Reviewer: lam (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 11:41 AM · On: Chapter 2
I just discovered this as I'm not on the site much anymore. It is, as always, beautifully written and totally in character. I think the thing that strikes me the most about this is how everyone's grieving process is really so very different. I'm not sure that I even buy into the "seven" stages theory - though I did like that the site Dean references says they are fluid... Anyway, this is quite timely for me as I face my mother's first birthday without her. Your Pop's dates and hers were so very close - my mom Nov.4 1933- May 1, 2008. She would have been 75 this year. She was already surprised that she had beat my dad by over 4 years. My thoughts will be with you on the 6th -- I know from my dad that it's not an easy anniversary to mark...
Author's Response: Thanks Lisa - it great to see you back even for a little while. I'm not sure about the seven stages myself - can't really remember how many I went through. But it sounded good in theory. First anniversaries are always really, really hard, as are the first birthday after they have gone. Our thoughts are with you too.....Jules
Reviewer: kwater (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 09:44 AM · On: Chapter 1
Wonderful opener Jules. And your tribute to your Pop was beautiful. Great chapter you can really just feel Sam's grief. - Catch you on the next one - Kel
Author's Response: Thanks Kel. Glad I got Sam's grief across. He's going to have a few ups and downs as he works through the stages. Thankfully he will also have his big brother to help pick up the pieces.....Jules
Reviewer: Midge (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 09:07 AM · On: Chapter 2
Great update, thoroughly enjoyed it.Liked seeing Dean dealing with Sam's friends and realising that he might just have to do chick flick moments. Looking forward to seeing Dean 'enjoying' more retail therapy.
Author's Response: Yes, Dean may have to face a few chick flicks moments to break through the wall Sam has put around himself. As for Dean 'enjoying' his retail therapy - something tells me it may not quite go to plan. Hope you enjoy.. Jules
Reviewer: Vanessa (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 08:53 AM · On: Chapter 2
Ouch. Your poor fingers. I wish them, and you, a speedy recovery, Jules. This chapter was amazing. You convey Sam's grief so well; it's just breathtaking. The last part where he was sleeping in the car was superb. I can so see Dean behaving this way as well--complete and total big brother mode. Looking forward to the next update.
Author's Response: Recovery is slow but hopefully progressing. Lot's of people liked the sleeping in the car scene. I'm glad it came off so well. I do love Dean in big brother mode... ah hell I just love Dean. Hope you enjoy the shopping trip in the next update.....Jules
Reviewer: Vanessa (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 08:43 AM · On: Chapter 1
I missed your posting of the first chapter of this story. I'm sorry. It was absolutely fantastic, hun. And your dedication at the beginning to your Pop was a wonderful, heartfelt tribute. I'm so sorry for your loss. **Hugs** to you.
Author's Response: That's alright at least you've arrived now. Hugs back - thank-you. Great to have you along for another rollercoaster ride......Jules
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 06:47 AM · On: Chapter 2
Grand update, you started here something really great, giving us a stunning description of Sam's despair and grief threatening to eat his soul and Dean so painfully helpless facing it - but, and I love how you write this, he won't give up on his little brother, not until Sam comes back to him! One very special scene, expressing Dean's affection and care just beautifully was when he joined Sam to sleep in the car ("You're not alone in this, Sammy, okay? I'm here. I gotcha. And I'm not goin' anywhere."), a wonderful moment! It's such a treat to read this story, thank you and I hope you're feeling better soon!!
Author's Response: Thank-you for that. Glad you liked the car scene it's a very Dean thing to do. And you're right he will never give up on his little brother. Thanks for the getwell.. Jules
Reviewer: kiara_ratterjmouse (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 04:02 AM · On: Chapter 2
ha dean in a shopping centre would be like a drunk bull at rodeo. sorry bout your fingers - i hope that piccie i sent the other night cheered you up. keep up the good work - i'll need something to read when i chill out next friday kiara
Author's Response: Thanks Kiara. I got a chuckle out of that mental image. And yes I did enjoy that piccie - I want one of those for Christmas too. Hope you are staying up late, seeing as it's now 11:30pm our time. It's a long time to chill out......Jules
Reviewer: calUK (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 03:57 AM · On: Chapter 1
Wow - beautiful story so far. (As always...) So sorry to hear your loss, it must have made writing painful for a while - but I hope that things are starting to get a little better now and that you can find a measure of comfort in the middle of the angst... Looking forward to more whenever your fingers are in one piece again!
Author's Response: Thank-you for that. It was painful - I was in the m iddle of posting Ripple Effect when Pop passed away. Luckily the story was finished because my writing ground to a halt for quite a while. Things are much better now, although this one was hard work in places. Chuffed to have you along for the ride... Jules
Reviewer: pranami3 (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 02:23 AM · On: Chapter 2
WOW!!!! Like the brotherly bond. Wish I had a Big brother like Dean sometimes.....So caring. Feel bad for Sam too. Anyways waiting to know what is Dean's tactics.....of helping sam. Good Job btw!!!
Pranami :)
Author's Response: Am hoping that brotherly bond holds strong for the hell of a ride we're getting in season 4. Dean's tactics will be revealed in the next chapter. Hope they don't backfire. Thanks for that.. Jules
Reviewer: amethyst (Signed) · Date: 01/11/08 02:21 AM · On: Chapter 2
beautifully written, sorry you're injured can't wait for more
Author's Response: Thank-you for that. Hope you enjoy the shopping trip in chapter three.. Jules
Reviewer: kiara_ratterjmouse (Signed) · Date: 31/10/08 07:21 PM · On: Chapter 1
ARGH PLease update soon!!!!!!!! (sory to pressure you :)
Author's Response: I thrive on pressure.....*roll eyes*
Reviewer: calcium77 (Signed) · Date: 31/10/08 05:25 PM · On: Chapter 1
Awwwwwww....I started crying even before I got to the story. You talking about your grandfather put me over the edge. Then the story....man that was heartbreaking too! I have to start handing out candy for haloween soon and my eyes are all bloodshot!
Author's Response: *hands over tissue*..... sorry about that. Hope your bloodshot eyes got better quickly. Hope you enjoyed the first chapter - more tissue warnings coming up.. Jules
Reviewer: cheri (Signed) · Date: 24/10/08 08:09 PM · On: Chapter 1
Fantastic!!! I had almost forgotten how horrible that scene had been--great job expanding on it---very emotional--poor Sam!!sob--your Pop would have been very proud!!
Author's Response: Great to have you along. It was a rather shocking end to the pilot but it did ensure we'd be back to find out what happen. Lots more emotional stuff coming up. thank-you I hope he would have been......Jules
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed) · Date: 24/10/08 09:41 AM · On: Chapter 1
This was a beautifuly written story, having lost my dad and my sister i can relate to Sam's grief very well in this story, you portrayed his pain and feelings perfectly to me. I'm sorry for your loss,i loved reading about your grandad,he sounds like he was a wonderful man. sending hugs x.
Author's Response: Thank-you. The grief was easy to tap into, as mine was still so fresh. Hugs back - he definitely was a wonderful man. Hope you enjoy the rest of the story....Jules
Reviewer: kiara_ratterjmouse (Signed) · Date: 24/10/08 03:33 AM · On: Chapter 1
ha i never thought he was going to have a shower. this is fantastic! i'm hooked! its a great portrayal of sams feelings and deans too. I thought there was only five stages to the denial process? kiara
Author's Response: LOL - he did take a while to get in there didn't he? Thanks for that - I do like trying to get inside the boy's head. Hope I do it justice. Re the grief process - the web site I found (which I forgot to add the link into the first chapter) listed seven stages of grief so that's what I based it on......Jules
Reviewer: vonnie836 (Signed) · Date: 23/10/08 09:26 PM · On: Chapter 1
I don't really how to tell you this, because I'm kinda out of words here. You have really started something here that is already great and gripping. What you got here surely came from your heart and I can feel it. I can't wait to see how you have Sam deal with his grief but also how Dean will deal with his. I already can see how he griefs for not just just with his brother. You are an awesome writer and I have the feeling you will more than live up to your potential. On the other hand, I want to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. It doesn't matter how old someone is when they die, they will always leave a huge hole in the live of those that they leave behind. To go on with our lives seems sometimes almost impossible but the the love they leave behind will never be taken from us. Your pop sounds like he was a really awesome man and left you with quite a legacy. I can see the love you have for him and I hope that you will find hope and healing in your times of despair. It sounds like you have some really good friends to help you through this. Hugs, Vonnie
Author's Response: Thank-you so much. It did come from the heart, and there were times when I had to stop working on this because it touched a little too close to home. You are right this will bring out Dean's grief over his mother's death while he tries to help Sam through his. Sam won't be the only one having nightmares. Yes Pop left a huge hole but he also left us lots of good memories and we were very blessed to have him for as long as we did.... Jules
Reviewer: amethyst (Signed) · Date: 23/10/08 08:32 PM · On: Chapter 1
That was beautifully written.As someone who has also lost close loved ones, you captured the emotions perfectly for me.Both Sam's disbelief and anger and Dean's helplessness in the face of overwelming grief. thankyou for sharing ,not only this story but also your beautiful pictures of your grandfather with us.
Author's Response: Thanks for that. Grief is a hard emotion to capture if you haven't been through it. I can understand Sam's anger perfectly, not through Pop's death but from the loss of someone special 11 years ago I felt the same anger. Thank-you for reading, hope you enjoy the upcoming chapters.....Jules
Reviewer: Midge (Signed) · Date: 23/10/08 02:22 PM · On: Chapter 1
God bless your grandfather, it sounds as if he helped make you the wonderful writer you are today. I can understand why you found writing this story so tough, the emotions are vividly accurate. But my favourite bit has to be Dean recounting the story of the bird to calm Sam to sleep. Just wonderful. Looking forward to more.
Author's Response: Thank-you - he certainly was a big influence in my life. I did find it extremely hard to get back into this story because of the grief aspect. Some of my emotions ran very close to Sam's. Glad you liked the bird story... Jules
Reviewer: bia1007 (Signed) · Date: 23/10/08 01:45 PM · On: Chapter 1
Fantastic start and what a totally lovely tribute to your granddad, I'm sure this made him smile in heaven; had such a wonderful grandpa myself, still miss him sorely but we truly can feel blessed we had these special persons in our lives! Amazing chapter, painfully catching the horror of this night, when so much ended and started for our guys, will love to follow this story.
Author's Response: Thankyou so much - I hope that it did make him smile. I'm sure he is having a great time up there catching up with his family and getting in lots of sailing. Great to have you along. So much did change for both brothers that night. They both have a rough ride ahead... Jules
Reviewer: pranami3 (Signed) · Date: 23/10/08 01:09 PM · On: Chapter 1
Well, this was awesome. I guess, this story is really going to be worth reading.....both brothers broken, one for his girlfriend, the other one for his little brother. This was really really awesoem. Keep it going. Cant wait for the next chapter to be posted....... A brilliant job btw!!!
Pranami :)
Author's Response: Thanks Pranami. Glad to have you along for the ride. And you're right both brothers are broken and dealing with their own grief. This will bring back bad memories for Dean.... Jules
Reviewer: SupernaturalGeek (Signed) · Date: 23/10/08 09:01 AM · On: Chapter 1
This has all the beginnings of a lovely story and your dedication at the start was really touching. I was always curious about what made Dean turn back in the pilot, and I like your explanation with the watch stopping. I feel so much for both of them right now - Dean is trying so hard but it is going to be a while before Sam can even think about being ok. At the moment all he can see is revenge, and that is definitely not a good road to travel down as we all know.. I look forward to reading the rest, and I just wanted to quote this bit as amidst the sorrow it really made me smile: "I swear, I didn't know whether he was gonna tear you a new one, or laugh himself sick. There you were, sittin' in the middle of the trail, holding a handful of feathers and lookin' up at Dad with those wet puppy dog eyes of yours. You were so worried about that stupid freakin' bird - made Dad and me go look for it to see if it was okay. We finally found it after about an hour - man, I thought Dad's blood pressure was gonna go through the roof. Bird was okay - I mean, it was seriously freaked, but anything would be freaked after some kid practically blew its ass off with a load of consecrated buckshot. And I bet it would have hurt like a bitch to lay an egg for the next week or two." Great start :)
Author's Response: Thanks for that, Michaela. Regarding what made dean turn back - that was actually a missing scene from the pilot I always wondered too what made him turn back. i sort of wish theyed left that missing scene in because it made more sense. Trust that you liked Dean's little flashback.... Jules
Author's Response: Opps sorry for the typo but I am typing for Jules as she dictates... Chris
Reviewer: janebear (Signed) · Date: 23/10/08 08:50 AM · On: Chapter 1
I have been a member since summer and just love it here. I felt that I should leave you some awesome feedback. I have been reading all of your stories and have to say that I am a HUGE fan of yours. I love the angle you are taking on this story. I also wanted to send my heart out to you on the loss of your grandfather. He sounds like he was a great man. I too am very attached to my grandfather. He was more like my father. I didn't see much of my father so I had my grandfather instead. I just felt like I had to tell you that and wanted to send you a heartfelt hug. I also wanted to let you know that I love this story and love your talent. Thanks for all of your hard work and I look forward to more chapters to come. many hugs to you, Jane
Author's Response: Welcome to the site and thank-you so much for your awesome review. I wanted to tap into Sam's anger and his desire for revenge. But the grief will eventually bust out. Luckily big brother Dean will be there to pick up the pieces. Can relate - my grandfather was my father figure too. Hearfelt hug right back at ya, and thank-you once again for your kind words. They really mean a lot to me..... Jules
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