Reviewer: mizpah (Signed)
07/09/08 04:33 AM · On:
I read this up at Petra's this weekend, and I was just blown away. Sitting in the quiet early morning in her lovely office, with a peaceful hush over the rest of the house, absorbing some truly beautiful and inspiring words is definitely the way I'd love to start my Sunday mornings.
Love was his shield, redemption was his sword, and Sam was his salvation - I really, really love that. Heavens, I can't do this story justice. It's a brilliant piece, and my heartfelt thanks go not only to you for writing it and sharing it, but to Petra for steering me towards it.
Wish I had half your talent.
Hello and Hiya and hope you and my wonderful friend Petra had a superbe weekend. Wish I could have been there with ya, it would have been a blast.
Thanks so much for your kind words about Salvation. I bet Petra was too modest to tell you but a great chunk of the inspiration for the piece was her LHR-Out. I am glad you liked it because it was a piece that surprised me as it was not what I set out to write when I sat at my laptop that day but it was in there and it came rushing out. I do feel very attatched to it!
Your kind words have made my day.
Reviewer: PropGal (Signed)
04/08/08 12:46 PM · On:
beautiful, just like the first time i read it.
Author's Response: thanks babe, had a crap day...that made it better! bev xxxxx
Reviewer: Andromeda171 (Signed)
17/06/08 04:40 PM · On:
wow I loved it
Sam is truly Dean's only salvation
I liked the way it was written, very unique
Keep it up :)
Hey Jaylan (cool name hun!)
Thanks so much for the review, and I hope very much to keep writing..you too. Just read your poem - very cool! Bev xx
Reviewer: kwater (Signed)
14/06/08 07:50 PM · On:
Just came across this and I have to say it's stellar. Absolutely loved it. The images you created as his shield were perfect. Thanks for the terrific read - Kel
I am flattered beyond belief as I admire your writings tremendously. This was a, somehow, very personal piece for me and not my usual style at all, but It is sortta special to me so reviews for it are like gold.
Thanks you have made me very happy. bev xx
Reviewer: calUK (Signed)
08/06/08 02:11 PM · On:
Wow, still great, still sends that little shiver down my spine. Beautiful!
You sweet girl you! Thanks hunny.
Reviewer: CdeWinter78 (Signed)
04/06/08 11:15 AM · On:
Birdie.... birdie .... birdie..... what can I say, you bowled me over!!!!! I am sorry it has taken me a while to find this - I must have missed it- don't quite know how with that amazing banner and all!
I am a little stuck for where to begin - where can I not compliment you on something, would be a far simpler review to write. Your timing, style and even construction of prose was breath taking. You sent out your grindingly dark imagery with perfectly sculpted phrasing and the construct of the piece itself. I loved how you took us through his defenses almost like the demon horde were eroding it - Dean is unprepared for the torment that waits on him... he "thought he'd known" pain and fear, but you bring both to life on the whole new scale of hurt Dean is experiencing them on. Adored;
"The top notes of his pitiful song were wrought by the sporadic jolts of cruelty that pulsed pain of even greater intensity down the hawsers, governing his obscene aerial ballet."
It just dripped tears and pain - how can you go there and take us so effortlessly with you? Equally breath stealing was;
"They showed him, over and over again, the ruination of all he held dear and when he begged for mercy they screeched their pleasure and rewarded him with images of death and wanton destruction born of his failures."
Of course his darkest fears are born out of his insecurities about what he views as his failures - I think you have that right on the money.
Now that you have stripped away Dean's resilience and unshakable stoicism and cast iron 'Game Face' - you bring this baby home with the smallest glimmer of everything that is heroic in this man. He uses the ills in his life to build on and become stronger - I was blown away by the way YOU found to express that;
"It was his waking agony and his sleeping nightmare. And yet it would become
his salvation. "
Knew you wouldn't take us to the pit and abandon us there!!!! The way he fights back converting the darkness with the strength of the constant light at his very core, brought tears to my eyes. Your description of his use of his memories of his Mother and of course Sam were nothing short of genius and absolutely true to character I feel. Loved how you stacked those pillars that he his bracing his soul against together ;"Love", 'Redemption", "Salvation". all add together and form this impenetrable shield bound by one word "Sam".
You have surpassed all the high expectations I already have of you - the feel of this piece was astonishing - I read it twice and dare say will come back to it again. You have an awesome talent - what more is there to say - BRAVO Lady!!!!
What can I say? That is such a sweet, throughtful and generous review. It was a different piece for me to write and it feels very personal. Which makes it all the more special that you liked it. You know how I admire your descriptive talents and so to have approval from yourself is a pleasure indeed.
Thanks, you have made me very happy bev xx
Reviewer: mymuseandi (Signed)
01/06/08 06:03 AM · On:
Aww....i love how you format this story...it's broken up into pieces, so it creates more impact to the readers, like telling us that THIS particular point is important, and that readers should pay attention to it..
And leaving Sam as being the last point; that was impactful (is there such a word?) as well....i mean we ALL know Sam is his whole world, so it's fitting that you saved the best for last!!
I love the LOVE part the most. i feel that although Dean doesn't say it literally, it's shown in every single thing he did, especially towards his brother and father and even to strangers. and i feel that he's so full of it that even being in Hell won't diminish his self... am i even making sense here?? just know i love it. :)
Yes you're making sense hunny and that's a sweet review. I formatted it this way after some input from Lou -Bulletbabe and she was so right as i think it enhances the 'broken-ness' of Dean at this point.
And yes Sam is the centre of Dean's world so it made sense to me tht Sam would be the thing that would help him fend off the terrors of Hell.
Thanks Lyn, you write a lovely review.
Reviewer: BoojieGirl (Signed)
29/05/08 05:24 PM · On:
That was incredible. That was Dean. Thank you.
Hey Boojie (cool pen name hun!)
Thanks for your sweet review, and I'm glad you could find 'your' Dean in mine. He is adorable isn't he? thanks again, bev xxxx
Reviewer: danny (Signed)
29/05/08 12:32 PM · On:
awww i have tears in my eyes. That story was lovely. i really enjoyed it, keep up the gud work i look forward to reading more of ur stories.
Awh, sorry to make you cry hunny! Glad you liked it and thanks for your sweet review. Bev xx
Reviewer: lekelly (Signed)
29/05/08 08:14 AM · On:
Wow Bev, that was simply stunning. I loved wvery word.
Thank you, that's such a lovely thing to say. It was a surprise to me when it was finished that I had written it as its not what I thought the piece was gonna look like but it was in there so came out!
Love ya hun. Bev xx
Reviewer: CricketBee (Signed)
28/05/08 10:01 PM · On:
Gadzooks woman! This was beautifuly crafted. The alternative story form really makes this sing and boy what a marvelous melody. This passage in particular made me gasp out loud:
He took his agony and turned it to armour; moulded his despair into a weapon of infinite power to strike back at the seething horde. He became all that he could be, and he shone with the light of his belief.
This really ran the gamut from utter despair in the beginning as Dean is caught in the Pit, to the bright light of hope shining out as he finds his Salvation. Your writing is so amazing, my jaw hangs down in awe. Wonderful. simply wonderful. thank you for the highlight of my day.
CricketBee, Christine...such a cool pen name!
Hey hun, thanks for your very kind words, I am honoured and tickled pink by your praise and happy if it brightened your day.
Thanks! Bev xxxx
Reviewer: clclemmons (Signed)
28/05/08 08:15 PM · On:
You took my breath away. This is so beautiful. Absolutely stunning for such a short piece. So raw and powerful, emotional and heartbreaking. Bravo, take a well deserved bow my dear friend.
So glad you're home, I missed you. Thank you for this, your opinion is of great value to me and these kind words mean such a lot.
Reviewer: Janger (Signed)
28/05/08 06:34 PM · On:
OMG Bev, what are you doing to me, I'm sitting here crying my eyes out. Totally awesome, that held me spellbound!
Taking us down to the very depths and then managing to bring us back from the edge. I love the choice of 'weapons' which allow him to survive, grow stronger, win.
Incredible, powerful, wonderful writing. Fantastic banner Lou!
I really dreaded our Dean ending up in hell but it sure is inspiring some stunning writing.
Amulet's in the post. x Jane x
Sorry babe...I don't know where it came from really...sat down to write and this popped out! Heehee, surprised myself bigtime!
Thank you for your kind words, (god I am such a review slut!) and yeah how bootiful is that banner? Lou's a top girl!
Thnaks hunny and go boot up new lappie!!
Loves ya hun! Bev xx
Reviewer: jeanne (Signed)
28/05/08 06:23 PM · On:
BEAUTIFUL!!! In one word.... hope
Thanks for writing.
That's a lovely review, thank you. And yes, I am glad that hope was the pervading message you found within the words as that's what i was feeling when i wrote it. I want our boys back and together and ok!
Thank you very much for reviewing. Bev xx
Reviewer: ReccaF (Signed)
28/05/08 04:56 PM · On:
WOW......and WOW again!!!
You painted a vivid , horrible , heartbreaking , poignant, tearfilled picture...AWESOME!!!!!
all that Dean is suffering, yet hhis true strength-his family. beautifully done.
Sam -all that encompasses Dean's world- Sam ....total love and totally there for him OUTSTANDING!!!!
The tears are still falling-you got me right in the emotional soalr plexis- Excellent writing!!
And a wow back at ya Hun, thanks for such kind words. Believe me its a bit of a surprise where this came from as its not quite what I set out to write when I got up yesterday morning! But it was to be it seems and so there you go!
Sorry to make you cry but hey its good for clearing out the sinuses...i should know the amount I cried writing it!
Thank you again. bev xx
Reviewer: Birdy (Signed)
28/05/08 04:38 PM · On:
Ahh Bev, I still love it.
You describe all the pain and the fear so wonderfully that even a stiff upper lipped Brit like me get's a bit teary and worried for our boy.
But then you turn it around, as he does too, constructing his armour (let's face it he has had enough practice at that!) and fighting back so that it is ultimately uplifting.
This is fantastic, as always. Very well done m'dear!
Wow hunny, how lovely is this for a terrible old ego manic like me?
Thank you for your lovely words and for the help to turn the raw stuff into this surprising thing. Who'd have thought it?
Love ya Kirst!
Reviewer: Cookie6 (Signed)
28/05/08 04:18 PM · On:
Wow, Birdie, this is beautiful. You have wrapped words around what we all feel - it’s actually very exotic - both in word crafting, visual style and interpretation. I love your spin. Kripke left us hovering and you give us what is happening while we wait in agony, agony we share with Dean, all wrapped up in your own unique style and beautiful words.
The suffocating aura of despair and resignation just leaches from this work in waves, all radiating from Dean to hit us without mercy. I believe the success of a piece of writing is to not only put your movie in a readers head, but to make the reader feel like they in the movie itself. You do this with precision. It hurts to watch.
Your lead in “he thought he had known…” caused me to suck in my breath each time I read it and I wanted to run away rather than face where you were taking us. You leave us in no doubt of the magnitude of the pain and fear of Dean’s suffering as you make the abstract tangible with clever writing - nothing could prepare Dean for the intensity and cruelty of what he is experiencing - a previously inconceivable existence of evil torture and cruelty as only Hell can inflict, as they have waited a year to inflict, as they inflicted on John.
Your choice of phrasing was simply perfect throughout this fic. “That pain “…whispered for him to weep; and was the melody of his screams” is a stunning example – how deep this fic is, I cried deep in my soul cos that’s where you put me. “Yes, I get it!” I wanted to scream!!! And OMG “The top notes of his pitiful song were wrought by the sporadic jolts of cruelty that pulsed pain of even greater intensity down the hawsers, governing his obscene aerial ballet” Phenomenal writing!!
Yet in pure Winchester – in pure Dean – you give us Hell with an underlying glimmer of hope and strength. This line stole my breath “He became all that he could be, and he shone with the light of his belief” And here it is - Love, Redemption, Salvation…Sam. His shield, His sword, His heart…Sam. Just friggin’ beautiful!
And I love your setting out – it echoes Dean’s suspension in nothingness like a visual metaphor - you invoke Kripke’s last image with crystal clear clarity *shiver*
Thank you so much for the shout out. This is a perfect tribute to my fic and I am honoured that my work contributed your awesome story.
don't know what to say! Quite tearful really...Damn yet another Princess Emo moment!
Didn't expect to write this yesterday, Cookie, but it was there and so it came out.
That it in any way tributes LHR is an astounding pleasure for me and thank you for giving it your blessing. I wouldn't have posted without it.
Your words will go with all my other adored and treasured Cookie reviews and I will squeal shamefully over it and the others frequently.
You and your family are in my thoughts tonite and I will say one for you all. Thank you my dear friend.
Reviewer: bulletbabe (Signed)
28/05/08 04:11 PM · On:
I'm blown away by this yet again Bev, just a beautiful, painful, emotional ride with definate hope and light at the end of the tunnel...
Incredible writing, some of your very best I think...XXX Louy
What can I say? Get the eye wash Lou I've got a bit of something in my eye here...
Seriously (yes i can do serious if i try really hard!) thank you for your help taking the raw words and refining them. I appreciate all you do for me very much.
Reviewer: darkhunter (Signed)
28/05/08 04:01 PM · On:
Wow. very powerful writing.
Loved chapter ending.
That one word was his salvation.
Great to hear from you again and thank you for your very kind words. It was a strange one for me to write but it was in there and hadda come out! Glad it worked OK for ya.
Reviewer: RoweenaC (Signed)
28/05/08 03:24 PM · On:
Gawd, you evil-bev-bird!
...backbeat of evil that hummed constantly down the wires that suspended his convulsing limbs... ...his pathetic whimpers as he trembled in his shackles... .....top notes of his pitiful song were wrought by the sporadic jolts of cruelty that pulsed pain of even greater intensity down the hawsers, governing his obscene aerial ballet.... This is so tangible, shivering here. Goddammit, someone help him! And the obscene ariel ballet, gawd, how brilliant and poetic.
...voices of madness chittering and shrieking with delight at his torment... ...His sob of lonely broken humanity was their ambrosia and they fed from his shuddering carcass like the harbingers of decay and death that they were.... Owh, I am so scared for him. Sobbing madly now...
...He took his agony and turned it to armour; moulded his despair into a weapon of infinite power to strike back at the seething horde.... At this point I was screaming Hurray, Samir even nearly dropped his mouse to the floor and shot me an annoyed look. This is so like Dean. Savouring what little strength he has and building on it.
...limpid green eyes.... aaawww. His eyes... okay. Feeling a little better already. They have a soothing effect on me I think.
Love (is a shield to hide behind.... haha, you know me and my 80ies music. But it fits in a way!)
...his mother’s laughing face... Okay,back in tears again. Dang, that is a terrific story. Very proud and very envious...
...father’s arms about him on those precious occasions .... sniffles. Heart breaking...
....see only the warm hazel of his brother’s gaze holding him in its safety... Sammy, yeah. Keep your mind on him, Dean. He'll get you outta this hell....
I really like the format, too. Poetic. And that his family is his way out. Still in shock. Gonna read it again. God, what a masterpiece. Bevvie. I am sooooo awed. Such powerful, excellent and brilliant words.
Thank you for your lovely and thoughtful consideration of the words. It was a shock to me that I wrote this as it wasn't what I intended to write when I set out but somehow it was just there.
you are a dear girl for your kind words and I'm glad you're my friend.
Reviewer: Vanessa (Signed)
28/05/08 03:21 PM · On:
I cried my eyes out. Is that okay that I did that? This was beautiful, terribly sad, poignant. But this is what I want to see. It was a pleasure to read after hearing about some of the awful spoilers going around for Season 4.
I'm heartbroken and want our boys back.
Thank you for what you said, I was so very unsure about it as I was not expecting this to emerge when i set out to write yesterday. I wanted to find some redemption, some mitigation of despair in the situation and this is what came out.
I am honoured that you, a writer who is truely a poet, would apply such description to my words as i always feel in comparison to yours they a brutal clubs to beat the reader with. You have made my day Ness Thank you so much.
Reviewer: impalamedean1 (Signed)
28/05/08 02:46 PM · On:
I loved this story!! it was soo awesome!!!! great job!!!
Hi Jess and thank you for your kind words, they are very much appreciated. Bev xx