Well hey, Stacy. And welcome to UnGen the home of wonderful fanfic...
I like this missing scene as it clearly spoke of the things Dean must have been thinking after Layla left. He is such a brave warrior and saviour but if he fails he will torment himself... You described this guilt-fest very well. I quoted a few bits to comment on them
...Why do I deserve to live and not her? Why me?... This so like Dean. He gets to this question whenever he fails to save someone or is saved unexpectedly by some unforeseen intervention. His low self-esteem issues always attack him then. Life vultures circling over a dying cow, his low self-esteem just waits for something like this to happen and start gnawing at his insides. I won't say too much in case you haven't seen the latest episodes but rest assured if you haven't, he still hates himself. Even more than before.
...If there is then why do so many people suffer? Why do bad things happen to good people?... Like on S04E02. Castiel scene. I won't comment too explicitly here to prevent others from being spoilt, but I like the way you kind of connect Faith with the last episode. Very similar questions...
...I cast my eyes heavenward and offer a simple prayer for her though I expect it never to be heard... First of all, here is the promised prayer. And Layla's miracle. And secondly, I bet someone above heard him. Always looks out for him. I just wish he knew/believed it too. No, wait. That would turn Dean into another character and we don't want that, do we? I like Dean the way he is...
Well done and waiting for your next stories.
Thank you so much for the welcome! I'm glad to be here and am looking forward to sharing and reading more SPN fic! : )
Thank you so much for the quote/comparison to Dean's character. I've been so worried I wouldn't write him well and keep working on it. Thanks for letting me know I'm on the right track and thanks so much for reading! Take care!