Reviewer: Swellison (Signed)
20/12/09 01:22 PM · On:
Oh, wow, this put a lump in my throat. An awful lot of real, honest feeling in here.
Reviewer: Shannondoah (Signed)
09/12/09 09:55 AM · On:
What an amazing piece! So many times John is portrayed as being heartless and uncaring but you've made it seem that he begins to shut down because he cares too much. His obsession stems from love of not only his wife, but the loss of his children's innocence, the loss of their mother and how she would have shaped their lives. Fabulous!
The repetition of 'it's not natural' (cheeky play on the title) and Mary burning on the ceiling, not only continues to remind us of the future we know will be revealed in the show but illustrates the cycle of John's wandering thoughts as he tries to make sense of the tragedy.
'He buries his face in the pillow, just in case the scream that's been stuck in his throat, longing for release escapes his control.' this passage perfectly portrays John's confusion, helpless rage, and determination to protect his children.
"What am I supposed to do?" Very clever to echo the words Dean uses at Sam's death.
Dean is Mary's guardian angel?! I love it! That's why Mary has such a strong belief that angels are watching over them. You're very tricky!
The Impala being what's left of their home becomes an important theme in their lives. I love how you introduce it here!
John realizing their old life is over and motels and the Impala is their new life is a prophetic epiphany.
Reviewer: karmyn31 (Signed)
29/08/09 07:12 AM · On:
This has been a favorite since I first read it. I think I've read it at least four times now. I just want to hug them all. Great story, so emotional.
Reviewer: Cuddles13 (Signed)
28/06/09 02:09 PM · On:
I really like this story. There is a lot of emotion. I, personally, think you captured Dean's feelings. I just feel so sorry for Dean when he starts crying and screaming. I can't imagine what it feels like to lose your mum and to actually see it happen before your eyes. I felt like crying when you described the part where Dean was just laying there motionless and aty the end when John wakes up and Dean is looking at him and then they both start crying. I could feel the tears threatning to come. I feel so sorry for little Sam 'coz he doesn't eben know what's going on. I felt so sorry for John when he was at the table crying, asking Mary to come back, and he really thought the whole thing was a dream that he was going to wake up from. And you can already see that Dean is going to become protective over Sam. Like when he was goimg in to the bathroom he looked back like he didn't want, what happened to his mum to happen to Sam. And it was just so sweet when he kept stroking Sam little head. All in all, good story. Well done.
Reviewer: lostatc (Signed)
04/05/09 12:42 AM · On:
Beautiful, very beautiful. I read one of your responses to a review and I agree with you, there were two John Winchesters, one before the fire and one after. It is the true tragedy of the story and the one that has to be learned by the brothers, we have to move on from tragedy not be consumed by it.
Thank you for the opportunity for a cathartic read, very necessary sometimes.
Reviewer: kwater (Signed)
28/04/09 11:08 AM · On:
I really enjoyed this one, especially your take on Mary's explanation of the night her father died. Haven't read any pre-series story yet that acknowledged Mary's past. Very cool. - Thanks for the read ;) Kel
Author's Response: LOL, I'm glad you liked Mary's explanation. After watching "In the Beginning" I always wondered how Mary explained to John what happened and writing this gave me an opportunity to put my own little spin on what she might've said. Glad it worked for you and I'm so glad you liked this story! Thanks for reading and thanks for the nice review!
Reviewer: PropGal (Signed)
27/04/09 12:47 PM · On:
Beautifully written and captivating. Thank you for sharing it with us all.
Author's Response: Thank you so much for the kind and flattering review! I'm glad you liked it!
Reviewer: Tree66 (Signed)
25/04/09 04:06 PM · On:
I just LOVE this... like watching older Dean in a child's body- his reactions today not so different than when he was 4- only now he's managed to control them- not let anyone see the hurt and pain... but even then he was doing the same thing- just shutting it all out- shutting it all down.
Thank you so much for the review Tree! I'm so glad you like my portrayal of Dean! I really wanted to be true to his character which was hard to do considering I was writing a four-year old version of him and at the same time I was somewhat basing him on myself after my parents died, but I still wanted him to be distinctly *Dean* so needless to say it just made me so happy to read your comments.
Everything you said in your review reminds me of one of the big reasons why I am a Dean girl. He has so many layers, he's so intriguing and complex, and there is so much depth hidden behind the charismatic mask he wears and it is when he is hurting and masking his pain that it really shows the most.
Sorry, I'm rambling. Anyway, seriously, thank you so much for the lovely review! It really meant a lot to me and truly made my day!
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed)
25/04/09 03:05 PM · On:
A beautifuly written story, lots of emotion, this brought tears to my eyes, heartbreaking.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
Author's Response: Thank you for your kind review and kind words. It meant a lot to me.
Reviewer: penmin (Signed)
22/04/09 10:13 AM · On:
Wow, I felt the intensity of the grief you put into words, and everything else that made John become what he did, a joining of two worlds, the one before the fire and the one after. And a childs pain, pain that Dean will build his own walls around. Very very nicely done
Author's Response: Thank you so much for your wonderful review! I'm so flattered and so happy with everything you said. John is such a fascinating character to explore, especially considering how much he changed after the fire. I'm glad this story worked in that aspect - and with Dean too. Thank you.
Reviewer: moira4eku (Signed)
22/04/09 09:28 AM · On:
How very sad. Poor John, it's a miracle he could function at all. I always wonder at exactly what Dean witnessed all those years ago. Great fic looking into the past.
I too wonder how much Dean saw that night, while I don't think he saw much more than the fire (which is traumatizing enough) I like to speculate that he might've seen more but because Dean's so closed off about that sort of thing, if he did see more, he would never mention it.
And as for John, I think the big tragedy of "Supernatural" is John and how Mary's death affected him. It's been established that the John before the fire and the John after the fire were almost like two different people. Had he been able to truly function and move on and work through his grief, the show would be vastly different. Sam and Dean would be different. Y'know what I mean? But that's what makes John such and intriguing and complicated character.
Thank you so much for the positive review and generous rating.
Reviewer: Vanessa (Signed)
22/04/09 06:32 AM · On:
Wow--this was simply heartbreaking. Wonderfully written and evocative. Great stuff!
Author's Response: Thank you so much for your flattering review and the generous rating! I'm glad you liked it!
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed)
21/04/09 10:57 PM · On:
So sad and so beautiful.... You captured the essence of the Winchester tragedy that occurred that fateful night. It brought tears to my eyes. Wonderful job! Hopefully expressing John's grief can help you through your tough month. I'm sorry to hear your life was touched by so much loss, too.
Author's Response: Aw, thank you so much for the lovely review and kind words. They mean a lot to me. Writing this really did help get me through my April funk, and I'm glad that I still managed to write a decent story I could share. I'm glad I was able to to do John and the Winchester's situation justice and I'm so glad you liked it. Sorry and happy to hear this brought tears to your eyes.:) Thanks again.
Reviewer: NongPradu (Signed)
21/04/09 09:19 PM · On:
This was just heartbreakingly beautiful. I could see all of it playing out like a movie in my head -- a movie that made me choke up and cry!
This was a beautiful piece and I hope it was as cathartic for you writing it as it was for me reading it.
Thank you so much for your kind review. It really was therapeutic to write and I'm so glad that you liked it - sorry to make you cry!