Another poignant, powerful and so intense chapter. Loved the end of it about the safety of their small Winchester cocoon, so beautifully said. I'm so loving this story and your writing Nicole, amazing. I'm looking forward for your next update. 

Author's Response:

Hello again, Oceane! Again, glad you and gaelic liked the Winchester cocoon...I'm happy it worked and didn't hinder. It so easily could've worked against me.

Double hugs for the double reviews...and big thanks all around. 

This really was worth the wait. Absolutely amazing chapter! And very intense. Excellent job!! I just hope I could write like this *sigh*

Author's Response:

GOOD!!! I was hoping it'd be satisfactory enough that you all would excuse my gross tardiness!

Aw, well, I haven't read anything you've written, but I figure we all wish we could write like someone, or at least I know I do. Trust me, every time I read someone wonderful like one of my friends' fics or Big Pink, kimonkey or Sodakey, I get the biggest case of, "I wish I could do thats" you've ever seen. Almost convince myself that I'm so 'beneath' them that I should just quit. 

This is why I love you folks so much, you keep my head up and my fingers typing! Thanks, sweetie, that was very kind of you.

 

{{I'm cheating and copying, but I have a baby calling my name and wanted to support you on both sites...}}

First -- the title. That vid pretty much stomped all over my heart and then I immidiately downloaded that Dishwalla song to play it to death. So, NICE choice there. In fact... the song literally just came on my iTunes... Heh.

I know what parts you were concerned about, and I think you did a wonderful job -- Sam's talk with Dean after Bobby left was nicely paced and very much needed. Both of them have a tendency to blame themselves for things they can do literally nothing about, but Sam seems to be the worst culprit of that. He wallows in guilt while Dean shoves guilt down deep inside with every other emotion that slowly tears him apart. And I think the cadence and the tone of that conversation illustrated both tendencies beautifully.

This demon is a nasty sonuvabitch. The description of the blood and saliva pouring down its chin when it smiled, smearing on Dean when it ::shudders:: *kissed* him... UGH. I loved that you had Sam see the torture Dean had endured for so long -- I always love stories when Sam bears witness to how strong his brother is. Amazingly, it always seems to surprise him, but somehow... that works. Hearing Dean break in the grip of the demon had to be torture for Sam and you captured that nicely. Favorite phrase? "Winchester cacoon." I smiled every time I read that.

Also really liked: "Sam needed to have a firm grip on things at all times, to have stability in his thoughts and actions. Dean had long ago accepted the uncertainty of life and knew that control was only an illusion at best." Nice display of the dychotomy of the brothers.

And now... Plan B. Because you just *know* Plan A won't work. They're Winchesters! When has Plan A *ever* worked?? C'mon handcuffs... ::wink::

Author's Response:

Hello lady! Big, big thanks to you for your encouragement and help. Seriously, I know how busy you are.

Glad you liked the cocoon thing, I was so afraid it sounded cheesy. Almost asked you about it.

And, yeah, as soon as I watched that vid I was also rushing to nab that song and the video. Now both are downloaded to my laptop and worn to oblivion. I thought this title was so much better than the other two I tried out.

Of course Sam had to see, I really wanted him to see what Dean went through, to realize once again what a wall of strength Dean is. 

Thanks...and you know how much I value your opinion, so double thanks. 

Just always so worth the wait. Fantastic chapter!! So many great moments...  "a bitchier bitch-face" - LOL Having Sam trapped and watching Dean's pain - okay, I give. He gets it finally, and I can forgive him for abandoning Dean - but really in the end, only because that's what Dean would do... I love Dean's plan - do you know, I've been tossing that around as a possible way of him getting out of the demon's deal on the show!! Great minds and all that - lol.... And the final image of the Winchester cocoom - gah! Thanks for this - I will always be waiting - because you always deliver!!! Please don't feel that you need to end this quickly - take your time.....

Author's Response:

Yeah, that bitchier bitch-face was one of those last minute additions...glad it worked out ;).

And that whole plan b of Dean's was not planned, either. I didn't add it in at the last moment, but it was not a part of my original plan...it just sorta fell out of the sky while I was writing it...weird, huh?  Maybe you've been sending out signals via telepathy.

Well, how about I take my time but hurry up doing it, lol! I really wanted this to be finished by now, but just couldn't make it happen. Oh well, no reason to rush...I'm pretty sure there's no way I can make it by the premiere now anyway. That'd be two chapters in two weeks...if I can keep it at two and not bleed into three.  I'm thinking I'll just make the next one extra long and then an epilogue, but we'll see.

Glad you liked it and thanks! 

more! more! more!


Author's Response:

I'm trying! Seriously, been staring at the document for two days...and, nothing. There's been too much going on and I can't seem to focus. I need QUIET! LOL. Maybe I'll find some soon.

Nicole 

Gotta add my thanks for this exciting and enthralling story...please keep writing.

Looking forward to the next chapter!

Thanks a heap. 

 

Author's Response:

Oh, well you're very welcome! I'm enjoy the fact that people are actually entertained by something I'm writing, lol! It's quite huge reward when people respond to it.

So, thank you for reading and responding :)

Nicole 

I'm so glad you updated :) Very good and emotional chapter

Author's Response:

Well I'm glad you enjoyed it! Not too emo, then? I was trying not to over do it, but sometimes I can't help myself.

Thanks for the review and until next time, happy reading!

Nicole 

"I can hear the baby crying.." Oh Man! Sam asking Dean to stop because he doesn't want to hear Dean's dreams. Wow, you've got the angst turned up a notch dontcha?  and I love it:)

Oh Yeah, glad you updated...this is a fantastic story!

 

Author's Response:

Thank you!!! I guess my gig is up...I'm exposed for the angst junkie I really am. Hope you continue to enjoy it and I really appreciate the reviews!

Nicole 

Good Lord woman! I don't even know where to start! This was a powerhouse chapter! I really liked the link you've created between Dean and the creature, making Sam and Bobby have to get a little more creative in terms of getting rid of it.

I gotta say, the visual you created of Sam rocking Dean while he ranted about not being able to save Hannah and Daniel...almost reduced me to tears...incredibly well written and really powerful. I swear, one of these days you will have me curled in the fetal position bawling my eyes out!

I'm really looking forward to seeing how this all turns out...it doesn't matter if it takes a while...you're always worth the wait :-)

Author's Response:

Yea!!! She liked it! I have to be honest, one of my struggles with the last few chapters was not wanting it to be too easy for Bobby and Sam, so I'm glad you liked how I worked it out. Can't have it be TOO easy, afterall.

You are such a sweetie for all the kind things you said. Thank you, it does my heart so much good.

Nicole 

Nice update. I really enjoyed the way Sam took care of Dean, and how you're building toward a great battle over Dean's soul. That creature has its nasty claws in him, and I'm over here praying you don't make us wait too long...That last paragraph:"Amazed and proud of the man his brother had become..."I love stories where Sam and Dean are hurt, but strong...if that makes any sense, and Sam knowing what might happen to him, and still willing to do whatever it takes...that's my Sam. That's the Sam I love. He's got a huge burden to carry, and his brother's life is in his hands...but like Dean, I'm amazed and proud of him.-SJ

Author's Response:

(((hugs))) I like that...a great battle over Dean's soul. I think Dean is proud of Sam, it's just too bad that Dean can't see that a large part of the man Sam has become is because of him.

Glad you liked it and always looking forward to your reviews!

Nicole 

I was so happy to see this appear in my inbox. I would have read and reviewed sooner, but a 13-month-old doesn't really understand "Mommy's gotta find out what happens to Dean..."

The "older than evil" demon-winged-creature thingy was truly creepy. Especially when it scratched on the window. Made me shiver. And I like that it's not gonna go down without a fight. You had some grade-A angst goin' done and then I read the line "we've got a set of handcuffs..." and I *grinned*. I KNOW, I know, I'm twisted, but I suddenly flashed to a conversation you and I had about a million years ago about two other brothers and I literally ate UP the rest of the chapter to see where you were going to leave it... and now I swear I'm going to chew through my lip in anticipation of chapter 13 and that whole bottling ritual thing to get rid of this demon because (and I blush to saw this out loud) you're gonna use the handcuffs. And I *know* you know what I mean.

Poor Bobby having to remind Dean about John. I mean, he was Bobby's friend, too. Can't be easy to have to repeat that information. And the scene with Sam rocking Dean was very sweet. I see why you gave props to Onari - but it worked really well in this moment for your versions of these characters.

Nicely done, and I'm looking forward to more.

Author's Response:

Well, yeah, it's about time I got to the handcuffs, don't you think? Took forever to get it worked in. Yeah, I asked Onari before hand if I could borrow that. It just HAD to be in there in some way.

I actually looked these spell things up and that one book really exists...but I may play or tweak things as I need them and not actually use them word for word, etc.

And, lol, no, 13 month olds don't understand such things. Neither do eight year olds or four year olds. I had to read yours with one or both of them piled on me, lol.

Enjoyed your review...I'm smiling now. Thanks.

Nicole 

 

 

  

Wow...

NExt please!!!! 

Author's Response:

Thanks! Working on it right now :) Almost finished and then its off to the betas!