Reviewer: copycat666 (Signed)
10/01/09 05:10 PM · On:
How I Feel
great one so sad but so very true
H! Thanks for the review and the pretty stars.
Well, the whole last scene was so awfully sad. It haunted me. Which is exactly why I needed closure and came up with closure Winchester-style. "Let's not go into it further... let's brood and wallow in angst", heh. Love them when they do that!
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed)
10/01/09 04:33 PM · On:
How I Feel
Thanks for this fic, it's nice to get more thoughts and emotions at the end of an episode,it makes it more complete.
They left us with a big OMG at the end of that last epi! Man, it bugged me. I had to write something about it. However, it only sounded right after nearly 2 (!!) months. I desperately needed closure and so do the boys and the whole fandom.
I am very excited to see how the show deals with Dean's confession.
Hugs ya and thx for commenting!
Reviewer: fantasycatcher (Signed)
10/01/09 06:56 AM · On:
How I Feel
Wow baby gurl, I should check on your bio for stories more often. This was just sooo....then it was just sooo...and I was sooo....arghh how do I describe what this did to me?
I felt sick reading all the torture, it was soo vivid that I had to blink away the tears that filled me up. Wow! You've come a very long way, and you just get better and better at dragging those heart wrenching emotions out of a scene and slapping it in front of us, raw and all!!! You're amazing =D love that song btw...
Love and hugs
Your baby gurl!
AW Schelz! Nice to hear from you. Sorry I have been quiet these last weeks. I am really busy with my further ed and it is sooooo exhausting. Got exams coming up till May... every week or so I need to hand in papers. And last week my computer crashed and stole roughly 70 pages of written stuff and supernatural piccies, banners and fiction. Was crushed.
The only free time I have goes into writing to find motivation for my next bit of work. Therefore, I love you for leaving me a review on this one and putting some bright stars in my dark skies... TA!
Hugs ya baby girl!
You going to Asylum 3? I am!
Reviewer: CatzEye (Signed)
10/01/09 05:05 AM · On:
How I Feel
Oh my gosh-
"Staring blindly into the flaming red ball of light slowly climbing the morning sky, Dean was lost in his thoughts. Despair shrouding him in a veil that hid beauty, love and understanding from him."
Your writing is beautiful, and I simply can't get enough of it...
Sam helping Dean with his walls just, well, got me....
You just keep breaking my heart, is the only thing I can say against you... ;)
And hi again Ash!
I don't know if it is beautiful *blushes*. I still need a lot of practise as English isn't my first language.
But I know it certainly is angsty. Heh. And I don't want to break people's hearts. It is just how I feel about the boys... they break my heart with every secret worrying glance at the other...
Thanks for reviewing and those pretty stars...
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed)
10/01/09 04:40 AM · On:
How I Feel
Don't even know where to start, this is so amazing and with Staind's 'It's been a while' framing it so perfectly, it's legend! You show in a heart-wrenching way how Dean was broken in hell and came back with a scarred, hurt soul, his biggest fear now to have lost Sam's love, "Hell had stolen his last and most treasured secret. His brother's love and respect" - an unbelievable painful insight!! And then Sam's reaction (will love him and you - for writing it - forever for this), that his love for Dean is unconditionally and he will go all the way with his brother; and he proofed it right away by helping Dean to restore a bit of his wall and normality, the bitch-jerk exchange at the end giving a perfect indication that it worked and there is a glimmer of hope for them! THANK YOU, it's grand!
Nice to have a long review! I always pour my heart out in the reviews. I know it is some work to do them like that and that is why I always appreciate a detailed review!
About Dean's fear he lost his brother's love and respect: I really think that would be the worst for Dean, even worse than being in hell and torturing souls.
And I am absolutely certain that Sam would go all the way to make Dean feel better. Even if Dean thinks it can't be done. Or even if it meant Sam's own death or him becoming evil or anything. He'd as gladly sacrifice himself for big bro as Dean would vice versa.
The hope in the end was more out of my own need for hope and closure. The last three oneshots have been really dark. I always prefer angsty, tragic stories when I write but this time, the writing took its toll and it made me feel low. So, to make Sam, Dean and me better I thought they should have a little silver lining...
Ta for reviewing and the ickle starsies!
Reviewer: saltnburnem (Signed)
10/01/09 12:43 AM · On:
How I Feel
Love that song!! Great job on thoughts from Dean and Sam.. I always hope for some closure after heart-wrenching scenes.....but often, there isn't much. Your story makes for great closure!!
Hey ya. Thanks for takin the time to drop me some lines.
I can so relate to your need for closure. That last scene before the winter break stewed in my heart and I was desperate to find closure. Guess that was the actual reason I wrote this. To put my heart at ease.
And it's only a few days till the next epi! yay!