HI BJ

Another great chapter, I love how you write Bobby and Dean together. And I think I've finally learned how you get inside Dean's head so well....those little chapter notes.

I'll tell you what I'd tell him.. no doubts, no fears only belief and the knowledge that you are good at what you do..I love your stories, they take you in and involve you.

I know from experience that sometimes it is hard to get in the grove and I also feel that finishing a story and being happy with the ending is a huge deal and one that I don't always manage myself...but I live with the knowledge that I tried my best and at the end of the day...that's all that matters.

Can't wait for the update, this story is fabulous..kick those doubts into touch lady!! Now!

Cheers Mary xx

Author's Response:

Hi, Mary!

I do love Bobby and Dean together, how close they are.  Always good to hear others think I get inside Dean's head.  I always feel more confident writing him, I think because Jensen makes him come alive for me.

Thanks for all the support, over all the chapters and stories.  I try to not be needy as far as reviews go and stay true to my own beliefs, but sometimes the doubts creep in.  I'd rather have worries that I'm not good enough, than ever get arrogant... Don't think I ever have to worry about that one, tho. LOL

I always feel the most pressure to have a good ending.  My last chapter is always written before I get there, I have to know where I'm going and how I'm going to close out a story.

Yep, at the end of the day all we can do is our best, and then try to do better the next time.

Take care, B.J.

Reunited with his baby. 'Bout time!

Author's Response:

Yes, Dean is finally on the road to recovery and being behind the wheel of his baby is his first step.  Another Winchester reunion!  Yay! 

Later, B.J.

God these two have got serious issues. They keep thinking everything that's happening to the other one is their fault. Honestly, I love them to bits but sometimes I just want to give them a slap and tell them to stop being stupid.

Author's Response: Oh, yes, the Winchester angst!  But it all comes from love.

Poor Dean, poor Sam. A broken family falling evermore into disrepair.

A little depressing but true. Just please tell me that things get back to normal.

Well, as normal as it gets for these three.

Author's Response: That's the thing with them, isn't it?  Their normal is worse than any of us could imagine surviving, and yet they do.  Somehow they keep going and yes, they will find their normal again.  Dean will be back in the fight.  Take care, B.J.

Oh God let Sam find him. I've got a feeling that you're gonna be responsible for a lot more of my tears first though.

I liked how the doctors assumed he was a soldier, cause that's how we think of Dean really. Mind you -

 'The war was finally over for this broken warrior'

They got that wrong. It's only just beginning.

Author's Response:

Dean is a soldier in a very tough and important war.  While most would be out of the battle after half of what he's endured, Dean is so very strong and he will fight his way back.  Love that man!

Later, B.J.

Hiya well it's 1.53am and I have just finished Ch17.  Your version of Dean's return from hell has blown me away.  The young Dean in the diner saying "how about you do it for me", Dean's initial reaction to not being able to drive his baby and the part where Sam wakes and finds his brother on the floor and what transpires - gut wrenching.  Yes S4 is fabulous so far but this story is portraying so much of Dean's inner turmoil.  As I read I could picture his facial expressions and mannerisms so well.  An amazingly well written piece (...of pie...) of work.  I look forward to the next chapter.  

Author's Response:

What a lovely review, thank you so much.  It is a benefit of fanfics, we can spend the time examining his reactions and allowing him the time to work thru them.

I so love using young Dean to talk to Dean, he needs to practice that self-care that he so rarely allows.  And the car, so crucial to who Dean is and what a shock when he doesn't want to drive at first, for him and Sam.

My good friend, Swan, who is such an inspiration actually had a similar dream concerning Jensen/Dean that she said came from early drafts of my story.  I felt it perfect to incorporate it into the story.  Kismet, I suppose.

Again, thank you for such a wonderful review. Take care, B.J.

another awesome update..glad Dean finally decided to drive the Impala again..hopefully he is on the road to recovery. Can't wait to read more. Thanks for writing.


Author's Response:

Thanks, again!

Yes, I thought I at least had to get Dean behind the wheel of his baby.  I do think he takes comfort in driving, something familiar and basically his only home.

He is on the road to recovery, but it is long and winding, but he is definitely going to make it.   Take care, B.J.

Great chapter,  Dean's recovery continues, thanks for writing it, Please update soon. looking forward to the next chapter to see how Dean is coping.

Author's Response:

Hey, Maureen,

Thanks for reading and reviewing.  Yeah, We'll give him a few more chapters to find himself. 

Take care, B.J.

Take all the time you need in finishing this story. I've loved it so far..Awesome chapter ..nice that Dean finally recognized Bobby and Sam..Loved the hug that they shared..Please update as soon as you can. Thanks for writing. 

Author's Response:

Thanks so much.  For some reason the muse has been working overtime and the chapters are coming fairly quickly.  What a relief!  LOL

Thanks for reading and reviewing.  Take care, B.J.

Well, i thought that Sam would get through him, but i'm glad that Bobby is able to illicit a response from him. hopefully next chapter you would bring Dean and Sam closer together????? :p

Author's Response:

Bobby is a great comfort and Sam will be, it is just taking longer than I thought.  Dean is under tremendous pressures and the healing is slow.

Thanks for reading and reviewing, B.J.

The doctors were unsure if they were seeking a blood brother or a comrade in arms, one amongst the brotherhood of soldiers.  In any case, this Sammy, the one person who might be able to break through the silent wall the poor bastard had erected around his fragmented mind, couldn't be found.  Perhaps never even existed, one more fantasy his mind created... only this time to offer hope.

This paragraph reminds me so much of World War Two. i know, random, but  i've read quite a bit about that war recently, and now, mention the word soldier or war and my mind is transported back that. 

Dean is a soldier, but i think many people don't think that maybe he has untold horrors that he has faced and that when he unravels it's just too horrible to swallow.

Author's Response:

Actaully I intended for Dean to be compared to a soldier of war since I do think that best describes what they are facing and how he will suffer from PTSD.

I think now, most compare him to an Iraq war verteran, but WWII works too.  Band of Brothers probably played in my thinking too.

Later, B.J.

Another wonderful chapter.

Dean with his mam was so beautiful.

It must be torture for Sam to be so near to Dean and not be able to see him yet.

Looking forward to more.

Author's Response:

Thanks again!

Yeah, poor Sam finally having Dean back but still being kept from him.  I keep meaning to get them closer together, but the story dictates keeping them apart... for now.

Take care, B.J.