happen. And in the hotel - he was so scared of loosing Sam, of Sam being alone out in the world when John knew what was out there that he said the only thing he could that he thought would stop Sam from walking out the door. We all know that didn't work, but I don't think he said it to hurt Sam. I think he said it in desperation.
Dean, I'm sure saw this side of things. Where as Sam would only see his father pushing him away and slamming the door shut behind him. But the hardest thing for Sam, I would imagine anyway, would be to leave his brother in that vulnerable state. Knowing that Dean couldn't stop him. His brother could barely stay conscious at the time and he walked out on him, hoping that John would look after him.
I think that would also be the thing that destroyed Dean the most. Not being able to stop his brother from walking out the door. To hear John's words of finality and then Sam walking out anyway without even getting the chance to say good bye. I'm glad you enjoyed the first chapter. Thank you for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed)
07/02/10 09:48 PM · On:
How heartbreaking - how devastated is Dean now that all his family have left.
I didn't blame Bobby one little bit, and I can imagine that he would try to be a father figure to Dean while he recovers from his injuries, but in Dean's mind it won't be the same.
Sam left, John left, and they both broke Dean's spirit. Not that I can blame Sam - I fully understand what that ultimatum of John's would have done to Sammy. And he couldn't stay - he and his father would have just continued to butt heads until one of them broke completely. Gunpowder and matches.
But Dean - always caught in the middle. Always hiding behind that mask, but crumbling to pieces underneath.
Thanks for sharing this, Candace. Good to see you back writing again, hun.
I'm glad that you enjoyed this story. I actually found the second chapter a lot harder than the first because the aftermath of what Sam would have left behind was hard to picture. I can't even begin to imagine what it would have done to Dean, knowing what Dean had done to raise his little brother. That must have been like a major sucker punch.
And I had always wondered about Bobby and John's falling out - so I figured what would push Bobby that far? I mean even the apocolypse wasn't enough to make him disown the boys. So maybe John's pushing Sam away - pushing him so far that Sam wouldn't and couldn't come back might have been enough to push Bobby over that edge.
Bobby for sure would know how far that would push Dean. What it would do to Dean's spirit and would know that Dean would need someone there to support him. But as you put it - in Dean's mind it wouldn't be the same if John was out of the picture and Bobby was trying to fill the role. Dean's family means everything to him and it shattered around him. That hurt him more than his injuries had. And the wounds had gone a lot deeper behind the mask than the ones that were visible to the eye.
Thanks for reading and for taking the time to review, Jules. I know you know how much taking the time to leave one means. I'll finish reading your stories soon I hope I'm enjoying them very much.
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed)
07/02/10 09:39 PM · On:
Surprise - it's me!
Actually, I haven't read too many stories detailing the actual argument that John and Sam had, so I think you're pretty safe.
Can understand Sam's anger at his father, especially where Dean was concerned. John could have easily relented and done the salt and burn himself, allowing Sam to take care of Dean - heavens, why is that man so damned stubborn!
And now their family is fractured, and will stay that way for the next three years - actually, they never did get back together, did they? Two stubborn Winchesters - oil and water. Or matches and gunpowder....
Oh, Sammy - and poor Dean, injured and unable to keep his brother from leaving.
Hey Jules! Good to hear from you. Still trying to get caught up on the stories you've sent me. Wish I had more time to read these days.
I really wasn't too sure about this story in all honesty, but sometimes you got to go with your gut. But I'm glad that you enjoyed the first chapter.
Thanks for reading and reviewing. Means a lot.
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed)
17/01/10 09:17 AM · On:
I really liked that chapter, you've done a great job on your idea about what happened before Sam left, looking forward to the next part.
Author's Response: I'm glad that you have enjoyed the story so far. This has been bothering me for a while now so I decided to have a shot at it. I hope that you enjoy the ending to it. Thanks as always for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed)
17/01/10 06:45 AM · On:
This is about the most painful version of Sam's leaving for college I've ever read! The moment when Sam told John he'd leave and then noticed Dean was awake and heard everything - "Sam's eyes met John's for a brief moment before falling to his brother...He was surprised to see Dean's eyes open, staring at him, pleading. The green irises clouded with pain, and the tight lines around his mouth made Sam's chest tighten uncomfortably", this was just heartbreaking to witness as for Dean this must have felt like the end of his world. But then - and what an incredible proof of his love this was - Dean's messages to Sam telling him he's proud, giving his little brother his blessings, amazing! I loved that even though Sam felt he had to leave it was clear he didn't break with his brother, that he loves Dean dearly and is scared for him. I'm now looking forward to read the second part and just hope John will be able to help Dean deal with Sam's departure and somehow holding it together for both of them. Excellent!!
Author's Response: I am glad that you enjoyed this first chapter to this story. I wasn't quite sure how it would be recieved as there are so many great stories for what happened already. But this has been bothering me for a while now and I decided to go ahead and take a shot at it. I hope that you enjoy the ending. Thanks as always for reading and reviewing.