I honestly can never thank you enough for writing this; the episode left me in shock, traumatic to watch them say those horrible things, especially what Sam said and I needed an answer so desperately and now - thanks to you - I have it! Amazing, touching , so sad and also very beautiful and I cried and smiled at the same time while reading it. I think it really was this way, Sam lost himself when Dean died and he just couldn't stand to lose him again. Hope with all my heart it will be in the end for them like this, that they can hold on to each other and the love they have for one another is permanent! Love you for this, THANK YOU!!!