Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 17/01/10 03:33 AM · On: Chapter 7
Dean was right - Sam needed to let it out, to get the confession out in the open. He's buckling under the weight of all that guilt, and the sleeplessness isn't helping at all with his depression. How frightening for Dean to get back and find Sam had attempted suicide - no wonder he almost collapsed. I did love Cas' offer to let his guard down so Dean could take a swing and not risk breaking his hand. So glad that the dreamcatcher seems to be working so far. And I loved Dean's confession to Sam just as he fell asleep - that he wouldn't be better off without him. Hmm, demonic jungle drums have been talking, eh? Hope they're reliable, and that Cas finally has a real lead on his Father. Jules
Author's Response: Thanks for the review Jules. I had a hard time writing this whole chapter. Cas, in particular. I'm not sure how much Cas should rely on rumors from demons though....
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed) · Date: 16/01/10 11:39 PM · On: Chapter 7
I enjoyed how Dean's sarcasm and use of hyperbole completely blew over Cas' head! (“This can’t wait that long.” LOL) That last line sure was a hook!
Author's Response: Thanks Terri. There are some things about humans Cas will just never understand and that's a good thing. It makes him so dang endearing!
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 16/01/10 09:47 PM · On: Chapter 7
Don't worry about it, I think it's better than you actually think it is. I liked Castiel offering Dean to let his guard down, so he could hit him and him not understanding sarcasm. I really thought the little conversation between the boys was great and it's awesome to see the dream catcher is working.Even better, Cas has a lead on God. Don't be so hard on yourself, because sometimes it's just tough to find the right way to put a chapter together, I just went through that myself, again. I'm definitely looking forward to more. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: Thanks Vonnie. I guess we're always our own worst critic, right? I'm wanting to read some of your stuff but I just haven't had much time. I did read one of your short ones last night. Very cute! I think when I get done with this one I may take a little break from writing and catch up on some reading!
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed) · Date: 13/01/10 01:50 PM · On: Chapter 6
Awww, poor Sam, he really is feeling worthless, loved Bobby in this chapter.
Author's Response: Thanks! I love Bobby and really haven't written about him very much. Don't know what those boys would do without him.
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed) · Date: 12/01/10 10:42 PM · On: Chapter 6
Poor Sam. It took him days to decide to end it.....and all for naught. It couldn't ever be that easy for a Winchester, you know? I like Bobby in this chapter. He refers to "his boys", tries to give Dean a respite with a lame shopping list, manages to reach Sam up in the bathroom, and then calls Cas an idgit! Good chapter!
Author's Response: Thanks Terri! No, nothing is ever that easy for a Winchester. I love Bobby. Have you read mizpah's newest story from Bobby's POV? It's awesome! Cas really is part of the family if Bobby's calling him an idjit. Don't ya think? :)
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 12/01/10 10:20 PM · On: Chapter 6
Oh man, I had tears in my eyes. Sam is so desperate and he feels so worthless, he sees only one way and that's suicide. And now he has to find out, he can't even do this. I mean, I'm happy it didn't work, but what a life is that, if you know you can't even die to get away. Poor Bobby, he was great so. I sure hope Cas can help. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: Thanks Vonnie! I had tears in my eyes writing it because even though they will probably never show Sam having a breakdown like this on the show, I do think he feels worthless. He has so much guilt over things that are really beyond his control. Hopefully Cas will be able to help....
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 12/01/10 02:07 PM · On: Chapter 6
Oh my gosh - Lucifer won't let Sam die - and I'm betting that Sam's gone completely over the edge now...... Your description of Sam wandering the wrecking yard like a ghost was so poignantly sad. I could see it so clearly in my head. And oh, that note, and that thought that he was worthless....*sniffle*.... Thank heavens Bobby ran on instinct and called to Sam like a child, trying to reach the broken man. Hope that dreamcatcher works. Jules
Author's Response: I have probably spent more time than I should wondering if Lucifer was lying to Sam when he said he'd bring him back to life. That would have to be the worst thing in the world, to be trying to escape from this nightmare and you can't. Sam just wants to do something to redeem himself. Unfortunately Lucifer isn't cooperating with his plans. I believe that Sam really does have those feelings of worthlessness and most of those stem from his betrayal of Dean, not just because he started the apocalypse. And yes, thank God for Bobby. Gotta love that man! Thanks Jules!
Reviewer: impalamedean1 (Signed) · Date: 12/01/10 11:14 AM · On: Chapter 1
aw I loved this! Jess
Author's Response: Thanks so much for the review! I'm really glad you liked it!
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed) · Date: 09/01/10 11:07 PM · On: Chapter 5
Nice idea....a dreamcatcher! Hope it works! It's nice that Cas is sticking with Sam. i don't know if it's for Sam, or to help Dean. Or both. Either way....it's good to have an angel on their side.
Author's Response: Thanks Terri. I thought the dreamcatcher was kinda lame at first but I think it will work the way I want it to. I like to think Cas is helping watch Sam for both of the boy's sakes. I have plans for some scenes of just Sam and Cas....I would love to see some scenes of just them on the show.
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 09/01/10 05:22 PM · On: Chapter 5
Another great chapter. I really loved the way Dean was there for Sam and how he is trying everything he can to find a solution. It's good Bobby and Cas are on his side and help by watching over Sam and researching. So I wonder if the Dream Catcher is going to help. Can't wait to see. You are doing a wonderful job here. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: Thank you so much! You should find out about the dreamcatcher next chapter. Sometimes I wonder what Dean would do without Bobby and Cas and I hope we never have to find out!
Reviewer: zz1989 (Signed) · Date: 08/01/10 07:38 PM · On: Chapter 5
Great story! I am looking forward to reading some more.
Author's Response: Thank you very much for taking time to read and review! I hope to post the next chapter sometime this week.
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed) · Date: 08/01/10 10:17 AM · On: Chapter 5
Excellent update, i like your idea of using a dreamcatcher.
Author's Response: Thanks! At first I fought the dreamcatcher idea because it just seemed kinda lame and obvious and then I thought....well, yeah! They would look for any other way to stop the dreams and never even think of that because that's what I did when I was looking up ways to ward off dreams on the internet. :) And Dean has a dreamcatcher hanging in the trunk of the Impala so it was a good way to throw that little tidbit in.
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 08/01/10 01:37 AM · On: Chapter 5
I'm the first to review, I'm the first to review! La-la-la-la-laaaaa......!!!!! Poor Sam - angel-juice hangovers seem much worse than tequila ones - lol. But so heartbreaking how he's just sinking further and further into a deep depression, despite Dean, Bobby and Cas' best efforts to help him. I wonder how much of that depression is being fuelled by Lucifer and his subtle whisperings about how much Sam has done, etc. How much of it is his own guilt and how much is the devil's pushing? I did love Cas watching over Sam and Sam not realising as he wanders around the wrecking yard. But there is definitely a dark cloud looming on the horizon - what is Sam thinking? With his mind in the state it's in, it can't be good...... Keeping everything crossed that they find that medicine man and get that dreamcatcher. Jules
Author's Response: I think Sam's depression is mostly his own guilt over what has happened but Lucifer just won't quit reminding him of what he's done or what he's destined to do so he's definitely a contributing factor. You'll find out what Sam's thinking in the next chapter and no, it's not good. How's that for a teaser? :) I have some writing from Bobby's POV in the next chapter but after reading your new story, I'm not sure I can do Bobby such justice. Thanks for reviewing, Jules. I always look forward to seeing what you have to say.
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 03/01/10 02:30 PM · On: Chapter 4
That is indeed what Lucifer does. What a harrowing dream. And one that plays on Sam's greatest fear - losing Dean. If only there was a way to block Lucifer from Sam's thoughts without damaging him. And what a jolt for Dean to hear Sam screaming and then watch his brother fall apart. Thank heavens for Cas, and for Bobby. The boys are going to need all the support they can get. Jules
Author's Response: "If only there was a way to block Lucifer from Sam's thoughts without damaging him. " Are you reading my mind?? Thanks for reviewing!
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 03/01/10 02:21 PM · On: Chapter 3
Oh, Sammy..... He's getting very close to breaking point, I feel. And that promise - given so resignedly, as if it took all his strength just to agree.... Why do I have a bad feeling about this? There be angst over the next rise, eh? Jules
Author's Response: Breaking point is coming.....soon....
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed) · Date: 03/01/10 12:09 PM · On: Chapter 4
Four excellent chapters, this is a very emotional story, looking forward to reading more.
Author's Response: Thank you very much! I hope to update soon!
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed) · Date: 02/01/10 11:33 PM · On: Chapter 4
Ooooh! That was wicked Dean whumpage in Sam's dream, then loads of angst followed! Good chapter. So both boys have sunk pretty darn low. How's it gonna get better!!? What happens next?!......I await your next installment.
Author's Response: What can I say? Dean whumpage and angst are my two favorites. :) Thanks!
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 02/01/10 07:29 PM · On: Chapter 4
Wow, I guess I never thought about that Lucifer might use Dean as a leverage to get Sam to say yes. It would be so easy. Although it was just a dream this time, I'm sure it came from Lucifer and now Sam is even more vulnerable. Is there going to be a way out? You sure know how to make my heart race. Can't wait what's going to happen next. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: We know Dean is Sam's weak spot and vice versa. And you're correct. Even though it was just a dream, it came from Lucifer. Thanks for continuing to follow the story!
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed) · Date: 01/01/10 06:55 PM · On: Chapter 3
I'm glad Sammy came outta hiding...and that he promised to say "No". I hope he'll keep to his word. And I'm hanging in....gotta see what happens! :)
Author's Response: I just realized I never really explained why Sam came out of hiding but hopefully if anyone knows about depression and such they will also know there is no rhyme or reason for the things you do sometimes. Thanks for continuing to read and review, Terri.
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed) · Date: 01/01/10 06:47 PM · On: Chapter 2
Valid question from Bobby. Although Sam may be a mess, Dean's not in stellar shape himself. Good chapter.
Author's Response: Yes, they have both had a very hard hit with Ellen and Jo's death. Of course Dean will try to be strong for Sam's sake but his nerves have got to be wearing thin also. Thanks!
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 29/12/09 09:05 PM · On: Chapter 3
Another great chapter with so much emotions. Cute memory Dean had there. But how shocking that Sam suggested exactly what Bobby was afraid of. How incredibly sad that he is at the point where he feels there is no way out. You are really getting to me with this one. It's great. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: Thanks so much for all your awesome reviews! I'm really glad you're liking the story. Hopefully it won't take me so long to update next time.
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 29/12/09 08:51 PM · On: Chapter 2
Oh man, Sammy is in the absolute depths of depression. And Dean is so helpless, it is devastating. And Bobby is asking the one question he really didn't want to hear. I wonder how this is going to end. Gotta go on. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: I just can't imagine either of them walking away from this without some serious emotional scarring....like they don't already have enough of that!
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 29/12/09 08:33 PM · On: Chapter 1
Wow, Castiel to the rescue. He actually had to tell Dean how bad Sam was. And then he found he was indeed bad. Poor kid, he is just so drained. Gotta go on and read more. I really like this. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: Castiel told Dean he could see inside him so I figured it made sense that he would catch on first to how devastated Sam really is. Personally, I don't see how Sam hasn't cracked a long time ago.
Reviewer: Amberdreams (Signed) · Date: 15/12/09 04:21 PM · On: Chapter 1
Of course if you take him down, you either have to find a way to bring him back or leave him in the depths of despair - either way, a real challenge! Keep working on it, it's a strong theme and you can do it justice based on this firm foundation... poor old Sammy *sniff*
Author's Response: Yeah, I think I took on a bigger challenge than I was realizing. I really wanted to get it finished before the new episodes come back on too. I had some inspiration today on where to go with the next chapter. Now if I could just find time to write! Thanks for the encouragement, AMB!
Reviewer: mizpah (Signed) · Date: 14/12/09 09:13 PM · On: Chapter 2
Oh, Sam's in such a bad way....*reaches for tissues*.....and me a Dean woman..... But Sammy's tears just break my heart. Could imagine his embarrassment and shame at his breakdown, and his continued downward spiral into a severe depression as he keeps blaming himself over and over for the deaths of those he cares about. And seriously, with all that the brothers have been through, I'm not at all surprised that there's a breakdown on the horizon. Congratulations on your daughter's graduation! Goodness, I didn't realise you were old enough to have a college-age child. Hope everything goes well for you and for her. Jules
Author's Response: I'm a Dean woman too but something about Sammy just tugs at my heartstrings. I think it's the mother in me wanting to protect him. Yeah, I'm an old SPN fan. :) Thanks for your continued support!
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