Ok....this is a one ..two..punch..CALEB...dead...!!!!!!

Dean hurting..Sammy at a loss ...

AWESOME JOB!!!!!!!

You're not supposwe to make people cry at work.

You could cut the emotion with a knife- the pain just oozed from the screen.

Caleb -he's the 3rd Winchester son as far as I'm concerned - not suppose to die.

powerfull, poignant, painful- you are amazing  -your writing is OURSTANDING.

I don't know if I'll make it to the 8th- this one really hurts.

EXCELLENT  WORK!!!!

BRAVO

I love that poem, it brought tears to my eyes. As I read on I only got to feeling worse, only writing as good as yours could make me feel so damn bad!!!! *Smiles* I am a huge fan of Damien and the Deuce, the way you characterise their relationship makes me wish that it wasn't an AU but in-fact cannon! The brilliant part is that their bond takes nothing away from the Sam and Dean link, if anything it is a fantastic way to see exactly how much Dean cares for his brother and how fiercely loyal and loving he is, behind his closed doors. You style of writing is both funny and sharp, and I am going to be hanging out every week to see where this goes.

OMG, my heart is hammering...Caleb!! I know this is a back story, but I'm still in shock! This fic was breathtaking for two significant reasons. Firstly, you have dealt such a sensitive topic with the honesty, sadness and brutality of real life. Secondly the way you wrote of death's impact on our Winchesters was just agonisingly sad and intense, showing that no matter what we have endured, we never get used to it.

I loved how you portrayed both the boys reactions to the charged atmosphere, their antenna buzzing with the intuition of being part of a close family and the alertness of being a hunter - readings from similar radars yet manifesting in totally opposite reactions.

Your reactions from each of our three boys was heartbreaking because it was so true to their own natures, and to their intimate understandings of each other. Writing mostly from Sam's pov was stunning, as the outsider, observing, not quite comprehending...

Sam's bewilderment at the out of character behaviours of the two men who are his rock was beautifully written. His confusion at seeing John subdued and already grieving and feeling Dean instantly wired was crystal clear. "Dean?"- it made absolute sense to me that this would be the first word he spoke, looking for explanation, reassurance and safety, from the one person he has always relied on for this guarantee.Then his shock, denial and open grief, your awesome description made it so tangible it hurt. It was the innocence that is Sam. Him collasping into his father's arms was exactly right for that moment, poignancy at it's best. 

Dean trying to play down the seriousness he knew was about to engulf him at the exact same moment he moved in to protect Sammy from it's impact was awesome, so Dean. And then you showed us his trauma with the dramatic impact it was for him. His silence borne of grief was mindnumbing. Your flashback cemented for us his close brotherly relationship with Caleb - so well that we felt it's intensity without even our BAU history. Yet his focus is still on Sam with that reassurring hug when Sam was so heartbroken. *sob* Epic work RJ!!

John sititng at that table all day with his own grief, sucking it up knowing he had to tell his boys just broke my heart. Him addressing Dean directly knowing how he would react, embracing his shattered Sam, picking up on the anxiety belying Dean's snark - spoke everything of how John's eye is always on his sons. I've always loved your portrayal of John.

For me your line that packed the biggest punch - "Did Caleb know how much John loved him?" John's raw emotion as he reflected on building the jeep, it felt like it just 'slipped out' of this memory...Outstanding writing!!

Mac's grief is going to know no bounds, and I hope the Brotherhood can stay united as they deal.

I was SO excited to see a new fic arrive from you! Another BAU - always a treat, and you always live up the high quality that we have come to expect from your work. Can't wait to the 8th (even though the wait's gonna kill me, I love the idea of the Christmas countdown) And knowing that "Victor" is just around the corner is a thrill.

wow. So I'm going to go with everyone else both here and on ff and just assume that you MUST be messing with us cuz we know that Caleb is alive and well in Victor.... But guh! Dean shutting down is never good. It will be interesting to see who, if anyone, can get him to talk.... Pastor Jim - maybe? Sammy - better bet...John? - unlikely.... I will do my best to be patient for the 8th.... Maybe a little Victor between now and then?????

Awesome job!!